The Music Social Gig v. I'll Trade You My Shirt For A Grilled Cheese

Tonight is widespread panic’s 60th show at red rocks. In celebration, here’s a story. I did not write this and don’t know who did. But it was written by someone in 1998. I was at this show. It’s a classic - all too familiar and fucking hysterical.

10:30am – Arrive Denver Intl. airport, meet up with friend, Mat, rent car, drive to liquor store.

11:30am – Enter liquor store and buy a case of Coors and a case of Coors Light (we’re in Colorado after all). Also buy flimsy styrofoam cooler that is sure to break before the day is over.

11:33am – Flimsy styrofoam cooler falls over and breaks as I wheel out of liquor store parking lot. Go back to liquor store for second flimsy styrofoam cooler.

11:45am – Arrive at the 6th Ave. Travelodge. As I am stepping out of the car, a car pulls up and a guy leans out of the passenger side window to offer me mushroom chocolates at $20 a pop. I ask him if one will do the trick. He says yes. I buy two.

2:00pm – Follow my friend Hugo and others into the Red Rocks parking lot. He drives a sky blue ’76 Cadillac El Dorado convertible (hip). I’m driving a maroon Mazda 626 (loser). I proceed to scour the parking lot for the prerequisite ammunition I will need for the show. As I am buying a one-hitter from a dirty, bearded guy, a dirty, hairy-legged girl approaches me about some “blueberry organics from Oregon”. I give her a perplexed look before concluding she must be selling mushrooms and bring her back to our car. My friends buy an ounce for all of us. I buy a quarter for backup.

2:40pm – A girl asks us if we want any “Puff”. 10 minutes later, a guy asks us if we want any “Dust”. It quickly dawns on me that I am getting old if I am no longer familiar with the latest drug trends. We reject both and decide to stick with the stuff we know will fuck us up.

4:30pm – After numerous Coors Regulars, a couple of joints and a handful of caps, I’ve got a pretty good buzz going, especially for a Saturday afternoon. My friend Mat and I decide to eat our little chocolate treats which have been chilling in the flimsy styro foam cooler. We notice they are shaped like Denver Bronco heads.

4:31pm – We head into the show early to get good seats.

4:45pm – While waiting in line to get in, I notice that my friend Mat is starting to glance around nervously. When questioned, he tells me that we have to get into the show NOW! He also tells me if it rains, it might have serious consequences for his mental health. He also informs me that the handrail he is clutching with both hands is a dear friend that he’s known since childhood. Looks like the guy was right about the chocolates.

5:00 – We take our seats on row 30. Neurons are definitely doing a little dance in my head now. I perk up my ears when I overhear the guy behind us mention Denver Bronco chocolates. He advises his buddy to “only eat half or maybe even just a quarter” unless he wants to spend the entire show on Pluto. I turn to my friend Mat. He is a slobbering, incoherent mess. I write him off as a mushroom casualty after it takes him at least half an hour to decide which restroom he should use.

5:30 – Still 2 hours until the band comes on. The grassy hill to the right of the stage erupts into a ball of green flames. I look away in horror and decide to concentrate on a harmless rock formation. Only problem is this rock formation is really a giant iguana that is trying to eat one of the speaker set-ups.

6:45 – Most of the people in the group I’m with have also procured some of these potent little mind-blasting chocolates. They inquire how they are treating me. As one guy’s face contorts into something out of a bad ’80s horror flick, I lie and tell everybody that I don’t really feel anything. It’s probably better that they take everything in the arsenal because these things are pretty weak. I decide if I’m going to be sailing the high sees of hysteria, everyone’s going to be on the same fucked-up boat. One girl eyes me suspiciously and remarks that my eyeballs look like black marbles. I turn away to see if the iguana has crept any closer.

6:00 – After the green tarp we’re sitting on sucks my beer down into its gullet, I turn to my friends and ask if everyone is ready to go. They remind me that the band hasn’t even come on yet. Oh right! We’re here to see a Panic show and there’s still AT LEAST AN HOUR ‘TIL SHOWTIME!

7:00 – The band (at this point I don’t even know who it is we’re here to see – Lightspeed Tantric or something) is late. By this time my entire group of people is a complete train wreck. Total chaos and incoherence. One girl is crying. I laugh at her. I ponder going to the rest room but decide the 15 minute journey would be about 14 minutes and 30 seconds longer than my jellied brain could handle. I decide to piss in a beer bottle. I notice a young lady staring at me, appalled. I tell her not to worry and that I’m from Tennessee, “where it’s OK to piss outdoors.” The nervous laughter quotient of the surrounding crowd is very high at this point.

