SKL
Bluelight Crew
- Joined
- Sep 15, 2007
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Hey, all.
Just dropping in.
I've not been reading or posting Bluelight very much, it's sort of an odd thing to be on here again, because it was so much of a part of my day to day life and routine, but now it's not, but then again, "BL" has really permeated my "IRL" life to an astounding extent. I've made so many friends here, not to mention my gf. Such a crazy thing.
Good to see familiar names and "faces" here though. I hope all of you are well reading this out there.
I am. I'm still with my straight job. Prescribed a trifecta of Valium, Dexedrine, and Suboxone, so drug-wise I'm totally legitimized. So disconnected from that world lately, the dark & illegal world. That makes me happy. It's an immense weight off my shoulders. But it means I'm disconnected from a lot of dear friends, which is sad. But again: Too many dear friends have been lost in one way or another due to the darkness, and that is downright unbearable.
And it turns again. I attended the Horizons conference lately. Always a fascinating and stimulating time. I connected with a lot of brilliant people doing amazing and interesting things, and everything that's going on now is stuff that I never could've imagined in the past. Goddamn. The scientific research that's going on now blows me away. Creeping closer to some sort of acceptance by the world.
And in ways, that's great, and in ways, it's not. Synthetic cannabinoids and "bath salts" and things like that are quite literally on every other street corner. I never could've imagined this. It's fascinating and terrifying. And people are making fantastic, terrific amounts of money, I'm sure, and it's changed the whole drug culture out to the most mainstream of layers. More insularly, I feel the psychedelic community, or parts of it, are dangerously adrift. For one instance among mnay, I'm horrified by what ayahuasca has become, culturally, in the past few years, I'm horrified by Daniel Pinchbeck and company and all this cultic madness, this culturally-appropriating, ignorant, fundamentalistic rejection of everything that we've learned as a community--speaking now of the "psychedelic community," the underground that's been existing since the late 60's--in favor of ... I don't even know how to describe it. I'm trying to find the words. My obsession lately is with documenting these things and writing about them and trying to understand.
I still think that drugs and the drug scene are the most interesting thing in the world and still feel like they're a part of me, a part of my consciousness and my DNA. I'm looking at different ways to relate to it, now, though. I'm working on my site, still, the forum fell into disuse, but I'm working on a re-launch that will have a new and modern design, and be basically this big knowledge aggregator for "people like us" to share. Meet somewhere in the middle between our community's received conventional wisdom and all the damn cool science that's been going on. Learn from one another, and shape the knowledge for the next generation. There's so much knowledge out there, on web boards, pages, wikis, journals, presentations, books, all over the place. And there's bullshit and stupid ideology and dogma and bad science and all of that, too. So there's a lot of work to do in that arena. The pre-alpha version of my site is up and running and a few of us are loading content into it. If anyone wants in, or just to have a look at the project, drop me a note, I'd be happy to oblige. It's very much under construction and bare bones now.
So that's where I am coming from these days.
Felt good to throw a rambling post up here.
Felt like the old days.
Just dropping in.
I've not been reading or posting Bluelight very much, it's sort of an odd thing to be on here again, because it was so much of a part of my day to day life and routine, but now it's not, but then again, "BL" has really permeated my "IRL" life to an astounding extent. I've made so many friends here, not to mention my gf. Such a crazy thing.
Good to see familiar names and "faces" here though. I hope all of you are well reading this out there.
I am. I'm still with my straight job. Prescribed a trifecta of Valium, Dexedrine, and Suboxone, so drug-wise I'm totally legitimized. So disconnected from that world lately, the dark & illegal world. That makes me happy. It's an immense weight off my shoulders. But it means I'm disconnected from a lot of dear friends, which is sad. But again: Too many dear friends have been lost in one way or another due to the darkness, and that is downright unbearable.
And it turns again. I attended the Horizons conference lately. Always a fascinating and stimulating time. I connected with a lot of brilliant people doing amazing and interesting things, and everything that's going on now is stuff that I never could've imagined in the past. Goddamn. The scientific research that's going on now blows me away. Creeping closer to some sort of acceptance by the world.
And in ways, that's great, and in ways, it's not. Synthetic cannabinoids and "bath salts" and things like that are quite literally on every other street corner. I never could've imagined this. It's fascinating and terrifying. And people are making fantastic, terrific amounts of money, I'm sure, and it's changed the whole drug culture out to the most mainstream of layers. More insularly, I feel the psychedelic community, or parts of it, are dangerously adrift. For one instance among mnay, I'm horrified by what ayahuasca has become, culturally, in the past few years, I'm horrified by Daniel Pinchbeck and company and all this cultic madness, this culturally-appropriating, ignorant, fundamentalistic rejection of everything that we've learned as a community--speaking now of the "psychedelic community," the underground that's been existing since the late 60's--in favor of ... I don't even know how to describe it. I'm trying to find the words. My obsession lately is with documenting these things and writing about them and trying to understand.
I still think that drugs and the drug scene are the most interesting thing in the world and still feel like they're a part of me, a part of my consciousness and my DNA. I'm looking at different ways to relate to it, now, though. I'm working on my site, still, the forum fell into disuse, but I'm working on a re-launch that will have a new and modern design, and be basically this big knowledge aggregator for "people like us" to share. Meet somewhere in the middle between our community's received conventional wisdom and all the damn cool science that's been going on. Learn from one another, and shape the knowledge for the next generation. There's so much knowledge out there, on web boards, pages, wikis, journals, presentations, books, all over the place. And there's bullshit and stupid ideology and dogma and bad science and all of that, too. So there's a lot of work to do in that arena. The pre-alpha version of my site is up and running and a few of us are loading content into it. If anyone wants in, or just to have a look at the project, drop me a note, I'd be happy to oblige. It's very much under construction and bare bones now.
So that's where I am coming from these days.
Felt good to throw a rambling post up here.
Felt like the old days.