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Bronson, I'll be reading the thread you linked this evening. Thank you.
I really appreciate the help.
I also appreciate the concerned BLers who wrote to warn me of kpin withdrawals. I have gone though them more than once. I know I am at risk and I accept that because life is straight up risky. I went through withdrawals so many times that they became permanent instruments of my instincts.
You are all so kind to advise me to get to the doctor, seek medical attention, so forth... I am doing well. Substances are not even the problem. I have been on benzos for years because of anxiety. I've had tranqs and psychotropics... a plethora of mood altering pills. I come off of all of them eventually, though.
Withdrawals are dismal. Abysmal. But after all these years, I see that taking meds because my life sucks doesn't fix my life.
I can't find a job and my unemployment benefits ran out a year ago. No pill for that crap.
We are in foreclosure, our bankruptcy was revoked, and we feel helplessly thrown over a fiscal cliff. No pill for that crap.
I have never had a seizure from quitting a drug, and I should have had at least one by now, I'm sure.
I did faint after discontinuing a strong psychotropic... I can't think of the name. Fainting scared me to death. One minute I'm standing there talking, and in the wink of an eye I'd go unconscious and hit the ground. It scared the people around me, too.
I'm alright with the kpin withdrawal. I haven't felt benzo activity in my brain for a long time, and I actually thought at one point that I had been given placebos for some reason because the klonopins were no longer effective and I couldn't believe it. I really couldn't.
At night I am miserable. My legs kink up and spring out and jerk me around. It's the most unpleasant feeling I've ever known. When the kpins first kicked in and I had relief at night, it felt OH so GOOD.
Little by little, the spasms returned. Now they are completely back and worse than ever. On top of that, my circumstances are worse than ever. If withdrawals from klonopin kills me, that's not the worst thing to die from.
Bronson, I'll be reading the thread you linked this evening. Thank you.
I really appreciate the help.
I also appreciate the concerned BLers who wrote to warn me of kpin withdrawals. I have gone though them more than once. I know I am at risk and I accept that because life is straight up risky. I went through withdrawals so many times that they became permanent instruments of my instincts.
You are all so kind to advise me to get to the doctor, seek medical attention, so forth... I am doing well. Substances are not even the problem. I have been on benzos for years because of anxiety. I've had tranqs and psychotropics... a plethora of mood altering pills. I come off of all of them eventually, though.
Withdrawals are dismal. Abysmal. But after all these years, I see that taking meds because my life sucks doesn't fix my life.
I can't find a job and my unemployment benefits ran out a year ago. No pill for that crap.
We are in foreclosure, our bankruptcy was revoked, and we feel helplessly thrown over a fiscal cliff. No pill for that crap.
I have never had a seizure from quitting a drug, and I should have had at least one by now, I'm sure.
I did faint after discontinuing a strong psychotropic... I can't think of the name. Fainting scared me to death. One minute I'm standing there talking, and in the wink of an eye I'd go unconscious and hit the ground. It scared the people around me, too.
I'm alright with the kpin withdrawal. I haven't felt benzo activity in my brain for a long time, and I actually thought at one point that I had been given placebos for some reason because the klonopins were no longer effective and I couldn't believe it. I really couldn't.
At night I am miserable. My legs kink up and spring out and jerk me around. It's the most unpleasant feeling I've ever known. When the kpins first kicked in and I had relief at night, it felt OH so GOOD.
Little by little, the spasms returned. Now they are completely back and worse than ever. On top of that, my circumstances are worse than ever. If withdrawals from klonopin kills me, that's not the worst thing to die from.