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    Hi badbesty, I have been sleeping for a long time, and have no more, im sober, and have said sorry to sum people, but sum of them I truly am done with, they fucked/have for god knows how long, our friendsship up. The gf and me is done forever, she gets me up this crazy shite everytime I fall in stims.

    But man yea im going to flush, its too hard for my family now, really I can hear/see it on them, you guys was fuckin right when I told your about I have ordered sum a-pvp that it could (would) go wrong, oh boy it did.

    Looking myself in the mirror now, a hard headed stim-fiend have fallen, and he did a long time ago. MDPV/A-PVP, can and will take the most people down, hell it took the Professor down?! Then sure thing it takes me down even after long break and feeling better etc, it smashed me right back to hell, with BIG POWER. Im done, I really have to flush that mdpv when it comes, it will detroy my world completely if I start takin it.
     

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    Nicklazz, I've been there, I can totally relate to it all. In the end, I finally managed to get rid of the mdpv I had (I was carrying it around with me everywhere because I was too paranoid to let it out of my reach), I threw it in the sea. There was just a point where I felt it couldn't get any worse and getting rid of it was the only way to stop myself...after 2 years. You clearly seem to know it can't go on, getting rid of it is the only way to get your self control back, step by step, and it's the simplest way.

    I know it's not easy, it's the most addictive drug I've ever tried.

    Good Luck.
     

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    Thats great that its all gone mate. I personally havent tried it, used to be a massive coke fiend in my 20's and from what o have read this stuff is unbelievbly addictive in comparison, so it is going to be tough.

    I found out at my low point in my coke habit who my mates were and who were along for the ride, so that is a positive from it.

    You can rebuild the relationships that you want to. But give them time.

    They will believe in you once you have kicked the habit and stay away.

    Theres no life down that road mate.

    Glad you are on the right track and take each urge and craving as it comes and stay strong.

    Always support here for you buddy.

    Keep in contact with us all, but on another thread!!

    Also make sure you flush that other order or ring them to see if its too late to cancel and get a refund
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    Quote Originally Posted by yoyo50 View Post
    My g just came, let the fun start


    i pictured you as more of a prius person brimz
    hahaha could of bought a few of them !!
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by drdoctor View Post
    Only mildly applicable (McAffee, MDPV 'use', some humor), but still... http://www.youtube.com/watch?feature...&v=bKgf5PaBzyg
    Legitimately laughed for the first time in many days
    thqanks for that
     

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    Another break is underway. Last one was a about a week long followed by a few days of apvp induced hell. Flushed on day 3 cause I couldn't take the intensity of the up and down roller coaster of the first few days of using again. Forgot how much tolerance resets after a break. Was damn near the best apvp ive ever tasted... Scary how strong it was. Decided I do not like apvp either. Mdpv is, for me, much more manageable and smooth. At least that is how I remember it... Perhaps not how it actually is.

    At about day 8ish of nothing but rest and food. Another plan of using is (stupidly) under way. This time it will be mdpv not apvp but I don't expect things to really go any better.

    A baby learning to walk must fall many times before mastering the art of walking unaided on two feet. I guess a man learning to live without PV must fall enough times before he masters the art of sobriety.

    (Sigh)
     

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    Thanks Ceres and BadBesty, will do my best. The letter has arrived with the mdpv + mxe in it, its down the post office.

    Fuckin scared of going down getting it, wish there was a way to get the mxe out of it without see the mdpv

    To Quasi post to me the side before this:

    Oh yes friend, all you wrote there is true as hell, its so embarrassing and im burning bridges everytime, it aint fun no more, have never been doing these drugs. I was an idiot ordering, and a even BIGGER idiot ordering mdpv, that I now have to flush and if I not do, I deserve sum real slappin for being the biggest yerk on the planet.

    To knock and ben:

    Have edited a post on the page before this and answered you guys.
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    Well it wasn't down on the post office, it first come tommorrow they said to me. So more waiting more thinkin.
     

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    Good luck nicklazz... I'm in the same boat as you. Pixie dust will be arriving any time. I know what I should do, I know what I want to do, I know what the other half of me wants to do... Sadly, I know what I will do once it arrives. I'm not strong enough today simply because I choose not to be strong enough. Pathetic huh?

    Good luck. You are strong enough if you want to be. Its only a choice. The bag of powder is not calling the shots, you are. You can do this. MXE provides a brighter future for you, that other bag is nothing but torment.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by MDPV_Psychosis View Post
    The bag of powder is not calling the shots, you are. You can do this. MXE provides a brighter future for you, that other bag is nothing but torment.
    Too true.
     

