Hey, it's me again. As I mentioned earlier, I never had any experience heroin or illegal opioids (except codeine with paracetamol and durogesic for pain in an injury during one of mine workout sessions) and you are all experienced than me but again I would like to write a few thing under this topic. I feel responsible because I've learnt from my lost and I had to share my thoughts while I'm biting the bullet andagainst social stigma for those who will read it. In America, you heve more luck to rewarding social practices for rocvering. But in the middle east or eastern europe and western europe even; people who has experience about drug dependency past are just a bad role model for the rest of the community, living deads. Belive me, if a person recovered, the society won't him/her recover around here. You guys have a lot of problem about health issue, social finance etc. but you must know the value the recovery culture in communities in North America. I care the people because of my experience of my lost friend. Because he is so bright, talented artist and great thinker also an intellectual. And I would liked to say a few things at all. Because in bachelor years (that means early 20's in a homo sapien sapien's lifespan) apart from the lost close friend from OD, another some frends miserably went to creepy life. Of course, I do not believe that they have such a strenght to build a friendship with anyone. I was just lucky. I've just observed, befriended oddly and suffer from them. ('Cause they are classmates too) I did not do junk or anything. But I was the same to some degree because I was trying helping myself with self-medicating with legal drugs and alcohol. (Nd alcohol was much more dangerous in 20's) I am educated later as an addiction counselor but that's another story. In master years in college from 25-30's I moved to another city and I started living estranged when I write my thesis for my MA degree. Now, I socially drinks sometimes, only using anti-depressants and anti-anxiety meds under a doctor's supervision whenever only needed -unfortunately it happens- and so on. I was only lucky because I find a thing that really bound me to the life. My career... It's knowledge, intellectual interests and art. (Must add a little social activism contrubuiton, not in organized way though, in my case). Heroin is not my thing but I would like to say a thing or two because I strongly believe that there was an opportunity for my lost friend to do things which I did. I'm sure of this. And his death is more sad situation for all us here among friends. I must sadly say that if you have how much more history that recreational drug using, there is no chance to such get use them recreationally in the future. Strict prescription drugs are not abusable in my opinion, as so much. Because in a daily routine, authorities do not allow the amounts the doctor's supervision. Of course, it differs country from country in practice. So you can hardly abuse them, hardly share them, hardly benefits recreationally from them. But script restrictions varies from country to country as I've said. In my country, abusable drugs, controlled daily. (If the script writes that 1*1 (pill a day) and if it includes a box 30 pill, you will be never get your hands on it until the 31th day) "Oh doc, I'm planning to to vacation for Barcelona with my loved one and my kids for couple of weeks. What will I do?" Doc must say that "I have not such an authority to prescribe in a some way" and only the familiar pharmacies to you, will give your anti-anxiety drugs like xanax, ritalin etc.) It's though, but I must say that it is working when it comes to regulation.
You're all experienced people and I appeciated all of you with my all heart. I'm the one who has no experience in here with the topic but I believe being an experienced about becoming a friend and/or relative to a heroin user is much suffering than the person itself aforimentioned, sometimes.
I saw incredible people, writers, professors, artists and met such people who those are really clean for a three or four decades. They contributed to the others inside the community. Leonarda da Vinci is an opium-eater, a heavy one, once in a while) Of course, in this forum everyone can do recover with no doubt if he truely do this. But I just am telling the truth: It's hard and requires luck sometimes. (Logorhytmics, rational, spritiual, faithful, whatever you wanna call this "luck" thing...) I never saw people who just tried heroin-type guys in my youth. (in art college) It's an illlisuon. Trying heroin to look for self-medicating option is the worst decision that anybody can give among all other options. Just sayin'...
With love and support
