That was almost as good as reading Naked Lunch. Brilliant.
Sounds familiar.
Luckily the 2 times I actually started shooting H it only lasted a month or so then I stopped because my wife busted me and told my parents, they intervened and I stopped. God I remember the first time my wife busted me - I actually had a needle in my arm and she opened the door and saw it. YIKES! The next day she took my then-2-year-old daughter and went to my parents house to live, and she told them all about my little escapades. That fucked my brain up pretty bad to know that my little girl was gone because of my wrecklessness.
But curiosity got hold of the cat soon enough a year later and I got busted by my wife again. Same shit happened except people weren't as nice.
My wife and I had our second child, a boy, less then 10 months ago so now I got 2 kids and recently found out ANOTHER on is on the way! 1 more then I bargained for my friends. Anyway, I only once had a minor withdrawal which consisted of simply feeling like a really bad hangover for 2 days.
So a couple more years past and a grand connection to China White was coincidentally established. I had bad luck with shooting H in the past so I thought snorting it would be just fine and even if I got caught, it just wouldn't be thought of as bad right? since I was just snorting, not shooting, right? No big deal, not dirty needles and bad drug behavior right? Snorting is more responsible right? Not quite - since my brother-in-law just died last Saturday from a combonation overdose of valium, alchohol, and 5 bags of China White Heroine that we snorted over the course of the evening I don't think I'll be getting back into the stuff ever fucking again. He went to sleep and never woke up. Read all about it the Dark Side forum section if you want.
I always thought I had a so-called addictive personality but years later I realize exactly what it really is – I and most other "drug people" are addicted to virtual reality. Some people call it escape, but that connotes people are taking drugs to escape something negative. I've had very large drug collections in the past, and I also have very large book and movie collections. Books, Movies, and the like are also virtual reality. Through a trance-like state, we tune out the real world and tune in the virtual one.
At any rate, that original post is really amazing. It should deter quite a few people.