Greetings fellow cloud nine explorers,
Lately I've been digging deep into my consciousness to find some answers on how to balance my addictions, with my overall well-being. I'm hoping if I write my thoughts down and potentially receive some interesting insight from you guys, I will get closer to this goal. Many things in my life have been taken for granted, I won't get into it, but I could of had it really good. Instead I'm single, broke, and my conscious is littered with guilt. Anyways I started chasing the dragon about a month ago for the first time and this may sound completely rediculous, but a hit or two completely cures my restless legs syndrome and insomnia. Doctors won't help me with these issues and I don't have health insurance anyway. Basically I'd love to hear a success story from someone who has managed to recreationally or medicinally use BTH without his/her life falling apart. Should I quit while I'm ahead? Pills have ruined my life, but at the same time they keep me sane and grounded. Kind of sucks however, hiding your main motivation to live, "drugs", from everyone you know including your best friend. I've hidden my pill addiction from my best friend for like 5 years. We smoke the good ganja of course, but damn, he must think I'm bipolar or something. One day I'm going through tramadol withdrawals depressed as a motherfucker, and the next day I'm high as shit showing an obscene amount of enthusiasm for petty shit, haha.
P.S. My lighter has the Apollo 11 rocket on it and it's amusing to me to think that my Apollo 11 lighter is helping me blast off to cloud nine, hah. Hence the title.
Lately I've been digging deep into my consciousness to find some answers on how to balance my addictions, with my overall well-being. I'm hoping if I write my thoughts down and potentially receive some interesting insight from you guys, I will get closer to this goal. Many things in my life have been taken for granted, I won't get into it, but I could of had it really good. Instead I'm single, broke, and my conscious is littered with guilt. Anyways I started chasing the dragon about a month ago for the first time and this may sound completely rediculous, but a hit or two completely cures my restless legs syndrome and insomnia. Doctors won't help me with these issues and I don't have health insurance anyway. Basically I'd love to hear a success story from someone who has managed to recreationally or medicinally use BTH without his/her life falling apart. Should I quit while I'm ahead? Pills have ruined my life, but at the same time they keep me sane and grounded. Kind of sucks however, hiding your main motivation to live, "drugs", from everyone you know including your best friend. I've hidden my pill addiction from my best friend for like 5 years. We smoke the good ganja of course, but damn, he must think I'm bipolar or something. One day I'm going through tramadol withdrawals depressed as a motherfucker, and the next day I'm high as shit showing an obscene amount of enthusiasm for petty shit, haha.
P.S. My lighter has the Apollo 11 rocket on it and it's amusing to me to think that my Apollo 11 lighter is helping me blast off to cloud nine, hah. Hence the title.