I'm 26 and I have been experimenting on and off with extacy since i was 18. I've maybe taken extacy pills about a dozen times in my life. Highest dose was 8 pills in one night and that was my first time. No terrible effects the next day other then mild depression for a day or 2 (and ive always had cronic depression anyways) I've never had a bad experiance with extacy pills other then the last 4 or 5 times i bought it, it was fake (not like there was speed in its place it was just nothing those times). I stopped trying to get it for awhile and just gave up.
Around this new year, i discovered "molly" for the first time and it was amazing. First molly dose was 500mg. No hang over or anything, in fact it put me in a very positive mood for about a straight week! I started doing it about twice a month since then with no behavioral or cognitive impairment as far as i can tell. Everytime i took it (doses between 250-500mg), i would feel the "high" for about 12hrs (2hrs for me to hit peak, plateau for about 6 hrs, then come down for 4hrs), but the residual effects of happiness and understanding lasted all week everytime. It felt is if my mind was clear and I had more focus on bettering myself, focusing on issues like who i want to be in life and when i want out of life. I've always had a hard time thinking about that stuff, but lately it has all become so clear and all my friends and family see a dramatic positive change in my life. I've completely stopped drinking alcohol, even in social settings. I just dont need alcohol to feel good anymore and i reflected and found it was a MAJOR hindrance to my life. I have cut back on smoking pot significantly as i now view that as a negative effect on my life. I was a daily smoker and almost a daily drinker. My mind was in a big haze. 4 months of taking MDMA twice a months has helped me dramatically in my life. I now feel energetic everyday, with a GREAT sense of well being. I'm not depressed AT ALL anymore.
Well since i was talking it fairly often i was becoming expensive, so i sought out a new source, and was able to obtain 14g for personal use only. For the last month i've been taking it once a week (about 500mg doses now), and have had even BETTER therapeutic effects on me. I've come to terms with almost everything I've felt guilty or ashamed about. I feel great all week. I'm a much better person now...trust me ask my family, i used to be out of control with drinking on a regular basis.
My ultimate question is this...if i continue to do this (which i'm most certainly going to do, at least till my current stash is dry), do u really think there are severe physiological or psychological problems with taking this amount on a regular basis? With the E pills years ago, i would feel significant depression afterwards, where as now, i feel completely rejuvenated afterwards. I've taken SSRI's before in the past with some benifits, but nothing near the improvement on my self image and motivation. I've been feeling great, but i do worry about permanent damages to my brain. As i know this drug is not studied very well or completely understood yet, i felt like i should share my story as somewhat of a "case study" so i tried to be as informative as i could.
Any insight on the matter is much appreciated, but I would like facts, not opinions, if that information is even out there (i couldn't find it). Thanks everyone