I just wanted to thank you all for supporting my brother, and leaving such loving and thoughtful comments. I just came across this thread, 3 years later. But I'm so glad I found it. My brother's 3 year anniversary of his death is coming up on april 7th, and I am just missing him so much. He was truly my best friend, and the best brother anyone could ask for. He was smart, funny, liked to joke around, and yes, a pain in the ass sometimes. It was so hard watching him go through his addiction, and I tried to help him as much as I could. But as a person that was in active addiction herself, it was hard to give advice to someone when you weren't even following your own. But thankfully I am 3 years clean, and I wouldn't have been able to do it with out him. It totally woke my ass up and I knew there was no going back to that life. I was 2 months into getting clean when he passed, and his death was really what impacted me to make a total life change. The pain and sorrow of losing him gets a little less everyday, but still weights heavy on my heart. I know he will always be walking beside me, helping me through the hard times when that little monster wants to make it's self known again. I just try to think about him when that happens. Anyway, I just want to say thanks for remembering my brother, Eric. I appreciate you all.