(sorry in advance for resurrecting my 6yr old thread, and for the length of it.)
Hey everyone, I'm not on much anymore but I came back just now to reply to this thread. Excuse the length, I'm hardly here but want to post this and then I'll probably take another long hiatus. The post is this long, because I don't know when I'll be back on. Just want to say this.
I've been taking gabapentin for about 7 years, but about 6 of those years were not daily dosing. Lately the severe neuropathy from extensive nerve damage because of scoliosis correction surgery has gotten worse, which has resulted in a spinal tap and numerous CT scans. For almost a year now I have taken gabapentin daily, but not in excessive amounts. Just enough to stop the tingly, lighting bolt type of pain resulting from everything.
So my tolerance is currently relatively high, as you can imagine. It's ridiculously hard to feel much from GP or Pregabalin nowadays, but every now and again I try to see if it'll come back. I miss it sometimes, it was kind of indescribable the way it felt.
Today is one of those days, so over the course of 5 hours now I have staggered up to 6,000mg (10 of the 600mg tablets) and feeling some familiarity from it, but nowhere near like it was 7 years ago. Those days are long gone, as brain/body chemistry changes drastically over that period of time. It's almost like chasing the gabapentin gnome, not ever going to catch it and get that "magic" back!
No more painkillers or benzos like I mentioned years ago, detox/rehab cleared me out of all that (un) fortunately. The only controlled that I have, is Lyrica which I haven't really gotten a chance to dial in my settings with it. But I have favored Kratom now though, and am finding it to pair nicely with what I've got. The gabapentin is subtle, and the Kratom gives it a little kick (but not *too* much). I recently got a script for a higher dose of Lyrica (150mg) so I might try those again in about a week, but it'll probably be pointless as well since my first few tries were a flop, up to 900mg (9 pills).
Overall, the effects from gabapentin are quite diminished nowadays and it's nowhere like it was for me, which is to be expected. Nothing lasts forever. Sometimes I question why I even try anymore, it's like looking for something that doesn't exist. And I'm quite certain that a long long tolerance break will fix it, the effects are almost certainly gone for good. I'd hate to see my calcium channels, they're probably pretty bad now after almost a decade.
In retrospect, I look at all of my old posts here and just wish I could message myself in that old time and say "No Brian, stop! Stop while you can!" But there's no doing that unfortunately. Just have to lay in the bed that I made. Is what it is! I just hope this can help someone who winds up searching for this subject on Google, and helps them understand that it won't last forever, and that it's fruitless to keep taking more and more after the effects aren't there anymore. It's a hit-or-miss, but usually a miss in terms of getting the feeling that they enjoyed again.
Much love everyone, hope you all are well, and that I'm thankful to everyone who commented over the years. Stay well, be safe, and keep it real.
TL; dr - don't take more after you stop feeling it overall, it probably won't come back after a certain amount of time. Enjoy it while you can, because it's only temporary in the end.
