Cocaine isn't a drug you can sit down and just do and be satisfied with its effects, you need to use it as an enhancer for the fun you're already having. Or else you'll feel uncomfortable, as you mention, and you'll be wondering what you should do next. The euphoria comes from the fun you're having, accented by the coke. Not the coke alone.
hi everyone,
really glad to have found this site. i can be real and talk about my addictions. actually a friend (former - she cut me off) at rehab hooked me up with this site.
Thanks especially to milfhunter ;-) yes, i really do need to quit drinking. In my recovery, I am trying to quit unhealthy behaviors all together. the coke/booze is especially difficult (worse than quiting smoking). Ideally i don't even want to ever think about that crap. i want to be in a state where i enjoy being sober and that i want to protect being sober. a girlfriend would help but it is hard as heck to meet a normal person when one is in recovery.
The other thing with coke use is I have lost every friend (ever). lonely as heck trying to get better. I spent the last weekend alone with so much negative self talk, feeling like a victim (then accountable), hating on everyone (most people are not worth knowing), sleeping, etc
i'm not into the 12steps (tried it), i like the CBT model for recovery. I was verbally abused in dollarama (dollar store) last night by this guy i went to rehab with in the summer. I told him not to call me (ever) about 2 weeks after rehab. he used to call/show up at my house and i called him a stalker and told him to leave me alone. his name calling/slander last night was brutal... yes he is a loser. He is 40 yrs old without a grade nine education and is a criminal (spent alot of critical yrs in jail). I am thinking of getting a restraining order. Kind of good (in a messed up way) that people are talking/gossiping about me... lol. wish they were talking about how hot/well-2-do i was instead though... ;-)See what i mean about loneliness?
Can anyone relate? or am i really out there?
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No way! IV caine is the ultimate rush, and the bellringer.. Ahh, so, so, soooo good.. When I started smoking hard, yes, it was very intense, but, it doesn't compare to IV soft, imo. Although, I was getting some very pure caine, maybe that was why. I had gotten a few batches of good stuff, just nothing spectacular like his usual goodies, and it didn't provide me with a loud bellringer, which was the whole reason I slammed coke. I will say, however, as soon as I started smoking crack, I COULDN'T go back to sniffing lines, ever. It's such an intense feeling and upcoming, although as soon as I hit it, I'd cache my hit, and instantly start loading up another. I was a terrible crackhead. And it usually always killed my opiate high.Yes it's true, alcohol and cocaine go well together...I think it's called synergy when you combine a CNS stimulant with a CNS depressant. But with the crack form of cocaine I never drank with that, it was extremely addicting pure euphoria that wore off so so quickly. I did IV coke a couple times and smoking crack is even better lol. It's been years since I've done cocaine tho-
Lol, I've never tasted a 'floor cleaner taste' from coke. Actually, everytime I shot I didn't get any taste in my mouth afterwards, oddly enough. Gah, shooting coke is amazing. If I didn't call it quits with soft/hard/needles for good you can bet I'd be slamming some fatties right now. That's what I loved about it, I'd get it, instantly when I got home I'd run to my room, grab my gear, head to the bathroom, and start letting it dissolve. I loved it because it would disperse in the water, leave behind no particles (that my eyes could see, looked to be clear water) and with the tiniest bit of stirring (5 seconds maybe) my shot was already prepped. Then BAM, the bells go off and I'm soaring. The best rush, and shooting it really didn't give me much of a comedown.†€¢}{И¡¢λ£ €¢§†λ$¥;10112317 said:And what about that floor-cleaner taste in your mouth right about the time you start to hear the train comin? Does anyone really like that? Be truthful. I used to think I did until I realized I only liked all of the weird side effects because... how could you not love everything about shootin coke?!?! haha
It's been a while. Maybe I'm thinkin about the lemon juice after taste with... blech.... crack. I'll never forget the first time I heard about people doing that. You mean to tell me you can shoot crack? That just sounds like pure evil. Hell yea, I wanna try it!!!Lol, I've never tasted a 'floor cleaner taste' from coke. Actually, everytime I shot I didn't get any taste in my mouth afterwards, oddly enough.