When I was growing up I was a shy kid, never really liked getting into convo's with strangers.
I'm a good looking guy (thats irrelevant), but i've still always had problems making friends, and the only girls i'd get just wanted me for my looks/appearence...Not because of my personality.
When I'm sober and not on a stimulant (meth,adderall) I keep to myself, I have no motivation, no goals, and always feel depressed . (I dont feel this way because I'm addicted to meth or anything, ive felt this way before I ever did drugs).
I tried adderall a few months ago and it made me more social, happier, motivated me to study and get goals for myself.
When the drug wore off, im back to my same ol' self of unhappy,unmotivated and non social.
I tried meth 3 weeks ago, and it makes me feel like I do on adderall, but a little better of course because its more potent.
Anyways, is there something wrong with me? I only feel happy,confident, and social and have goals in life when im on a stimulant.
I've tried to get an adderall prescription but doctors refuse to give me one(Probably because im a 21 year old male and they think i just want to abuse it.) But I seriously woudl benefiet from a prescription, but they dont care.
What should I Do? I refuse to smoke meth all the time to feel Alive..... and i cant get addreall from anybody....
So what do I do?
I'm lost. . .