had a "museum" weekend two weeks ago.
Didn't have a script, um cough I just kinda got "indianna jones" lucky and with only one ampule available and never to be found again, i gave myself a verbal script and have an exclusive day and a half of true old school.
Methedrine ampule (orally - 5cc / 30mg) - very impressive for such a small dosage and such an old product taken orally. Lasted a long but comfortable time and will miss not being able to have any more, but am humbly grateful for the experience.
Opium Tincture - Or Laudanum to sound "cool" (orally - 4ml max) very grateful for the experience (have a few doses left so it should last me a few more years).
Vesparax 225mg - just for desert, and I think my subconscious is glad I got none of these left, without a doubt the best oral pharm IME . of all time, and a perfect time to take the last two tablets (I always thought I would have one more dose handy forever) and as cheesy as it sounds, by polishing off the final dose, the closure was more of a buzz than the few hours described above.
After an experience like that I can't think of any script available today that warrants the "rewards" I always used to look for in pharms.
So I will take my 5mg diazepam when needed, my 10mg mph prescribed bd, which i only take around 4 tabs a week. Oh & my 7.5mg Zopiclone most nights.
I know there is no perfect solution to life, but somehow what I have shared here has had a huge influence on my addictive behaviour and abstaining to give life a decent chance isn't that difficult right now. Why I had to wait so long before this epiphany is obvious to me.
This post is a reminder to me and anyone else that
inspiration is the fuel I need and I get that from many things and am glad that chemicals is not near the top of my list anymore.
OK I'm posting this............... wasn't going to, but couldn't sleep tonight, and didn't want to "dope" myself into sleep like most nights. It gets f#@king boring.
So hope you enjoyed the read and thanks to BL for still being here for me after all these years , as an "active member" as well as recently, a "grateful spectator".
This post had to be done now though and I just kinda saw this thread so I did it.
Mods please move it to another thread if needed, but I like it here for now.
Take it easy guys and hope to share again soon.
SL