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    I've made a mistake. I want to continue on my path to sobriety and happiness. Fuck this is hard yet in all honesty its as easy as making a permanent decision. But why is that proving to be impossible for me? Yes or no. Simple as that? I could only wish yet that is how it is already.

    This is why I hate myself so much. All my life I have been able to accomplish anything I put my mind too. Why can't I accomplish this?

    The key here is I'm not giving up. And I don't care what anyone says... I've made a lot of progress already.

    Just keep swimming. Its worth it even when it feels like all is lost.

    ::Prays::
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by MDPV_Psychosis View Post
    Good luck. You are strong enough if you want to be. Its only a choice. The bag of powder is not calling the shots, you are. You can do this.
    If I can you can also, lets fuckin do this friend, its fuckin time.

    But damn I know there is a change a ok big one that I start tastin instead of flushin it out. Even tho it just as easy as it really is, just take the bag and drop it down and flush. Oh man.. I really feel ya dude where u are. Good luck to yourself.
     

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    I justed blinked and two days went by. And there was me planning on consciously trying to slow my head down on MDPV.

    Pre-planning doesn't work!

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    opened it, tasted it, idiot idiot idiot I am. going party soon, trying flush it there or just give it to one friend say flush for me please. sum thing damn it I am weaker than weak

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    None the less I will get me a good time today, fuckin need it, and a big concert in my hometown, will try enjoy no matter what. Take care friends, I will too. Good friday
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    cant wait got a gram of this ordered for next week
     

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    none wild psychosis or crazy things happen yet, I even just ate a pizza + sum food yesterday. But I am very pissed right now, and we with borderline disorder is VERY impulsive, I got like a g left or more and 1g mxe, thinkin of just bomb it all, but I have to think forward out also, even tho I am on mdpv now I still havin sum brain back.
    As it for now..
     

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    what do you think of mixing mxe and mdpv love mixing mxe with stims and this week hopefully il get the chance to mix the two
     

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    Fwoah tried some of this for the first time the other night, started off with a 5-10mg dose it's hard to say my scales are not very accurate below 10mg, anyways i left the house after taking the dose to run a few errands & within 10 minutes into my car journey i could feel the stimulation kicking in with slight waves of euphoria building over the next 30 minutes, by far one of the most enjoyable drives ive had in my car music was extremely enjoyable, once i got to my destination i felt saddened that the loud music would be gone. I visited a friend & conversation was free flowing and easy, even if i was talking really fast & felt quite jittery, the stimulation at times was a bit over powering and i could feel anxiety creeping in but it was not persistent.

    After arriving home about 4 hours later i could feel the effects wearing off so i IVed a small dose of heroin with a friend this was a generally pleasant experience up until about the one hour mark when i felt increasingly nauseous & ended up throwing up, this is unusual for me being the first time heroin had made me throw up. Unsure if that's related to the use of MDPV just figured it was worth mentioning.

    Anyways about 2 hours after the heroin i have another 5mg dose of mdpv & left the house to go drinking, over the duration of the night i have about 8 alcoholic drinks while eyeballing a 5mg dose from a 20mg bag every few hours, after a few hours i lose interest in alcohol as the stimulant effect is far outweighing anything the alcohol has to offer other than adding to my dehydration.
    Everything was all good the duration of the night i got home about 2 maybe 3 hours after having my last dose & seeing i was still feeling good i decided one more dose while i lay around the house is a good idea, this is where it all went down hill with in 2 hours after having my final dose my heart felt like it was going to explode, my anxiety was all over the place & i had random stabbing pains in my right arm, i attempted to calm my nerves wvia smoking some hash oil but this only seemed to make my anxiety worse & intensify the feelings i was sure were going to lead to my demise. This went on for hours i got some nitrous oxide at one point but even that was not going to help me today. At some point during the come down between the 7-8 hours after the last dose i was at a point of pacing around my house as i felt my racing thoughts push me closer & closer into a panic attack, i mumbled to my friend about maybe needing to go to the hospital or how badly i need a benzo standing there holdng my heart saying "i dont know what to do" I laid in bed for the next hour on the verge of uncontrollably shaking & trying more nitrous oxide in hopes i could anesthetize the problems away. The worst part of it lasted for an hour & after that the effects started to get to a far less uncomfortable stage, i got my hands on 5mg diazepam later in the day, had a couple of beers and managed to get sleep by about 10pm that night.

