hm.. it seems OP and me have similar situation, just different drug
My wife and I started to take methylone (bk-mdma) about 10 months ago, first just microdosing just to.. get through the party (after 4/5 years of calmer life I just became 'lazy' and did not managed to go through a normal party, at about 11PM/12AM i just started to feel sleepy and always went home, so just to get this bit of extra time
. Then we tried to do it on our own - with a little more of the stuff. And the magical thing happened - in next couple of weeks, maybe a month - we dealt with huge problems that hung in our lives (starting with small thing that you do that drives the other person crazy, and many more, I will not get into details
. Then when the 'therapy sessions' became more frequent (once a week, through trial and error we found out that Friday is the only option, because then it gives you whose Saturday to finish off, and the whole Sunday to pull yourself together and not to feel like shit on Monday at work
, I decided to cut up at least drinking (as OP, I was a quite enthusiastic drinker), and I did it - I did not stop completely, i just lowered it to minimal, yet still social acceptable doses (max 2 glasses per evening, extremely rare cases - 3), and drinking is reserved only for meeting with friends (I was having 'couples of beers' every day until then..).. Additionally I decided to compensate (well It was more like a dare to myself when rolling
and get abs (a six-pack
- never had one before... And low and behold - I have it (well almost - I am fit as I never was, and you can see the outlines of the sixpack, but not yet fully, but i haven't stopped training, so I will in a month or so
.. So let me sum up - I fixed my relationship with my wife from OK, to awesome, I stopped drinking (almost
, i started training and have abs (almost
.. but we still doing our sessions (we minimized them to once every two weeks). But after reading this I decided at least to try to stop the 'sessions' for a summer (3 months) - just to check if the 'bad weather' catches up. If id does - oh well, it was good run, now it's time to pay the price. If not - I think I will continue it just with a bit more caution, maybe once every 3 weeks, just to be on the safe side.
The bad part, that we started by microdosing (that is ~30/50 mg of methylone about 4/5 times per night).. now we are doing about 70mg every 45 minutes (found it to be perfect for keeping the peek for longest)... we start at about 19:00.. and end sometimes even 11/12/13:xx the next day... My wife has these awful urges to redose, and that what is mainly so scary for me... However after the comedown, no one of us is event thinking about taking it on work days, and I do not feel any side effects even during those two week pauses, but, just to be on a safe side, I will 'go on summer vacation' with this hobby of mine..
Thanks guys!