7:30 – YESSSSSS!!!!! The band comes on. And the iguana doesn’t even try to eat them! For the next 4 hours I intermittently find myself dancing and sometimes standing still just staring into space. I believe some drooling was involved somewhere in there. At set break I wash down another handful of shrooms with some smuggled 1800 tequila. The rest of the night is more or less blank. I remember being lost in a parking lot. I remember the look of fear on the Travelodge desk clerk’s face when I tried to check in at midnight. I also remember that there was a group of aging hippies (50-60 years old) in front of us who were partying harder than anyone in the place and it gave me hope
 
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stoned af and this is blowing my mind rn.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BzXutu_iVoA

One of Taylor Swift's biggest fans was inspired to lose 425 pounds by working out to her music. Ronnie Brower underwent more than 15 hours of surgery remove more than 35 pounds of excess skin, and INSIDE EDITION was there to see his new body. The extensive procedure did leave scars, but Brower says he doesn't mind one bit. "I just tell people I got bit by a shark," he told IE. He told INSIDE EDITION this is the healthiest and happiest he's ever been.

BIT BY A SHARK . ayy what did denzel say in training day after he hit the

 
I must find some excuse to use this. :D

well that would mean you have a massive scar from something like a surgery or accident o_O so i'd hope not tbh.

bumpin some grimes, man we need some new tunes from grimes and sky ( ferreira ) but live y'all life n' drop something when the time right.
 
bumpin some grimes, man we need some new tunes from grimes and sky ( ferreira ) but live y'all life n' drop something when the time right.

:( RIP Grimes, I loved you so much. i also love you, joe.

headed to berlin on monday for a long time, if not ever, so this sad weird xanax type tunes are going to take me there. bye brooklyn, you were fun for the mo.

 
elon musk is blazin with joe rogan talm'bout space faring civilizations... grimes wants to change her name to the symbol for the speed of light... okay that's totally rad n' all... but we are gonna need music for the future ya dig... *cough grimes in the udio *studio plz :)
 
alice glass is no longer part of Crystal Castles. this happened in 2014. and Crystal Castles released its first album without her in 2016. this is all news to me, as of today (trying to find III on vinyl at the record store).

i haven’t listened to the 2016 album, yet. nor her solo efforts. thank fuck i saw them live when they were truly Crystal Castles. saw them without having heard them recorded prior or having any idea who they were. was walking by their set at lolla, got lured in, and fell in love. we worked our way to the front and could figuratively smell the vinegary dope mixed with warm beer, eye liner, and ciggs emanating off her. the idea of keeping the name without her is pitiful.

 
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Youtube supports animal abuse.

I reported a channel (2nd one I've found this year) the other day of some dude who was grabbing rabbits by the ears, by the neck & throwing em around.
Everyone in the comments were saying they were there to "see the rabbits scream" and the uploader was giving their comments a <3

So you know the dude is catering to this sick audience who wants to watch him mis-treat rabbits.
And of course Youtube found nothing wrong with it.

Yet I wake up today to a community strike on my channel for a goregrind/gorenoise album I uploaded.
The strike was for "violence" and 'exploitation" (cause the artwork has gore/dead bodies on it, boo-hoo).

So pretty much animal torture porn is A-OKAY on youtube....
But self expression & free speech is "violence" and "exploitation".....
This feels like retaliation by Youtube really.



FUCK YOUTUBE
 
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Youtube supports animal abuse.

I reported a channel (2nd one I've found this year) the other day of some dude who was grabbing rabbits by the ears, by the neck & throwing em around.
Everyone in the comments were saying they were there to "see the rabbits scream" and the uploader was giving their comments a <3

So you know the dude is catering to this sick audience who wants to watch him mis-treat rabbits.
And of course Youtube found nothing wrong with it.

Yet I wake up today to a community strike on my channel for a goregrind/gorenoise album I uploaded.
The strike was for "violence" and 'exploitation" (cause the artwork has gore/dead bodies on it, boo-hoo).

So pretty much animal torture porn is A-OKAY on youtube....
But self expression & free speech is "violence" and "exploitation".....



