For the love of God, stay off benzos. I was prescribed klono in 1997 and have tried numerous times to quit. I have been able to reduce to 1mg every few days and also switched to Valium. (Klono stays in your system longer than any other benzo). I take Valium to avoid w/d. I don't get high from it. It's as though benzos have cemented themselves to every fiber of my being. My current doctor told me he'd have never, ever prescribed benzos to me. They are the absolute worst to w/d from; they are the last stop on the addiction train. There's nothing to give you to ease the w/d symptoms of benzos. I have tried four times to quit and each time ended up in the psych ward with the D.T.'s, hallucinations, psychosis, paranoia, suicide/homicide thoughts/attempts.
For me, the worst part of benzo w/d is the feeling of free falling out of the sky and The Big Dread. The latter is a fear so intense and so horrifying and so crippling. A fear of what? Anything: a piano falling on my head, rats under the bed, the cops are at the door, "who keeps flickering the lights!", "Stop changing the station on the radio!" (the radio that only I can hear) "I'm going to die. I know it, right now I'm going to die and I know you are all conspiring with the government to kill me." I can't breathe cause you're all stealing the air from me; what did you say? What! What! Someone turn that damn radio off!; I can't hear you when you all talk at once; why are my legs so cramped; I keep having muscle spasms that jolt me out of the chair; I can't breathe; Somebody kill me and put me out of my misery.
Effing crazy, ain't it. Normally, I'm not that type of person. I've w/d from other substances and it was never as bad as with benzos. Funny part of my story is I was prescribed Klono by a doctor on Park Ave.
