It's very dangerous not really sure how I'm still alive started on benzos within the same month. Went on for years.
The first few years were so much fun, now I've ruined my life. It has been over nine months since using an opiate and 15 for H and in all that time I still don't feel right. I don't think I ever will again and the changes are pretty much the opposite of what I used to take the drug for. The only positive change is that paradoxically, I have less chronic pain in my spine which was what lead me to this particular choice of drug. Though, I loved it for its mental clarity, functionality, euphoria, cognitive stimulation and physical relaxation; it was always full of surprises but consistent in its effects as well. It was fucking amazing before I got a tolerance, this was before the fentanyl stuff was around every hit was the same of that china white or afghan stuff when I had a good supply. I loved the high so much but I never really felt high when I was on it, like it's delusional a bit. Way too much euphoria before you know it you're hooked and not getting it so much anymore and like wtf. Out of nowhere I woke up one day and was addicted as fuck, about 2 - 3 years in. There were warning signs, but withdrawal was like laying in bed for a week before then when I was more into pills. Not burning on the stake.
Traumatized me I'll never be the same and my benzo use has skyrocketed and I've totally fucked my life and mind and body up beyond repair.
Left me suicidal. Probably dumb enough to go back to it even though that would likely be the end of me. I've been melancholic about life ever since post acute withdrawals hit and I don't really care if I live or die anymore after fighting so hard to quit this monster of a drug so fuck no don't try it that's how you get addicted.
I'd definitely rather have been this than a cokehead though I'd probably have way more long term damage. My nose isn't thattt bad.