FUCK YOUTUBE
Yep... FUCK YOUTUBE! That sick shit is beyond the pale. I've never been a very religiousy person, but for the past couple of years my gut has been telling me there are demons on earth now. I feel silly just saying that, but I can't shake it.

Anyhow, sorry YT sucks ass, but good on you for stepping up to defend God's most innocent creatures.
 
Yep... FUCK YOUTUBE! That sick shit is beyond the pale. I've never been a very religiousy person, but for the past couple of years my gut has been telling me there are demons on earth now. I feel silly just saying that, but I can't shake it.

Anyhow, sorry YT sucks ass, but good on you for stepping up to defend God's most innocent creatures.
Thanks man!

Yeah I'm pissed!!!
I absolutely love animals like rabbits, prairie dogs, squirrels, etc.. I feed & try to take care of all the ones in my neighborhood. It brings me a lot of joy & peace.
So youtubes AI is often recommending me videos of these animals, which is great cause they're adorable.
But once in awhile their little algorithm loves to throw an animal abuser into my recommendations. And what amazes me is the channels & videos are YEARS old and STILL actively abusing animals!!! There are literal endless comments on the videos of people calling it out too, yet some how it remains up & fine.

Anyone who has to hurt a little animal is some weak ass bitch.

What's ironic too is all the images in my goregrind album art were found on google images. lol And aren't google/youtube connected? So it's okay for google/youtube to host those exact same images but as soon as I arrange them into some cassette artwork it becomes "violence" and "exploitation"? Pfft. The hypocrisy is on another level.

I'm not a very religious person either. I am however an avid collector & maker of obscure & some times incredibly obscene underground music & records. But it's music & expressions of human experiences. And YT is constantly attacking me for it & going after my channels. Yet pieces of shit animal abusers are just fine. It makes zero fucking sense.
 
Thanks man!

Yeah I'm pissed!!!
I absolutely love animals like rabbits, prairie dogs, squirrels, etc.. I feed & try to take care of all the ones in my neighborhood. It brings me a lot of joy & peace.
So youtubes AI is often recommending me videos of these animals, which is great cause they're adorable.
But once in awhile their little algorithm loves to throw an animal abuser into my recommendations. And what amazes me is the channels & videos are YEARS old and STILL actively abusing animals!!! There are literal endless comments on the videos of people calling it out too, yet some how it remains up & fine.

Anyone who has to hurt a little animal is some weak ass bitch.

What's ironic too is all the images in my goregrind album art were found on google images. lol And aren't google/youtube connected? So it's okay for google/youtube to host those exact same images but as soon as I arrange them into some cassette artwork it becomes "violence" and "exploitation"? Pfft. The hypocrisy is on another level.

I'm not a very religious person either. I am however an avid collector & maker of obscure & some times incredibly obscene underground music & records. But it's music & expressions of human experiences. And YT is constantly attacking me for it & going after my channels. Yet pieces of shit animal abusers are just fine. It makes zero fucking sense.
From the stories I've heard over the years, YouTube will shut people down with no explanation at all, other than they violated some unnamed policy.

A lot of people are drawn to the macabre and enjoy collecting within that genre. Art has had that niche for hundreds of years. Nothing wrong or even odd about it.

Sadomasochism has always existed in one form or another and is usually carried out by consenting adults. But torturing or harming animals is in a league all it's own. It's as bad, if not worse than pedophilia! Scum of the earth.

I'm not one to bring cops into any situation, but I might make an exception to get to those assholes. I'm pretty sure animal abuse is illegal in every state. If you still have access to any of the twisted shit YT allows on their servers, print that shit up and sic po-po in them. Might be fun to watch...
 
From the stories I've heard over the years, YouTube will shut people down with no explanation at all, other than they violated some unnamed policy.

A lot of people are drawn to the macabre and enjoy collecting within that genre. Art has had that niche for hundreds of years. Nothing wrong or even odd about it.

Sadomasochism has always existed in one form or another and is usually carried out by consenting adults. But torturing or harming animals is in a league all it's own. It's as bad, if not worse than pedophilia! Scum of the earth.

I'm not one to bring cops into any situation, but I might make an exception to get to those assholes. I'm pretty sure animal abuse is illegal in every state. If you still have access to any of the twisted shit YT allows on their servers, print that shit up and sic po-po in them. Might be fun to watch...
Yeah I wish I could do something.
I have extreme PTSD from dealing with LE in the past personally. For growing cannabis in my early 20's & then being subsequently stalked & harassed for years after that.
I'm not quite sure where these people live either.
I was able to go back through my history & found this dude's video though..... Youtube obviously didn't think it violated anything.



