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I was wondering what you guys think abou the idea of using MXE for depression? I was thinking of taking 20-30mg 3 times a week instead of an ssri. I won't be using any other drugs. Has anyone tried a dosing regimen like this? I used to use recreationally for about 5 months peaking at a gram a week and it ended in a lot of bad things happening. The last few months I've been completely sober but quite depressed (which I've been dealing with for a long time but since I quit smoking week daily and dabbling in other drugs I really notice it). Basically I love the way mxe made me feel positive and at ease but I did it so much that effect turned into mania and I began having delusions and acting odd. I really dislike my emotional state even tho objectively my life is quite good, I don't want to be on an ssri. Am I just grasping at straws or is there something to this idea? I basically want to keep a very slight afterglow feeling all the time, not going over 100mg a week. Is it possible tolerance won't build up at this dosage?
 
I remember someone on this forum fucked their kidneys because of bad cuts in their URB097 (I think it was). Cadmium I think. So be careful!
 
Never mixed anything with the mxe really besides that one crazy night with dmt and LSD.
And mushrooms twice.

Never mixed mxe with the other powder.

On phone in showerrrrr bbllllll
 
I'd like to add..

that both the same weird thing happened to me on each drug more than once.
I OD'd on MXE a few times (talked myself out of going to hospital) and also on the cocaine-like bath salt more than once. The last time was just too creepy and weird.

They can both do the same scary type of "Death is coming for you right now, now what are you going to do about it?!" thing. Limbs start getting really heavy and it gets hard to walk an your balance is shifting around inside of you and you can feel it and it makes it hard to walk and move. It feels like you talking is going away and your soul is being pulled to the other side.
It feels like DMT but less visual and much more scary and real.

I will call it "Death paralysis". the feeling you get while you are dying. Losing control of your body to numbness. I seem to have felt this many times.

I managed to mix some DOC with the cocaine-like bath salt a while back just fine, it was actually pretty intense!
I honestly never did mix the MXE and Bath Salt though. I haven't had MXE for a while. I was using Bath Salt as my wannabe MXE replacement because I don't want to go order MXE.

I've only ever done max 10 grams total of MXE.
I used to just go to town though. do a ton of it until I saw god or aliens.
I had no fucking idea what that shit was at first..
...then I needed to know the rest of the story. lol

Was "knowing" worth a kidney? I'll let you guys know later I guess.

If I'm still able to live to 60, eat some mushrooms another time or two in my life and smoke all the ganja I want, I can't complain! I tell you on the real boys and girls, I have seen some shit on drugs nobody would ever believe.

unresearched chemicals
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haha, I like that one.

I'm pretty sure half the people making some of this stuff are on here watching us squirm..

... as in WE are the research.

Guinea Pig, Over and in bed =p
 
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^That's good then. The negative health effects still might have been additive if your body didn't return to normal health when you took up one drug even after ceasing the other. Of course, we can't really establish a causative relationship through this talk.

The important thing is that you get better. Then you can get to work on integrating your experiences into mundane life, I think it'd benefit you greatly to do so (try reading Carl Jung's Seven Sermons to the Dead if you need a better idea of what I'm talking about, or look into him some more/again in general).
 
Will check it out. Thank you for the recommendation. I see everything anyone writes weather I reply or not.
Sorry I've been an ass a few times.

I felt the "Death Paralysis" come twice again today, although much more mellow.
My heart starts to race and limbs get numb and "inaccurate" an sometimes my steps are light and sometimes my steps are heavy and hard to lift. start feeling like I'm gonna die and my ears start ringing.
I went in to that hospital like this and they discharged me with these anxiety pills...
I suppose they kinda work... I'm not sure! I'm not dead yet. For the next few hours after I take the pills I feel a little better but when the pill wears off I go back to feeling like death is coming.
Very uneasy.... =/
I'll probably eat one of the doctors pills soon before bed.
 
Damn man I'm sorry to hear this :( How is your bladder after all this? Frequently urinating at all? Did you stay hydrated through this binge? Do you drink mainly water?
 
Yes I hydrate all the time. Big 32oz plastic cups I use for water at home that I get from the fast food chains like "Taco Bell". Water is life.
I don't drink alcohol. I drink a bit of milk here and there. I have cut back on soda quite a bit recently.

I smoke trucks full of trees..
 
Thanks dudes.

As to the blatter question..
I don't feel anything irregular there - yet.
Hopefully it stays that way.

From the sounds of it, it's possible I could be passing blood cells, but I haven't seen any. My pee looks normal color.

9 days and I get to see the specialist..

today I have been having random chest and kidney pains but they seem to be getting less than what they were the last few days..

