chinky , yea its fcked up but i do not have a car at this moment, for like the last 3 yrs i really didnt need a car, i had like an old ass suger momma/gf that would let me take her car anytime i needed, but i broke up with her, its a long story , and aint really a good story to tell, but i basicly had to let her go, cause she was worse then a H.S girl... she was 47 yrs old and i thought her being that old she would be a kool about it and not be all up my nutz and shit but she was just was to jelous, and was half crazy, i was stright up with her too i never intended for it to be serious, also nomatter how bad i was to her so won't leave, she just couldn't get the hint, i even cheated on her and that didn't mater..she had a good body for a women in her mid 40's i will say that, and she would help me out when i was broke and sic aswell, her ex husben hated me so bad cause he was a p.o.s and had to pay child suport, and the thought of me using the money he had to pay her killed him. i feel bad more cause of her kids, she had them in her mid 30's so they were i think 12, 9 yrs old and since there father is a scumbag they looked up to me cause sadly i was more of a role model to them then theire own father,, the final staw with this old lady was when on a school day in may she brought her 12yr old or 11 yr old son to my guys house talking about dope and all type of really fcked up shit about heroin right in front of the damn kid, she cliams the kid already knew which was bs too, all she had to do is say i was drunk or whatever if the kid seen me fcked up like she claims, cause i know on my life i never left any baggies around or anything..
also i sware on my life i would never iv dope either, i really hate needles , like in the past if i had to give blood i would feel like i wanted to pass out, which is probably, the reason 10 yrs after the first time doing dope i still dont do it on the regular, it started out with having my friend (the same one that didn't have gas money) hit me cause i wanted to feel that rush!, see now epecialy like the last yr or so i got to the point where i can hit myself and it don't even bother me, i only hit myself in the one spot i always have, and i hit with no prob. whtsoever. i will say i so glad i didn't go down that path cause my guy arms legs or so fcked up and nasty he can't even find a place to hit his viens more so fcked for life.. this sic bastard told me he shoot himself up on his dic before, how messed up is that