derp
naw thizz
i shall do no such thing
i noticed, after using i still feel physically not good but as of the last few days, i havent spent the whole time tearing myself apart in mah head.
feels real good actually mang, dunno why
but i'm not as bothered about my situation anymore?
or at least it would seem.
which si nice.
or at least i dont feel like a fuckup anymore?
no idea why either.
all sudden-like too, heh if this keeps up i probably will actually cut back instead of saying fuck it i hate lief like i do every time.
and yea i been gettin high the last few days, the ol grind.
i honestly have felt better and not been getting as high when i do intentionally...i've been more content with life seemingly for no reason over the last few days.
the only thing that is bothering me at all is the glare as i sit outside, and that i'm almost out of cigarettes and dont feel like/am real tired and dont wanna go grab some just yet even though i'm down to 3...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UudfGmTb_ho