Look at the comments on this video..

"Look how they screaming Looool they screaming like girls"
"Can you smack them when they scream"
"cute screaming"


The uploader gave all those comments a "<3" too.


This guy knows what he's doing & what audience he's catering to & Youtube's completely fine with it.
These rabbits look terrified. I couldn't even stomach having to find this video again.
People probably think it's fine since rabbits are "meat" animals, but I think it's disgusting.
The dude even shows in the comments that he knows what he's doing is wrong but he does it anyway.
People are saying "we told you to stop grabbing rabbits by the ears".... Which means he's been doing this for awhile.

Actual exploitation & violence taking place on their platform but they have to harass & ban music makers & collectors like me instead.
It's fucking pathetic.

If I come across the other dudes channel that I found a few months back, I'll post his too. His was very similar too, grabbing rabbits by the ears, scruff, literally throwing them down into wire huts. And the comments were filled with people saying "uh yeah you're not suppose to do that".... Yet they never listen, which tells me these are animal torture vids under the guise of "farming/animal/education/blah blah blah"..... Because accidentally grabbing a rabbit by the neck/ears is one thing but repeatedly doing it in every video is another.

And apparently this isn't "exploitation" according to Youtube. Fucking sick. And this is coming from somebody who's into a lot of weird shit. lol
 
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Yeah I wish I could do something.
I have extreme PTSD from dealing with LE in the past personally. For growing cannabis in my early 20's & then being subsequently stalked & harassed for years after that.
I'm not quite sure where these people live either.
I was able to go back through my history & found this dude's video though..... Youtube obviously didn't think it violated anything.



Look at the comments on this video..

"Look how they screaming Looool they screaming like girls"
"Can you smack them when they scream"
"cute screaming"


The uploader gave all those comments a "<3" too.


This guy knows what he's doing & what audience he's catering to & Youtube's completely fine with it.
These rabbits look terrified. I couldn't even stomach having to find this video again.
People probably think it's fine since rabbits are "meat" animals, but I think it's disgusting.
The dude even shows in the comments that he knows what he's doing is wrong but he does it anyway.
People are saying "we told you to stop grabbing rabbits by the ears".... Which means he's been doing this for awhile.

Actual exploitation & violence taking place on their platform but they have to harass & ban music makers & collectors like me instead.
It's fucking pathetic.

If I come across the other dudes channel that I found a few months back, I'll post his too. His was very similar too, grabbing rabbits by the ears, scruff, literally throwing them down into wire huts. And the comments were filled with people saying "uh yeah you're not suppose to do that".... Yet they never listen, which tells me these are animal torture vids under the guise of "farming/animal/education/blah blah blah"..... Because accidentally grabbing a rabbit by the neck/ears is one thing but repeatedly doing it in every video is another.

And apparently this isn't "exploitation" according to Youtube. Fucking sick. And this is coming from somebody who's into a lot of weird shit. lol

There's always been sick, evil people in the world, but not at this scale. No human could cheerlead the torture of animals with such glee. I'm telling you brother, they're demons! What they're doing is by no means natural to any human.

If you ever get the opportunity, nail they're asses to the wall.
 
There's always been sick, evil people in the world, but not at this scale. No human could cheerlead the torture of animals with such glee. I'm telling you brother, they're demons! What they're doing is by no means natural to any human.

If you ever get the opportunity, nail they're asses to the wall.
Yeah man. You'd have to be evil to do this kind of shit.
Maybe I'm overly sensitive since people do eat meat, but there are ways to treat animals with dignity before you eat them even. And this guy is doing none of that.

Not to mention the blatant hypocrisy on display by youtube that this is still up, yet my album video was taken down immediately this morning.

I'm not sure what I can do in reality but I figured I'd post the guys video here & spread the word. Maybe some one might be able to figure out where this is happening at or they could be successful in getting his shit taken down. And those who genuinely love animals should know that Youtube is completely okay with this, but has no problem fucking with you if they don't like you or your politics, etc..
 
Yeah man. You'd have to be evil to do this kind of shit.
Maybe I'm overly sensitive since people do eat meat, but there are ways to treat animals with dignity before you eat them even. And this guy is doing none of that.

