I understand your concern Tri, and I appreciate it. I know it isn't the wisest thing to do, but I don't even really buy dope. Like I said, I've only bought once in the past 3 months. Of course I'm taking a path that could end up really bad, but that is a risk I'm taking. I'm moving in the near future, so I wont even be around any more H dealers.
I take methadone for my RLS, not for MMT, but it does help a bit with my cravings. I'm not gonna take any methadone today and save it for tomorrow.
I don't know what to say, because you are right, but I'm not some opioid noob. I've been using opioids for 9 years and yeah like every other needle user I tried it. Doesn't mean I'll keep IVing dope, but it doesn't mean I wont, I know. I don't know what to tell you.
Ive had IV hydromorphone in the hospital, a dose that gave me a better rush than H and a solid high (I keep upping the dose and they were happy to, at the time 2mg IV hydromophone gave me a solid experience. I had that every two hours for 5 days (I stayed up most the night and only would sleep like 2-3 hours at a time so I was on that shit round the clock (no pump). I wasn't tempted to start IVing after that. I know its different, but man I could have run off and bought a bunch of roxies or hydromorphone when I got out of the hospital and shot them up. Really this post is rationalization because really there isn't anything I can say that would ease your concerns or stop the possibility of becoming a IV fiend.
I did get over my fear of needles 100% today though :D. That is a high in itself. This was like my biggest phobia of all time (trypanophobia).
Hey were do I get rid of my sharps. Should I go to walgreen or somewhere in a plastic container and give it to them, or do I have to buy a office sharps container, and bring it to someone? I don't want to get busted with dope needles trying to turn them in, but i don't want to throw them in the trash in the wrong way.
anyway, I just IVed 3 bags of the heroin. I feel good but I wish I had 1 more bag or even a half bag. I'd even snort the bag rather than IV. I did mess up on my first injection, but with new syringes I hit myself very well in the place I should have gone for in the first place.