    By far the worst stimulant comedown side effects ive had, on a side note i was pretty reckless with my use between the eyeballing of doses, redosing & combining with other drugs i'd say i got of lightly. I knew the risks but managed to justify doing more after not feeling too bad after the first dose started to wear off.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by Nicklazz View Post
    opened it, tasted it, idiot idiot idiot I am. going party soon, trying flush it there or just give it to one friend say flush for me please. sum thing damn it I am weaker than weak

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    None the less I will get me a good time today, fuckin need it, and a big concert in my hometown, will try enjoy no matter what. Take care friends, I will too. Good friday
    I was hoping to hear you'd flush it but I knew you probably wouldn't. I could never bring myself to flush it, no matter how fucked up shit was getting or how regretful I was it just wasn't an option.

    The only way I've truly gotten away from peeves was from leaving the synthetic drug scene. It is just too easy for me to order apvp when I'm active in the synthetic scene. I haven't had a package come in the mail in months. The mail trucks here in the USA have a very distinctive sound and I've finally stopped getting an excited antsy feeling when I hear that rumble. My whole life used to revolve around the postal service and it's so weird to no longer care when I see the mail delivered. I was so hooked on apvp and synthetic noids it was insane.

    I realized with a certain degree of horror today that I've been getting drunk every night for the last month or so. I think I'm just swapping addictions. Ikeep telling myself I won't drink tonight but always walk to the bar and pick up 2 40's. Sometimes I drink what is left over in the morning. Tonight I told myself I wouldn't drink after work but I ended up walking to the bar feeling kind of shameful and a teensy bit anxious. I'm worried about myself, I really am. If it's not one thing it's another, I'm treading on the border of alcoholism. It runs in my family too so I really need to stop.

    I guess it's good that I don't think of PV much anymore. But I can feel alcohol pulling me in. I'm concerned.
     

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    drooling my grams on its way lovely
     

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    Please don't laugh if this is a stupid question! How does mdpv compare to crack?
     

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    Brimz would be the best judge of that one GoS, MDPV has a much longer duration and I never got the kinda initial rush from MDPV although I prefer PV compared to the couple of times I've done crack. I've done a fair amount of coke in the past and didn't find it much like PV at all.

    Where is Albion, he must be on day 3 or 4 by now and probably thinks he is being watched by the KGB
     

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    Not had crack but after PV it holds zero interest for me
     

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    I was actually hoping my mailbox would contain all of the things i ordered in july that never came when i came from my holiday in Greece: 3 gr Methiopropamine, 1 gr ethylphenidat, 20 pyrezolam, 2 gr a-pvp, 4 gr mdpv, 1 gr methylone and 1 gr 3-mmc.

    The only thing i got was the order with 1 gr 3-mmc and 1 gr methylone... So everything else is taken by customs or lost in mail. Couse the methy letter was the last thing sent!
    Damn i was hoping for hitting the vap! I was so gonna be stuck with a lightbulb for two weeks. But insted I've been stuck with a needle in my arm for 2 days... My methy and 3-mmc is all gone... I have been IV'ing it the whole way. I was stupid mixing the powders at the beginning. I think the 3-mmc alone was better than mixed with methylone. I was so fucking stim high, felt like i was on mdpv when the intinal rush was over. I got cleaning mania and all my clothes are clean and so is my flat. So i got something out of it.

    Ordered 5 gr mdpv yesterday, to another address, so let's hope it goes OK this time. I would rather vape! I love the taste and effect.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by gayorstraight View Post
    Please don't laugh if this is a stupid question! How does mdpv compare to crack?
    Right i am indeed the Eadd Crack Head & probably best qualified to answer this .

    It doesn't tbh they don't share hardly any characteristics . I have smoked & Snowballed Crack for well over 15 years & got ,myself in to some right fukin messes with the stuff . It rinses your finances as well . Impossible to sustain .


    It is stupidly addictive & the good bit which lasts 2 minutes is followed by a craving for more & the problem with that is no matter how many times you go back it won't be as good as the first pipe .

    If i get it these days, i never buy more than a couple of 10 stones .
    Of late i have been doing quite well & not scoring it very often at all .


    Pv i have only had once & it is fiendish but in a different way . The thing that i really disliked about it was the fukin smell . It's got a nasty toxic smell that you doesn't take long in getting right into your pores & making you feel fuking rotten . By that smell alone i dread to think how toxic & shite for your boby PV must be .

    The most effective way of getting really fuked on it well the most enjoyable was to put it in with Heroin as a Crack substitute in a IV injection like a Snowball .

    Albion asked me how i would of rated PV if i hadn't already had a long history of Crack abuse & i can't answer that not even hypothetically .

    They are very diferent .

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    I would rather vape! I love the taste and effect.
    I think it tastes like Dog personally !!!
     

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