I have not taken any of my medication yet today. Haven't needed it yet.
I smoke a bowl of OG Kush.

will go walk around the block twice later tonight for exercise.
 
Seems like you're handling all this really well bro.
Honestly I'm terrified of medical people. They fucked me over when I had psychotic breaks, and I'm just scared as hell now.
Even when I notice long-term symptoms I don't go check it out, because I'd just refuse treatment anyway...
I figure, if I'm gonna die, I don't want to know about my impending doom.. That would suck ha.
You're brave EWO. Braver than me at least.

P.S. I'm eating a Reeses to your health right now lol.
 
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Good luck in your recovery. If you take care of yourself you maybe able to stop the progression of kidney damage and avoid needing dialysis or a transplant.

When you say you have only done a maximum of 10 grams of methoxetamine; do you mean that you used 10 grams in the last 6-8 months? Also were you using other drugs along with methoxetamine and "bath salts"?
 
Best of luck in recovery and health, EWO.

I believe you will heal. But then again I have gone through over a key of Ketamine and between a quarter and a half pound of MXE and never had kidney problems. Had blood work and I'm in perfect health I guess. Some people are luckier than others. The important thing is that you'll be better off and a lot happier not abusing bath salts and MXE especially in the medium/long run.

I haven't touched any drugs in like 4 months now and don't intend to for quite a while. I guess if you are smoking kush you won't notice the effects of sobriety so much ;) but you'll be in good health anyway. Cheers.
 
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Best of luck in recovery and health, EWO.

I believe you will heal.
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I believe you will heal too. In fact that's probably what's happening right now. Seems we move in a direction, either healthier or sicker and I sense healthier. The body (and brain) is amazingly resilient and will balance out. So feel good about that and feel good about the warning. Sometimes people ignore warnings and end up worse.

Nice warning on abuse of certain substances. I have never tried MXE (and wouldn't touch a bath salt ever anyway) but have done ketamine many years ago pre internet. Not really my cup of tea, after the first few mind blowing experiences it didn't do much and the disorientation coming out was not pleasant like a LSD or mushroom after glow. However, after reading all these posts on MXE, I have been very curious. I do see people that use as well as abuse so it's a mixed bag. But this warning is important even if it turns out the cause of the problem is not known. However I believe it was a mix of things as well as probably not taking care of the body as well as one should while binging. The body starts to rebel and tries to get attention. Well is seems it worked. :). All the best EWO, I have read your posts and you seem to have a good head on your shoulders. Anyone can loose balance on a binge. Take it easy and keep healing.
 
A creatinine of 1.7 could be due acute kidney injury (with dehydration being one of many possible causes). It's hard to call it chronic kidney disease without knowing how long your creatinine has been that high. Hopefully, it will be back to normal by your follow-up appointment.

Taking this as a wake up call is the absolute best thing you can do. I wish you a speedy recovery.
 
To argue it from the other side: People did try and warn you about your excessive usage! Just kidding -- but you know that they did! =D
It seems like you're having panic attacks -- I suspect this is to do with abusing your ''bath salts''.

I had a very similar effect from excess cocaine use, coupled with AMT (and sleep deprivation - chronic!) - I went totally-totally mad and completely obsessed with death and it's relationship with sleeping (Pope John Paul said - "Every day I die"). I checked myself onto a psychiatric ward, though -- wish I hadn't! "Voluntary patients" get locked up too! - fuck!
 
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Still getting chest pains today damnit. It's not all gone yet.
I'll be dealing with this shit for a while. :p

I don't know how panic attacks cause chest pains. Never heard that one. lol

Had to only take one pill yesterday. Thinking about taking one today... not feeling so good right now.
Been walking and drinking water and trying to eat healthy since all this started a month or two ago but that doesn't help much because I was in the hossy few days back.

I'm just trying to stay calm and do healthy shit. Can't stop the chest pains and don't want to risk eating asprin or whatever. It says not to on my sheet.

I'm calling in to try and get an earlier appointment. It's not just panic attacks.
 
Good luck EWO,

I just wish you'd had a binge on mushrooms/DMT/acid instead of the dreaded MXE and bath salts!
 
Yup I'm a dumbfuck.
Somebody just listen to me for once and believe what I'm saying and learn something from my mistakes. lol

You guys don't want to feel this.
 
You can definitely get chest pains from panic attacks -- not saying it's just that (and you'd know better!), but they definitely can. Shortness of breath, tightening of chest muscles etc. I once thought I was having a stroke as the entire left side of my body went numb -- I went to A&E then and they said it was just a panic attack.
Hope you get better soon, anyway.
 
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