Not to mention the blatant hypocrisy on display by youtube that this is still up, yet my album video was taken down immediately this morning.

I'm not sure what I can do in reality but I figured I'd post the guys video here & spread the word. Maybe some one might be able to figure out where this is happening at or they could be successful in getting his shit taken down. And those who genuinely love animals should know that Youtube is completely okay with this, but has no problem fucking with you if they don't like you or your politics, etc..
This just happened. Is he one of the YouTube guys by any chance? How weird would that be...


 
This just happened. Is he one of the YouTube guys by any chance? How weird would that be...


Don't believe I've seen that dude! But I'm glad they got him!
Most of the ones I've come across have been people mistreating rabbits.

I dunno why nothing's been done about them. Only thing I can think of is that it's legal to raise rabbits for meat, so maybe nothings being done since these idiots are probably killing the rabbit afterward & eating it. But it's still animal cruelty (and exploitation) to mistreat them & then put it on video & on social media.
Youtube wouldn't even accept the appeal for my video. Fucking bastards. I'm so stunned that bullshit like that gets to stay up but music & art that I put a bunch of my time into gets taken down.

Yesterday was a very strange & fucked up day. I caught the landlord & a maintenance guy walking around the building yesterday. They were taking pics of the food I threw down for the rabbits & then picking it up & throwing it away. Pissed me off. I've just been waiting for them to bitch or say something. Me and my roommate got moved into this apartment because last November our asshole neighbor shot a gun through my roommates bedroom wall where he sits/sleeps. Luckily we were in the kitchen when it happened. And we couldn't get a hold of the landlord/corporate office for almost another full day after that. And the dude took off a ran, so the cops (who also didn't show up for over an hour) couldn't arrest him or do anything until the next day. And we knew this guy intentionally did it & so did the cops at first (cause we had been having problems with the dude for awhile before that).

We had to go stay in a hotel in case the dude came back & we tried getting into another apartment right away , paid an application fee & everything. Only to find out that corporate wasn't gonna let us break our lease, even though we were shot at & were having tons of other problems. They didn't offer to compensate us for the money we had to spend on a hotel either, even though we weren't gonna sleep in an apartment with a fucking bullet hole & a dude that could come back at any minute. But they offered to move us to these apartments. And the dude claimed it was an "accident" and he was just "unloading his gun when it went off" & for some reason the landlord & the police believed this guy. They even DEFENDED the guy!! And then they treated us like babies for not wanting to live in that apartment.

Anyways, that caused me some issues/PTSD, feeling like a bullet was gonna come at me every corner I took. And feeding the animals at this new place is something that gave me comfort, joy & to feel safe. Been doing it since December & now they're trying to zero in on me & act like it's a problem. lol

In the state I live in too, it's a simple misdemeanor for "accidentally" shooting a gun. So that dude got off with less than a slap on the wrist.
Which just blows my mind since people have their lives ruined all the time for the crime of "getting high" or using drugs. But shoot a gun through your neighbors wall? Pfft.

I also tried to make a dentist appt yesterday & I had to find a place that takes medicaid & the places listed online that said they did, told me they weren't taking any medicaid patients. Which I think means what they're doing is illegal. Since if they aren't actually taking medicaid patients, then they're suppose to inform the government & have their names taken off the list. But I think these places collect extra government funding by saying or pretending to take medicaid patients. I'm not sure how exactly it goes, but I know they're not suppose to be being listed online as taking medicaid if they aren't. So I can't get dental care but they can get extra money pretending they provide dental care for people with my insurance. I guess I'm suppose to just sit here with holes in my teeth.

It took me weeks to finally work up the courage to call around for a dentist too. How discouraging is that bullshit....

Sorry for the rambling here. Don't mind me. lol Yesterday was one hell of a fucked up day. It made me feel a certain way knowing that all these pieces of shit get away with doing what they're doing yet even just the simple act of me feeding rabbits is worthy of getting bitched at or told I can't do. Same scenario in regards to youtube, animal abuse is fine but my music is "violence". While also having people who shoot at others, getting off waay easier than some one with addiction issues.

What a fucked up world we are in. Im beyond ready to leave it.
You're absolutely right man that people are fucking evil. I'm not really religious, but I think humans themselves can & are evil. It doesn't even have to be demons or anything. It's just human nature to be shitty & grimy & stupid & evil.
 
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