• 🇺🇸󠁿 🇧🇷 🇨🇦 🇦🇷 🇲🇽 🇹🇹 🇨🇺
    The Americas
    Drug Discussion


    Welcome Guest!
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
  • NSADD Moderators: deficiT | Jen

General Heroin Discussion 20 v. Walking Around in Women's Underwear

With the anti-depressants I guess its kind of like that porn quote "I can't define it, but I know it when I see it." There's just a different feel.

The word dependent is actually in the definition for addicted.

And counselors, fuck man please don't get me going on them. I've had maybe one or two good ones, but many who were so fucking dumb street smarts wise.

Anyone see the soccer game? Couldn't care less about the sport, but I won't lie felt real deflated for about 15 minutes after.

Enough with you and your dictionary! You seem very anal. Not an insult, i guess that can be a good thing. But you keep saying, "in the dictionary it says...." "the definition is..."

I dont live my life according to Merriam-Webster :p

Edit: my clinic doesnt give a rat's tiny butt about failing for weed either, benzos dont count also.
 
Plus the word dependent may be in the definition of addiction, but the opposite is not true. You can be dependent without being addicted. That was one of the points that Tommyboy was mentioning.
 
Hey Shea, coming from an expert on all things shitty I'll take that as a compliment. I live in the real world where things are not arbitrarily defined. I'd put some type of smile face here, but forget that.

Carl, it being in the definition means anyone described as "physically and mentally dependent on a particular substance" is addicted.

I did try to change the subject to soccer, haha I guess that wasn't the best direction.
 
Soccer probably wasn't the best choice of topics. Maybe you should have went back to the fore-skin debate.
 
hate when your boy has your dope and is supposed to swing by w/ it, or says he's on his way yet he's no where to be found.

earlier today my boy came by w/ 3 40's. he swings by and I shoot 1.5. all goes well. he asks if he could take what is left over in order to measure it out so he can weigh it and make sure it's on point, so I say "YEA, GO AHEAD", realizing that if it's gone I wont shoot the rest and since I need it for the AM, it's prob best thing. also, he's on methadone and hasnt been using, so I trusted him. anyway, that was around 6PM, and now it's 11PM and he's no where to be found, ha. I still trust the kid but I am just NOT HAPPY because I wanted to have that shot waiting for me the minute I woke up, not hours after I woke up, or who knows what else, ya know!?!? damn son!

EDIT: he called while I was writing this; he's on his way here, supposedly.. we'll see. he said the Phenibut I gave him while he was here made him feel "whacky" and feels like he "G'd out". he was supposed to weigh out my dope, which he said was UNDER the .4 it SHOULD have been and only weigh .29. he was also supposed to add MORE DOPE TO IT since I gave him some of mine originally but the Phenibut fucked him up too much and he wanst able to pick up.. so now that .29 SHOT in the AM will do ZERO for me aside from make me NOT SICK! oh well, at least the dope will be in my system for the done clinic.

UGHHHHHHHHHH! NEVER GIVE ANYONE YOUR DOPE!
 
I don't see why we should think we NEED to be "clean" I mean if that's what the oerosn needs great but I figure just being able to get that big problem to a point where its no longer a problem anymore then your golden and why should you think your not doing good cause someone told you otherwise. For instance I'm on suboxone and no longer use heroin and my life is improved big time opiates are no longer this huge problem for me and I can live life. I agree I say clean is free from every thing mind altering that includes weed ciggs and booze but for many this is too extreme and unnecessary as they can enjoy those things without returning to their DOC. I don't refer to myself as clean I just can't cause it was too easy/painfree to get on subs and I still smoke weed to get buzzed if I went around saying oh I'm clean yep oh yea drugs are bad be like me don't do them I would be the biggest hypocritite. I don't really care though I just say my opiate addiction is no longer a problem and I stick to my script.
 
hate when your boy has your dope and is supposed to swing by w/ it, or says he's on his way yet he's no where to be found.

earlier today my boy came by w/ 3 40's. he swings by and I shoot 1.5. all goes well. he asks if he could take what is left over in order to measure it out so he can weigh it and make sure it's on point, so I say "YEA, GO AHEAD", realizing that if it's gone I wont shoot the rest and since I need it for the AM, it's prob best thing. also, he's on methadone and hasnt been using, so I trusted him. anyway, that was around 6PM, and now it's 11PM and he's no where to be found, ha. I still trust the kid but I am just NOT HAPPY because I wanted to have that shot waiting for me the minute I woke up, not hours after I woke up, or who knows what else, ya know!?!? damn son!

EDIT: he called while I was writing this; he's on his way here, supposedly.. we'll see. he said the Phenibut I gave him while he was here made him feel "whacky" and feels like he "G'd out". he was supposed to weigh out my dope, which he said was UNDER the .4 it SHOULD have been and only weigh .29. he was also supposed to add MORE DOPE TO IT since I gave him some of mine originally but the Phenibut fucked him up too much and he wanst able to pick up.. so now that .29 SHOT in the AM will do ZERO for me aside from make me NOT SICK! oh well, at least the dope will be in my system for the done clinic.

