thejibberman
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Hey, I'm not sure if there is a certain place I need to put this thread but this seemed the most accurate.
Anyway, in my total drug history I have rarely smoked weed, i'm talking like once a year at max. And MDMA i've taken in total 3 times, those two before were actually awesome! however this third one....
Also I'm 18 years old.
Back on the 8th of march I went to this night out where some really known DJ's were playing, I drank about 3 bottles of bud not knowing I was going to do any drugs, and my friends came up from home (I'm in Uni) and were doing drugs, MDMA. Anyway about halfway into the night I was like "fuck it" and took a small bomb (VERY SMALL) so i'm unaware of how much I took. Had an alright time, friends took way more than I did, woke up the next day not feeling the best thinking it's just a usual comedown, to my surprise after a good three days of this comedown, I felt super anxious and worried with some depersonalisation. I felt empty, lost and was in fear of just so many things, also I had very strange thoughts, like lots of mould and dirt (very strange I know). I actually watched a documentary about some homeless neighbourhood in america and had to turn it off because I was so scared of becoming homeless.
The strange thing is, my friends had exactly what I had, with way higher amounts than what I did, and were fine after a few days.
A week later I went to the doctors, it took me forever to get the appointment and I was honestly walking around the city for a good three hours waiting thinking I was going absolutely crazy, suffering from a bit of social anxiety too, and he prescribed me with propanolol and said the effects of the MDMA will pass in a few days. They did help a little bit but my thoughts weren't getting any better so I stopped taking the propanolol after a few days.
Unfortunately my cousin died in this space of a heart attack, and my heart was really racing within the first 4 weeks, SO I HAD TO CHECK IT OUT, doctor told me it's a completely healthy heart.
1.5 months down the line here I am still, I've improved a considerable amount, I can go out and talk, have a good night out! however my sleeping problems persist, along with my eye floaters and slight fear and DP. It starts bad in the morning, gets bearable in the evening then in the night trying to sleep it comes back. The strange thoughts don't really come anymore, which is probably the best!
Symptoms in the first week:
DP
DR
Heart racing
Severe Anxiety
Brain fog (lasted for the next 5 weeks)
Strange thoughts
Nightmares
Slight depression (only from all the symptoms)
Eyefloaters
Symptoms now:
DP in the morning
Anxiety all day
Eyefloaters
Heart racing after a night out
So bluelight, when will I feel like the happy, electronic music fanatic, energetic man I used to be? Just to be clear, I really do not want to start any medications if I can get better in time. I just need some reassurance I'm not permanently anxious.
Anyway, in my total drug history I have rarely smoked weed, i'm talking like once a year at max. And MDMA i've taken in total 3 times, those two before were actually awesome! however this third one....
Also I'm 18 years old.
Back on the 8th of march I went to this night out where some really known DJ's were playing, I drank about 3 bottles of bud not knowing I was going to do any drugs, and my friends came up from home (I'm in Uni) and were doing drugs, MDMA. Anyway about halfway into the night I was like "fuck it" and took a small bomb (VERY SMALL) so i'm unaware of how much I took. Had an alright time, friends took way more than I did, woke up the next day not feeling the best thinking it's just a usual comedown, to my surprise after a good three days of this comedown, I felt super anxious and worried with some depersonalisation. I felt empty, lost and was in fear of just so many things, also I had very strange thoughts, like lots of mould and dirt (very strange I know). I actually watched a documentary about some homeless neighbourhood in america and had to turn it off because I was so scared of becoming homeless.
The strange thing is, my friends had exactly what I had, with way higher amounts than what I did, and were fine after a few days.
A week later I went to the doctors, it took me forever to get the appointment and I was honestly walking around the city for a good three hours waiting thinking I was going absolutely crazy, suffering from a bit of social anxiety too, and he prescribed me with propanolol and said the effects of the MDMA will pass in a few days. They did help a little bit but my thoughts weren't getting any better so I stopped taking the propanolol after a few days.
Unfortunately my cousin died in this space of a heart attack, and my heart was really racing within the first 4 weeks, SO I HAD TO CHECK IT OUT, doctor told me it's a completely healthy heart.
1.5 months down the line here I am still, I've improved a considerable amount, I can go out and talk, have a good night out! however my sleeping problems persist, along with my eye floaters and slight fear and DP. It starts bad in the morning, gets bearable in the evening then in the night trying to sleep it comes back. The strange thoughts don't really come anymore, which is probably the best!
Symptoms in the first week:
DP
DR
Heart racing
Severe Anxiety
Brain fog (lasted for the next 5 weeks)
Strange thoughts
Nightmares
Slight depression (only from all the symptoms)
Eyefloaters
Symptoms now:
DP in the morning
Anxiety all day
Eyefloaters
Heart racing after a night out
So bluelight, when will I feel like the happy, electronic music fanatic, energetic man I used to be? Just to be clear, I really do not want to start any medications if I can get better in time. I just need some reassurance I'm not permanently anxious.