So I've been having a problem with DXM, fellow drug enthusiasts. (Probably not surprising, since I've been taking it every other day for a while now.)
Earlier I mentioned that
I'll get what I think is a seizure when falling asleep. Feels like I'm going to die or start uncontrollably twitching or something.
This has been happening like clockwork every time I dose, and has been going on for a couple of weeks now. I am prescribed mirtazapine for depression (not sure it really helps) and I take that right before bedtime, along with melatonin and sometimes diphenhydramine and/or cannabis. On my DXM days, I'll usually take 120 mg along with 1200 mg gabapentin spread throughout the course of the day.
I'll try to describe in detail what it is I've been experiencing: As I'm
just drifting off to sleep, I'll suddenly jerk back awake with a start. Sometimes this is accompanied by a leg kick, sometimes not. Often I'll be very disoriented/confused upon awakening, and if I don't move my body around it will feel as if I'm in danger of going into a full-on seizure. I usually remain semi-vigilant until I can fall asleep normally.
This sounds like myoclonus, right? I've had myoclonus sporadically throughout my lifetime, but it never felt as serious as what I've been going through lately (and never lasted any length of time after awakening).
Perhaps this is sleep paralysis? I've had SP many, many times, but it was always upon awakening (usually in the morning), so I cannot compare the the type of sleep paralysis I've had to what is going on currently.
Long shot: maybe it's serotonin syndrome, since both mirtazapine and DXM have been known to cause SS?
Or maybe I just fried my brain!
Whatever it is, it feels potentially fatal, though I do realize subjective feelings do not equal reality. So what do you think it could be? Should I just go with it?
I'd really like to keep taking DXM, since it's the best antidepressant I've tried. I have already begun the tapering process to get me to a lower dosage. I might score some MXE and take that for a while.