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Sasha Shulgin suffers a stroke

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Sasha Shulgin
‎[Social+]Hi everybody,Sasha, Tania and Ann just left The Farm and are headed to the hospital in San Francisco. Sasha is about to undergo the long awaited skin graft surgery. Now would be a wonderful time for you to, pretty please, send a surge of love and magic in Sasha's direction. Thank you :)Also, Sasha still needs financial help so, please continue to send your contributions and to spread the word. There is a convenient donation button at our new Shulgin Legacy Project page ( http://shulginresearch.org/ ).
 
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Dear People,

Again, it took longer than I had expected to get back to you, but those of you who have had the experience of putting somebody into hospital will understand. The whole world (my personal world, that is) suddenly changes, and there are new dimensions, new schedules, new expectations and new fears to deal with. Like – are the nurses good and friendly and capable? Do the doctors know what they’re doing and to whom they are doing it? Do they remember which Sasha leg is supposed to get the skin graft? Does the nursing station serve the family members hot coffee and tea whenever they need it? Turns out, we are in a very, very old hospital (when is the last time you saw windows that opened with a crank?), and nobody has tea and coffee for family members, as the former hospital did. That’s okay. There’s a cafeteria downstairs and after hours there are machines that dispense. What they dispense is --- well, it’s hot, anyway.

As for Sasha (you were wondering when I’d get around to the most important part of this adventure, yes?) – his graft surgery went very well, or so the doctor says, and he doesn’t seem to be having a lot of pain, so far, which is a good sign. To my surprise, they haven’t put the leg into any harness or other kind of restraint, but he’s wearing the soft boots which he’s had on for months, and we do our best to keep the leg up on a pillow. Oh, yes—we were urged to have our caregivers here night and day, because Sasha’s memory is severely impaired, and directions given to him by a nurse are forgotten ten minutes later So his caregivers (Chimmy, Vickie and Carlos) are his memory.

There have been glitches in communication about the particular pain medication being used by our primary care physician, and the nursing staff is sometimes aware and alert and other times somewhat clueless, depending on how well the outgoing nurses brief the incoming ones at the times of shift change. One breakfast tray never made it to Sasha, but he ate a good lunch.

We think he’ll be here until Monday or Tuesday, and we still have hopes of getting a private room, but the hope is fading, since this hospital was inundated by sick people on Monday, and they’re still full. Our doctor did his best to get us on the private room list, since a very compassionate friend offered to pay for it, but there is little hope that’ll happen. Luckily, the other patient in this room is a very nice gentleman, so there is no problem. Besides, we’ve learned to be grateful for human beings who are pleasant and cooperative, having experienced the alternative the first night we were here. There was a 26 year old male who didn’t like being intruded upon by another patient, and expressed (repeatedly) his dislike of women talking – obviously, he meant women doing anything – and during the night, he cursed Vickie, who was caring for Sasha, and kept cursing until he fell asleep He was probably in pain, having crashed his motorcycle, and he also was probably the only son of a gangster who had taught him to spread fear and panic wherever he went, in order to get his way, and the son was only trying to emulate Daddy and didn’t know any better. The nurses who had come in contact with this future crime kingpin made clear their joy at his transfer to another floor, although they tried to be discrete, and we were more than happy to find him absent when we returned the next day. It was a thankfully brief reminder of the fact that we, ourselves, live in a community (worldwide) full of really good human beings, kind and compassionate and loving and possessed – one and all – of minimally destructive dark sides. Of course, I mean all of you.

Love and Blessings -- Ann
 
Although I don't have anything to give in terms of financial help, I'll be sending positive thoughts his way 24/7. I'm only 24 but I am dealing with a lot of psychological and physical ailments; yet, I can only imagine what he is going through right now. Forget hoping, they WILL take extra good care of that foot, dammit. I want this man to walk upright again.

