forgoodnesssakes
Greenlighter
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- May 27, 2013
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Hi so about a year or two ago my friend (lol, he knew i could handle it in retrospect and offered to babysit for me on the phone if need be) gave me an oversized blotter (a wee bit smaller than a full-size stamp, should have thought twice before eating the whole thing, cutting it would have been wise) that he told me was just some regular white on white. Little did I know it was the famed chinese needlepoint dose mostly found in limited parts of Cali only rarely, but we were talking about how one hit was too much for many people, and they were preferring to cut the blotters in half. I think my friend wanted to test out how strong it really was on me, as he has done with cherub doses in the past (super clean pristine doses if I do say), well I called him up when I was coming up b/c I felt a benzo would be in order and I had already used up all my landing gear the night before (ativan) but he told me it was indeed the needlepoint and to just ride it out. HAHA what a buddy! 8(
Anyways I was fine, and got alot out of the experience, in fact I have not felt an urge or desire to explore lsd since then, a couple years ago. It basically revealed to me what all my prior entheogenic use was leading up to and reinforced where I was at that time.
However, after listening to the TOOL song Forty-six and 2 lyrics: the lyrics completely blew me away as it very closely describes what I experienced (scary similarity) while I was laying in bed peaking on the needlepoint.
Anyone else have this 100% cellular level feeling of shedding your very being, having it peeled off and feeling completely renewed after the trip? Almost refreshed or reborn yet still your old self just with less baggage? Ego death?
It was not like the dark abyss of death that I have seen on mushrooms and substituted tryptamines, that abyss was hollow, this type of 'death' was brimming with life and light visible throughout the experience, not a total blackness, hollowness, or complete nothingness (not true nothingness which would be absent of both dark and light) that the mushroom & Shulgin tryptamines seem to send me off to at high doses that only lasts for a little while until the shamanistic voyage kicks in with my consciousness travelling by an exploding propulsion into a torrential tsunami of a trip that is utterly shamanistic and trance like in nature. (Perhaps I should keep on this path of meditation as I have already had ego death multiple times on psy's and can gain no more insights through psychedelics that would be valuable to the path I am walking towards a higher way of being that ends all suffering and benefits all beings).
Anyways I was fine, and got alot out of the experience, in fact I have not felt an urge or desire to explore lsd since then, a couple years ago. It basically revealed to me what all my prior entheogenic use was leading up to and reinforced where I was at that time.
However, after listening to the TOOL song Forty-six and 2 lyrics: the lyrics completely blew me away as it very closely describes what I experienced (scary similarity) while I was laying in bed peaking on the needlepoint.
Anyone else have this 100% cellular level feeling of shedding your very being, having it peeled off and feeling completely renewed after the trip? Almost refreshed or reborn yet still your old self just with less baggage? Ego death?
It was not like the dark abyss of death that I have seen on mushrooms and substituted tryptamines, that abyss was hollow, this type of 'death' was brimming with life and light visible throughout the experience, not a total blackness, hollowness, or complete nothingness (not true nothingness which would be absent of both dark and light) that the mushroom & Shulgin tryptamines seem to send me off to at high doses that only lasts for a little while until the shamanistic voyage kicks in with my consciousness travelling by an exploding propulsion into a torrential tsunami of a trip that is utterly shamanistic and trance like in nature. (Perhaps I should keep on this path of meditation as I have already had ego death multiple times on psy's and can gain no more insights through psychedelics that would be valuable to the path I am walking towards a higher way of being that ends all suffering and benefits all beings).
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