My wife and I have been married for 7 years (togetherfor 10). I am 37, she is 32, and our marriage has been amazing up untilrecently. We get into the occasional disagreements like every couple, but forthe most part it has been loving, fulfilling and happy for both of us. Whilenot as frequently as before, we still share an active and healthy sex life aswell. She is truly my goddess: beautiful, smart, funny etc. and I take greatpride in the lifestyle that I provide for us. While I work anywhere from 40-60hours per week, she is a part-time professor at a community college as well asa yoga instructor (her passion).
4 months ago I was rocked when I curiouslypeeked through her email. There was an exchange with a male name I didn’trecognize. I opened the thread to find that this man was emailing my wife sextapes of their affair while they shared sexually explicit banter. A rush ofemotions came over me, but fortunately I had hours to compose from the rage andformulate a plan before she got home. I felt as though I was blindsided: Icould not stop watching the two videos and could not fathom that the life I hadworked so hard to build with her could be taken from me. I packed a preparingto confront her and then leave for the night in order to sort things out on myown.
I dropped the bomb on her and immediately she beganto tear up and sob in front of me admitting to it and profusely apologizing. I gotupset told her I would find another place to stay. Her crying went intohysteria, she was begging & pleading for me to stay. She called non-stopduring the time I stayed at my brother’s leaving messages saying that she lovedme and it was the biggest mistake of her life. After 2 weeks I missed her, so Iwent home to reconcile. I kept asking her how she could do this to me, and eachtime she replied with “I don’t know” or “it just happened.” I found out that hewas a 27 year old professor at the college and began working in my wife’sdepartment months prior.
I told her my trust would have to be earnedback, but she had already come up with a plan to earn my trust back including cuttingthe guy and changing jobs, allowing me to track her phone and car, giving meaccess to her email accounts, submitting to an STD test, and going to therapy. Icould feel the deep remorse and her desire to reconcile. Since, she has beengrateful for the opportunity I have given her, held up her end 100%, andgenerally been a very pleasant & loving person to be around. But if only thetrust could fix the damage.
Even with all this relationship progress, Icannot fight the constant pain and torment that comes from thinking of thedetails of her affair. The memory of the videos is burned into my brain, andfeelings of pain, humiliation, and embarrassment overcome me. This has led tomuch stalled progress as I have harbored much resentment for my wife because ofit.
Their sex was completely unprotected, and he waswell endowed. She did things with this man of that we as a married couple havenever done like wear different lingerie and enthusiastically perform oral sexon him (it feels like a chore when she does it for me). What really hurts isthat she had anal sex with him and swallowed him semen more than once; thosewere two things that I asked her if she was willing to try in our relationship,and she would always detest referring to them as gross or degrading. But wordscannot describe how much she degraded herself in this video. It makes me sickto picture the disgusting things she did like licking his anus or give him oraldirectly following anal. But worst of all, she seemed more enthusiastic about allof it than she ever has about our sex life in 10 years.
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