UGHHHHHHHHHH! NEVER GIVE ANYONE YOUR DOPE!

You don't need to tell me that I don't care what the circumstances are I hang onto my dope no matter what I don't trust any heroin addicts they are all liars.

Good luck on the Meth it will be good to see you get out of this shitty cycle.
 
I don't see why we should think we NEED to be "clean" I mean if that's what the oerosn needs great but I figure just being able to get that big problem to a point where its no longer a problem anymore then your golden and why should you think your not doing good cause someone told you otherwise. For instance I'm on suboxone and no longer use heroin and my life is improved big time opiates are no longer this huge problem for me and I can live life. I agree I say clean is free from every thing mind altering that includes weed ciggs and booze but for many this is too extreme and unnecessary as they can enjoy those things without returning to their DOC. I don't refer to myself as clean I just can't cause it was too easy/painfree to get on subs and I still smoke weed to get buzzed if I went around saying oh I'm clean yep oh yea drugs are bad be like me don't do them I would be the biggest hypocritite. I don't really care though I just say my opiate addiction is no longer a problem and I stick to my script.

by no means do I feel I NEED TO BE CLEAN.. but at the same time I have a KILLER PROBLEM that made me go DEAD BROKE and is hurting my life in many ways (2 DUI's, jail, drugs, OD's, etc). so yea, I NEVER HATE on ANYONE who uses drugs, any drugs, in any way possible (IV, sniff, oral, anal, whatever you wanna do, man) but if its hurting your life, then its def. something you need to reconsider, ya know!? thats why I always bring it up and I am looking for a NEW DRUG to help me in DIFFERENT WAYS! this is why I am going down the methadone road here! I will be on probation soon, and maybe be taking drug tests, so I need some type of drug IN ME, so I might as well go the legal route, right? we'll see, tho.
 
You don't need to tell me that I don't care what the circumstances are I hang onto my dope no matter what I don't trust any heroin addicts they are all liars.

Good luck on the Meth it will be good to see you get out of this shitty cycle.

he just swung by and returned my 40 (although it was wrapped in a new bag, double bagged) and also added another .2 or so onto it in another bag which was a different color dope; you can see it in the pic, right? take a look below.

anyway, I am not shooting this till morning but will update then. I have the clinic appointment tomorrow at 1230 so I am waiting to I can piss dirty and also NOT BE SICK and be feeling OK for the time tomorrow. we'll see how it all goes. like you said, I need OUT OF THIS SHITTY CYCLE, bad!

anyway, he came by, felt bad for passing out on me, and threw me 2 klonapins as well.. so thats a plus!



can you see the color difference in there? his dope is darker and my dope is lighter.
 
Carl, it being in the definition means anyone described as "physically and mentally dependent on a particular substance" is addicted.

I did try to change the subject to soccer, haha I guess that wasn't the best direction.

Dependent doesn't have to mean physically and mentally dependent. You could just be physically dependent on it, like many people who take pain killers for pain management are. People who have never abused them, but would still get WD symptoms if they suddenly stopped. They do not depict typical addict behavior. Dependence doesn't equal addiction. I'm not going to respond anymore after this.


As for soccer, I played soccer many years growing up. It was fun and I miss it. Unfortunately not many people give a shit about it. Then the World Cup comes on once every 4 years and majority of the US pretends they know everything about soccer. It's lame.
 
I know a friend who's father takes lipitor for his heart. He is dependent on it. If he doesn't take lipitor he has heart problems. Does he get high or euphoria from lipitor? I mean... maybe the peace of mind knowing that he won't have a heart problem if he continues to take the medicine, but he's certainly not addicted.

Addiction and dependence are not the same thing. I am dependent on my car to get me to work. Am I addicted to it? No
 
^^+1 an A+example.....Case and point on the car dependence.

Now about that soccer addiction...... I am fiend'ing hard for 90mins of back and forth action that ends with everybody winning and nobody losing. Kinda like a good night in bed often times it takes a last second header to bring the match to a climax. Oh shit! Am I treading dangerously towards dicks and Vagina talk.
 
Last edited:
Not a second after I got done typing my last post the phone rang and I just found out that one of my cousins was robbed and killed this morning :( The word on the street is that this notorious dope fiend is responsible. Now one of my other cousins is trying to hunt the guy down and my Aunt wants me to try and find him before he ends up in jail for vigilante homicide. Fuck this world sucks sometimes. I feel like I just got punched in the stomach.
 
^^+1 an A+example.....Case and point on the car dependence.

Now about that soccer addiction...... I am fiend'ing hard for 90mins of back and forth action that ends with everybody winning and nobody losing. Kinda like a good night in bed often times it takes a last second header to bring the match to a climax. Oh shit! Am I treading dangerously towards dicks and Vagina talk.

