sounds like my family
Hey Jane, listen, I was adopted, and wished I wasnt. I actually think I would have been better off with the birth mother I eventually met, who was an alcoholic and had kids taken from her by family services. my parents told me they picked me, but I feel like they did that so they could have someone to take out their frustrations on. My 2 older brothers that were their natural kids treated me like a stray dog THEIR parents brought home from the pound. My father corrected my english, did not care WHAT i said, EVER. My mom worked all the time and told me once a mother and daughter should never be freinds. My parents have passed and my brothers stole part of my inheritance which they dont even need in the slightest, and i desperately do. I have not spoken to either one in over a year and never plan to do so. EVER. If you really feel your parents don't care about you, then let them go. I had to do it a long time ago (Im 48) and it hurt but I feel much better now. as far as friends go, if they are not there for you when you need them, they arent your freinds. You can find new ones. Listen, I have bi-polar but mostly manic depressive, so I know how you feel pretty much. Been addicted to oxycodone for almost 10 years now, since my fiance had an accident, and it ruined both of our lives....he gets meds monthly and talked me into starting them, guess he didnt want to get high alone. He is a great guy but suffers so much pain every day, i can barely stand it. We had a good life started but lost it all and have lived in tents, and have not had a life since. I have 2 close friends (they both live far away which sux) but I know they care about me, and I dont need or want anyone else's BS...You sound like a fairly young person, i really think you need to get out and meet people....you have to go through alot of crap to find the good ones, but there are good people out there. I am so sorry for what you are going through, and if I was there, I would give you a big hug, and listen to whatever you wanted to tell me, and try to help you however I could. I have thought about sucide quite a few times in my life, but never had the cahona's....I know people say this all the time, but it will get better, it will, so dont do anything permanent. I actually had to start laughing each time we had another tragedy becuase I couldnt believe how much bad crap could happen to 2 fairly nice, good people. Please hang in there....do what you need to do for YOU. If that means getting rid of some non-caring folks in your life, then DO IT. Take care honey...we do care...