bdomihizayka
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Hey guys I am new using this. Sorry for my english, I am from Russia, name is Tanya...
I am addicted to anything that is not relate to sobriety... I want to be constantly fucked up. From vodka (my maintenance drug <snip> ) to opiates, barbiturates, speed, x, etc... but mainly vodka and opiates and barbs now....downers...)))
I am sensitive to drugs, it seems I use seconal once, for example, and i feel out of it and slow and depressed all week until i feel myself again.... same with drinking, i take a long time to be recover from any drug.... and it makes slow, depressed, out of it days.... the consequences to my drug use far surpass the actual highs, but i cant stay away. a 4 hour high will make me feel shit all week....
For my situation, I am waiting one year to go back to school... i am so bored and depressed, noting to do, no friends... just drugs... cold, dark winter... you get the pic?)))) Just sitting at home is so boring and it seems everyday you wake up, your old same environment gets drearier and drearier...((((( hard to explain understand?))))
i need to break this cycle... i dont know how...
Just any suggestions I think.... I appreciate it
I am addicted to anything that is not relate to sobriety... I want to be constantly fucked up. From vodka (my maintenance drug <snip> ) to opiates, barbiturates, speed, x, etc... but mainly vodka and opiates and barbs now....downers...)))
I am sensitive to drugs, it seems I use seconal once, for example, and i feel out of it and slow and depressed all week until i feel myself again.... same with drinking, i take a long time to be recover from any drug.... and it makes slow, depressed, out of it days.... the consequences to my drug use far surpass the actual highs, but i cant stay away. a 4 hour high will make me feel shit all week....
For my situation, I am waiting one year to go back to school... i am so bored and depressed, noting to do, no friends... just drugs... cold, dark winter... you get the pic?)))) Just sitting at home is so boring and it seems everyday you wake up, your old same environment gets drearier and drearier...((((( hard to explain understand?))))
i need to break this cycle... i dont know how...
Just any suggestions I think.... I appreciate it
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