Soccer just sucks how can you have a tie in a playoff game?

Not a second after I got done typing my last post the phone rang and I just found out that one of my cousins was robbed and killed this morning :( The word on the street is that this notorious dope fiend is responsible. Now one of my other cousins is trying to hunt the guy down and my Aunt wants me to try and find him before he ends up in jail for vigilante homicide. Fuck this world sucks sometimes. I feel like I just got punched in the stomach.
That sucks about your cousin man I hope the dude gets what's coming to him without your other cousin getting in trouble.
 
Thank you so much for your condolences Welderman. The rumored perp was found in an alley beaten within an inch of his life. I have no idea what happened but I know my cousin was not involved but it was a bit of mob justice I suppose. This has been a very emotionally painful day for my entire family. I don't know why but it has almost been painful in and of itself that such a shared dramatic and life changing event in my family did not draw much attention away from the normal today's dope, cock/vag and the West Side is so hot right now talk. I don't know what I expected by sharing such personal information on a drug message board but I thought I had built enough solid relationships through my posting that I might receive a bit more support. Perhaps I am being a bit to sensitive because of the events of the day and I just want to thank everyone in advance for their prayers and well wishing for me and my family during this difficult time.

This cousin was a brother to me and I have come to respect and feel a connection with many of my fellow bluelighters...... So thank you all for helping me deal with this because I am having a very difficult time in my sobriety at this moment and I am still beyond shocked. It's almost as if I can't bring myself to believe that it is true. My shock and pain is causing a brutal sense of vertigo and I am trying to hold it together for my poor Aunt. I love you guys but most of all I love and miss my Cuz. Prieto. May you rest in peace brother. I pray now that I may stay sober and if I am unable? I pray that the drugs are strong enough to help numb the pain without causing a protracted relapse. Thank You All.
 
Soccer just sucks how can you have a tie in a playoff game?

I think they only have ties in the opening rounds when the teams are still in brackets and they are earning points for each win or tie. The top 2 teams in each bracket move on to the next round.


I'm sorry for your loss somnilicious. I can't imagine how you'd feel. I've fortunately never lost someone in such a violent and sudden way. My condolences to you and your family.
 
I think they only have ties in the opening rounds when the teams are still in brackets and they are earning points for each win or tie. The top 2 teams in each bracket move on to the next round.


I'm sorry for your loss somnilicious. I can't imagine how you'd feel. I've fortunately never lost someone in such a violent and sudden way. My condolences to you and your family.

It turns out the guy was found in an abandoned house nodding out from the dope he had taken from my cousin in the robbery. A bunch of my cousins faithful clients then drug him out into the alley and with respect to my cousin stomped his high ass and then took turns pissing on him. I am not one for vengeance but I can't say I am not pleased. However I will not feel vindicated until he is prosecuted even though it will never take away from my families loss or bring my cousin back.
 
Last edited:
Fuck it I got to go get high. I know it is selfish being that it is my Aunt and Uncle's son but if they don't find out and I don't shove it in their face than I don't see the harm. Can't deal with this right now without numbing.
 
Hope you're ok, man. I've lost close friends and a parent previously, but never to a violent act like that, with a responsible party. Just god and circumstance and whatever else to blame.
Do what you have to do, but it sounds like you realize that your sobriety is a very important thing to you and your family. Just be careful, cause in that state of mind, whatever pain your in, it's probably really easy to make a mistake - and I don't think you wanna cause anyone in your family any more pain right now.

Hope you get through this ok, you and your family.
 
Thank you so much for your condolences Welderman. The rumored perp was found in an alley beaten within an inch of his life. I have no idea what happened but I know my cousin was not involved but it was a bit of mob justice I suppose. This has been a very emotionally painful day for my entire family. I don't know why but it has almost been painful in and of itself that such a shared dramatic and life changing event in my family did not draw much attention away from the normal today's dope, cock/vag and the West Side is so hot right now talk. I don't know what I expected by sharing such personal information on a drug message board but I thought I had built enough solid relationships through my posting that I might receive a bit more support. Perhaps I am being a bit to sensitive because of the events of the day and I just want to thank everyone in advance for their prayers and well wishing for me and my family during this difficult time.

This cousin was a brother to me and I have come to respect and feel a connection with many of my fellow bluelighters...... So thank you all for helping me deal with this because I am having a very difficult time in my sobriety at this moment and I am still beyond shocked. It's almost as if I can't bring myself to believe that it is true. My shock and pain is causing a brutal sense of vertigo and I am trying to hold it together for my poor Aunt. I love you guys but most of all I love and miss my Cuz. Prieto. May you rest in peace brother. I pray now that I may stay sober and if I am unable? I pray that the drugs are strong enough to help numb the pain without causing a protracted relapse. Thank You All.
Stay strong brother sometimes this place is a bit slow on the responses I think it's because most posters here are stoned when they are on. Pm me if you need to bro I would come over and hang with you if we didn't live 1500 miles apart.
 
Top