I appreciate what your saying but this is still very pure, it is similar in to coke ive had in rio, not cut with any speed or other gross stuff like so much, you know the sort of stuff you only need like 20% of the powder as you would when taking acceptably good stuff.. its probably got a lot to do with my current poly drug addiction of having done 1-2g a day + a full bottle of vodka + valiums (which only just ran out today and was using everyday until today and just blocks out the pain completely when its like 30-50mgs oh and skunk of course...
What the fuck just reread that had a moment of clarity need to sort my life out or I'm going out at 40 yrs old tops. And IMO serious benzo withdrawal is the worst of all in the world. The first and godamn last time I hope to have to go through trying cutting 200-300mg of valium a day, fyi, what happenened to me is that it hurts as much as quiting an IV smack habit but also makes you fully into physcosis oh yeah and to sum up it hurts so bad i tried to kill myself rather than wait 30 mins for meds..but thankfully was restrained physically in hospital by staff
I can't buy coke more than 2 at a time as the stuff is mega expensive for around 85% purity a gram in London if I got say 5 I'd just keep doing it till it was finished. The problem is that when I take this sort of coke and then carefully monitor my intake to a reasonable amount so I don't get super high, I just feel happy, am productive, (can happily work on my business for like 14 hours a day), am outgoing, eloquent, funny, and can seriously bang model level girls. basically the opposite of who I am when I sit smoking loads of skunk and drinking beers now with my mind so fucked i get scared when my phone rings and am getting so done in I'm basically agrophobic/ massively scared of everything. I haven't felt or done so much productive stuff or even felt happy for about 5 years since i got peyronies disease, When I take c I can competely ignore those feelings. (if you dont what that is, if you find out and imagine what you would feel like if slowly over 5 years of your young life you went from great to meh in that department you would understand why I'm at where I am. I relapsed after close to 2 years clean, was still depressed but I came out of my psychosis after about a year, I just couldn't handle the peyronies disease, its the most fucked up evil shit ever, and there is no cure yet.
ITT: What is the safest drug with the best efficacy and least side effects I can take so I can make my life reasonably enjoyable by producing similar effects to cocaine?
Basically I have tried all those bullshit anti depressants over several years and they haven't helped or have had to many nasty side effects, does anyone know of any drug that I could take that can make me feel like I described how I feel on the c I talked about? Like obviously there can't be anything as good but even Tony Montana's coke will screw me up.. I have had coke cut off 1 KG's bricks straight from the people who make it and ny nose is still fucked
Even if you have a connect for straight up bricks from columbia its gonna burn your body, nose, front of the brain etc.. in my opinion, if somoene can prove me wrong that there are genuine conexts with cocaine that has no acicidic Effect then w0w i dont think its the case.