I have confidence, because I met a fellow human on 10-10-10 who drove Tibetan Monks around the US for several years. He has taught me so much already about the power of self-prophesy and manifestation, and the fact that Sasha is in such good spirits is an extremely good sign. I am sure the man knows this knowledge himself.

If it is indeed true that we are all the same energy, then our positivity combined will do nothing but further Shulgin's recovery. We have nothing to lose in this belief.
 
Glad I saw this, gave $20.

Too the person who criticized Mr. Shulgin, MDMA was not popularized by him, it was popularized by a priest who tried it, and spread copious quantities of it through Dallas, TX, to nightclubs where people sold it outside of doors for a couple bucks, and it found it's way to SMU, the main college campus in Dallas (well, downtown Dallas), EVERYONE was probably having a pleasant time (in the 80's).
 
...those of you who have had the experience of putting somebody into hospital will understand...

To put some of this in perspective: My dad's large intestine prolapsed and ruptured in 2008. For the slow children in the audience, that means poo-poo went places it shouldn't be, like in your abdominal cavity. He almost died from full-blown sepsis and was on a ventilator in an induced coma (on I guess Versed, apart from horse-doses of fentanyl) for a few months. When he finally woke up he didn't have the strength to talk, and his mental functions were somewhat off. He had no muscle tone after being paralyzed (basically) for over half a year, and obviously he had no gut motility from not eating for so long. So of course as soon as they first introduced food with no puking, he was taking pills for everything.

Those pills sat in his STOMACH for a WEEK. I know this because he kept complaining about how every time he burped he could taste the vanilla milkshake he had previously. Then, WHAT DO YOU KNOW, his intestines move. YAY I mean wait a sec. All the weeks' cardiac/BP/WTF doses he took hit him at once. I wasn't there, but was told his BP dropped to something like 60/ 40. He coded blue three times and now has a slight scar from the defibrillator paddle discharge, they had to crank it so high. He then had to recuperate and go to physical therapy. We couldn't afford home care nurses, so I dropped out of college so my neurotic mother wouldn't have to prep/hook up his TPN (total parenteral nutrition).

This is basically Ensure or Boost in a huge pouch that must be injected with various medications, insulin and vitamins, then pumped through a catheter that feeds into the literal Main Vein, the Superior Vena Cava. "Everything the body needs." The pumping took 12 hours, then the lines had to be flushed with sterile saline, then warfarin solution so they wouldn't clog. Repeat daily for over 6 months. Many good alcohol swabs were lost in those times.

Rehab (and gross things like fistulas, EWWW) presented problems, but TBH under my care he never got anything but better. He had his abdominal wall surgically reconstructed to reduce the 1.5 foot scar and add support. He even packed on almost all the pounds he lost in his infirmity (for better or worse, but seeing him so skinny after no solid food for nearly a year was terrifying).

Now, you would never know he was ever sick. It's f**king ridiculous. I know my Grandma had 2 TIAs back-2-back and shrugged it off with nothing more than slight but persisting mental confusion. Shulgin seems to be doing much the same; the lack of gag reflex is worrisome but manageable. For an OG he's doing damn well.
 
Updates ... (N.B. last paragraph of first update - Shulgin Index is finally going to print! Woo!)

Dear Friends,

Finally, we have the really great news we've been waiting for! Sasha's left foot has been encased in a wound vac. for five days, and yesterday, on the fifth day, the vascular surgeon, a terrific man named Dr. Parrett, took the vacuum off and examined the graft site. He said it had taken, hooray and Amen. Until now, we had not been able to dismiss completely the possibility of amputation, but this tells us that (at least, for the foreseeable future), the foot will remain with the rest of Sasha's bod. And, thank heaven, Sasha can come home on Wednesday!

