I have been stuck in this hole of a life for ab a little over a year and a half. It was not for and medical reason like some of you but from my own stupidity.It started out all fun and games then I became freaking addicted. I have had past trouble with other substances alcohol and coke mostly. I used to do an 8 ball a dall for a year and that and the booze are a walk in the parked compared to this!!To start out I was taking up to at least 240mg every day.It started out with a harmless 15mg a day and hell the first few times I remember puking from doing the secod half of the 30. Within a 4 month period boom 180mg, the 210mg, then 240 mg. I have weened down considerably over the past month and done it all by myself. Only with the help oif a little black market subutex and mind over matter. But because of my recklessness I lost my home becasue all my money was going up my nose, eventually my job bc I couldn't get out of bed unless I had at least 60 mg in my bed side table to snort before I even got in the shower just to be able to roll out of the within the next 30mins feeling normal. Not high but being able to function. People need to understand that amiunt was necessary to function not get high! Then the final straw I lost my fiance who was also an addict to a scum drug dealer bc the whore started to suck him off for her fix while I was out of town on my bachelor party. Yeah that's right she cheated on me while I was on my bachelor party before our wedding. Anways weening down is the best and smartest way to do this whole detox aka lets get our lives back program. Cold Turkey will drive you insane and rarely works. From my experience I would typically make it 36-40 hrs then use either bc WD's got to bad or i was just too weak and my cravings were stronger than my will power. I am hoping to be completely off in the next few weeks.I am taking as small amount of subutex as possibly to make it through each day or no more than 30 mg roxy. And this is a day to day thing if there ever were such a thing. Hell even sometime hour to hour.I want my life back! I want to be around honest repectful people and not lying junkies that will lie ab anything to get over on you for a little blue pill! I want to be able to trust people. I want to be one of these people. I want to be able to trust myself.These pills are the damn devil!!So, for any of you kids or anyone out there just trying for kicks, STOP NOW! This shit will ruin your life and its not a i can sttop and get my shit together in a week type of thing. Once you get in you are fucking in. It's like the mob but the godfather in a little fucking blue pill. You will lie, still, cheat, and kill for that little fucker! And if you can't man up and take control which is way easier said than done well you might as well be dead.These things are the devil!! Whether you get them off the street or legit from the doctor it all ends the same. I know this was long and you all probably think I am carzy but again I have done all this by myself! This has been the first time I have been able to get anything off my chest. and damn does it feel good!!To end I AM GETTING MY LIFE BACK COME HELL OR HIGH WATER!! Too bad I cannot get the past 1.5 back I wasted all because I was bored! Peace out and Check yourself before you wreck youself!!