Obviously what really turns me on is when my lover (only have one of them and she has been my one and only lover for over a decade) tells me she wants to suck my dick and then starts off by first cupping my dick and balls with her hands while passionately making out with me. Then when I'm hard she proceeds to give me head like she really enjoys it. The more turned on she gets while doing it the more it turns me on.
For some weird reason I don't want her to suck me until I cum. I'd much rather switch to fucking for that (never had a partner swallow and don't ever really want her to). I would like to cum all over her face just once but will never ask or actually do it because I care too much for her and I know (atleast I think I know) she would not appreciate it.
I don't know why... and I've never admitted this to anyone anywhere... but I like it when she kisses me after she gives me head. Like I said, I never cum in her mouth but after she gives me really good head I can faintly smell precum on her breath and it fucking turns me even more. I am straight though I do have some fantasies of complete role reversal (actually switching bodies) so who knows maybe it stems from that. Maybe I am bisexual who knows.
I love it when she looks back at me with that lustful look in her eyes while I'm fucking her doggie style.
I love watching her face as she climaxes while riding on top of me.
I love sucking on her nipples when they are big and hard. The bigger and harder they get the better. Sometimes I pretend I'm actually sucking her dick (switching bodies thing again) and that turns me on even more.
I like it when she sits on my face even though I cant really breath or accurately eat her out like this.
I absolutely love it when she squirts while riding me. The louder and wetter the better.
I love it when she smiles at me while our eyes meet and it feels like our souls briefly merge into one.
I would really love it if she understood and accepted the true me (flaws and all) because I live a hidden life of shame. She knows not of my account here on bluelight and we never talk about my drug use. She knows but we don't discuss it though I wish we could because I need her help and her guidance badly. Maybe somehow someway she can read this. I hope and pray she does and I hope and pray she understands.
if you lose your stash ill help you look for it (kidding)
