Sorry, I know it's not directly about methadone again, I got that under control, but I really am thinking I should have NEVER went to the detox program as they fucked with my benzos in it an insane struggle here, the ER refused to help me after 8 hours of waiting and they just treated this bronchitis which has recurred after leaving their detox center which is so stupidly placed inside an hospital, the dumbass student doc there who refused to help me with my valium script, even for just a week scripted me Avelox (moxifloxacin) after a chest x ray and said goodbye..
Let this story be a warning to anyone using both benzos, even legitimately from a head psychiatrist and IV opiates in canada (they will only give methadone if you IV) if not then you can suboxone but its still 25 dollars a day for 8mg, re-think your situation before going in such a place, they will cut your benzos, give you a very short barbaric taper. At least they are letting me deal with my pdoc and obtain benzos again if i want in case the methadone does not alleviate my anxiety. I don't know why they are so goddamn sure methadone is an anxiolytic, maybe as a secondary effect, but not primarily. Enough rambling, here it goes, while I still feel good from the 1 random xanax 1mg i knew i had somewhere yesteday and my last 5mg valium.
Okay, starting 1 pm I'm taking an appointment with my regular doc, then i wont stop calling the pdoc's secretary, they have a new fax from the pharmacy sent in.
And you guys know what, i was scriped 2 5mg a day but only 45 of them! I was wondering how come I had reached the bottome of my bottle so fast as I wasn't abusing them.
So earlier this morning when I was going to the pharmacy to get my fucking 'done and have this fax sent in, I get to see the boss pharmacist of the place, who got angry at me for absolutely nothing. He probably heard about how I put back in her place that bitch cunt with dead eyes and ghost like skin imitation of a pharmacist who yelled at me cos i couldn't give her 19 dollars i owed them for non paid for prescription medecine. Yes, that exists in canada.
I could see she somehow told him cos he got angry for nothing when I said always staying polite : "This prescription does not make sense sir, it says to take 2 a day and I got 45 5mg pills, i should have 60."
HE BLEW HIS FUCKIN FUSE FOR THAT,I was in the middle of saying while he was examining my september bottle of valium (normal script) before the methadone clinic fucked with it "I've been given this for years.." and he goes lol, trying to impress me while I have hung out with gangsters of the like of Hell's Angels and Italian mafia in my not so shining past "I've been a pharmacist since 19 years! You're telling me this is impossible ? You don't know how to talk to people!" Then he goes to verify the fax they got back from him and yes, the pdoc did script me 45 5mg valiums....still no reason to yell at me. I know it was all office talk bullshit explaining why he talked to me this way.
So I go pretty much "what is it 'you' guys want ? I have a .22 home, i'm about to shoot myself in the head, got it ? You take pleasure into yelling at half corpses like me ?"
He changed faces there, seeing that me getting angry was a very bad idea. I got all his dox now, wife's name etc. but that's another thing
He did fax this to my pdoc and today I am trying to call again to get an appointment with him this afternoon, which will most likely be only next week but whatever he does meanwhile he will see that the pharmacy is very insistant on wanting to script me 10mg bid a day.
I don't know what they had sent a renewal for before 2 weeks ago, but it surely was not 10mg bid, so either the person doing the fax or another pharmacist (pretty much the only cool one, i thought) didnt believe me when I said I was on 10mg bid before the detox center fucked with my benzos; when they never were a problem for me.
Hopefully i'll get lucky cos I have zero benzos left as of this morning.
Also, WAT
i've been on methadone for 5, maybe 6 years. i was severely injured in an accident 25 years ago and later developed RA. my doc has like 6 folders of med records on me. going on methadone wasn't a decision my doc or i made lightly.
i have run into some really hateful and uneducated folks working in pharmacies. just a few days ago an asshole pharmacist pulled some shit on me and really upset me. he just ran his mouth but did it in front of other customers and I AM NOT doing anything even slightly shady or wrong. if concerned, he should talk directly to my doc, not make assumptions and judgments about people he doesn't know at all.
the stigma is really bad and it doesn't matter WHY you're on 'done; everyone on it is unfairly and negatively judged. it's a cheap, very effective med for many people, whether chronic pain or mmt patients. it helped me get a productive life back. but i'm pond scum according to the fuckers at CVS.
best to all of you
-izzy
I know someobdy who is scripted Metadol for pain, and not a huge ass script, like 10mg twice a day with a supeudol (oxy ir) 5mg in case of breakthrough pain and she never got shit. You only get shit like me if your methadone is liquid and scripted by a detox doctor. Then it's a different story. People being scripted opioids for pain aren't given too much shit by the health establishment here, the only difficult thing is obtaining them, unless you see a specialist, you'll get codeine/hydrocodone syrup for very bad cough and some dilaudid 1-2mg for awful teeth/jaw pain, but all for a very short time. While I can see that the difference in the US is that some areas give opioids like candy, especially those codones mixed with tylenol and it's alright with everybody. Although there's the ridiculous hating on Oxycontin which does not make sense which caused our Oxycontins to become shit also a year after you guys fucked. At least they changed the name, so people know its not the same thing.