This particular hospital experience has not been without problems. We never did get a private room, due to the patient overload, but for the most part, the other room-mates have been nice people, so that isn't a complaint. The nurses are mostly very nice and pleasant and helpful, with a few inevitable exceptions, who made things a bit difficult for our caregivers, probably not realizing that we have a really good relationship with our three caregivers and that they tell us everything that goes on when we aren't there. Including what certain nurses say about a lot of things in our absence that they did not -- and would not -- say when we're there. A lot of funny stuff, nit-picky stuff, goes on in hospitals as it does everywhere else, but small things get magnified in the minds of patients and their families, because we're all helpless without good nurses, and there's a lot of anxiety running around inside us when someone we love is sick and we can't make them well by ourselves.

All of this rescuing of Sasha's foot would not have happened without our new primary care physician (also known as the "family doctor"), who knew the right surgeons to send us to, and spends more time with us every time he visits than any other doctor I've ever known. Not fifteen minutes, but usually a full hour! He was introduced to us by a dear friend, an addiction and pain specialist named Howard (I'll write his full name when he gives me permission), when our long-time family doctor left to open a clinic in New Orleans. This new doctor, Paul Abramson, is a member of The Tribe, and living proof that the universe is occasionally kind and compassionate, despite what might be described as overwhelming evidence to the contrary. The only negative (which we are going to accept willingly) is that his office is in San Francisco, a near-hour's drive from our home. Dr. Paul has empathy, intelligence, humor, and loves challenges. And Sasha's foot has been quite a challenge, witness the fact that the doctors in the Wound Care Center, where we took Sasha for many months, simply did not see the point of trying to avoid amputation, and thought we were wasting time and money in trying to keep his body intact. A certain lack of imagination, one might say. They are good doctors, but imaginative they are not. So I'm saying here, in front of God and all the Little Gods, that we are immensely grateful to Dr. Howard, who led us to Dr. Paul, who led us to Dr. Parrett, who led us to a successful skin graft.

Now, we are going to have to raise enough money to pay for round-the-clock caregivers for Sasha, for what may be years, since that magnificent mind has lost its ability to remember anything that didn't happen many years ago. Arteriosclerosis, hardening of the arteries, is the cause, and the only bright spot in this rather sad picture is that Sasha's true personality -- optimistic, pun-loving, people-loving and chemistry-loving -- is intact and shining brightly (unless he's in pain, and we hope that will be an infrequent problem from here on), and when he moves back to the lab, with Paul, our chemist friend and Sasha's co-author on the Shulgin Index, he'll be happy again, because he still remembers most of his chemistry, and we hope that will continue for a long, long time.

And the Shulgin Index is off to the printer, thanks mainly to Wendy, my wonderful daughter, who said (something like), "No more! No more! It's finished. We are sending it out into the big, wide world NOW!" At which point all the exhausted co-authors (Paul Daley and Tania Manning) cried out in unison (sort of): "Free At Last! Free At Last! Thank Wendy Awlmighty, Free At Last!"

Love and Blessings -- Ann



Dear Friends,

Sasha is home, thank hevvin. I'm on my way to Marin, but before I can even get out of the house, there are so many things to do, including giving Sasha a shot of heparin -- to prevent clots -- that I suddenly found myself in the middle of a good ole-fashioned anxiety attack, including slightly shaking hands. So I asked Tania to give the morning injection, and promised I could do it this evening. I've got to get to the bank, get gas in the car, and I'm going to be waaaaay late. Wendy is the first person to say, "Don't worry; any time you get here, it'll be fine," but anxiety attacks don't allow that message to get through convincingly.

I'll continue this later today -- this evening -- by which time I should have calmed down and retrieved my normal state (well, at least I'll be over the anxiety stuff).

I haven't even opened a single Xmas present yet. And I haven't sent off most of the Xmas presents to my family, would you believe! It's ridiculous. Have to remember that everybody understands and stop beating myself up about it.

To be continued when I return home from my Mental Health Day.

Ann/Nanna
 
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Dear Patient People,

This is the second note for January 7th, and it'll be short, probably surprising nobody out there. This was a complicated day, but it all smoothed out in Marin County, as I breathed in the (relative) normalcy of Wendy and Audrey (five years old) and their two adolescent cats (American Alley Cats) who formed instant relationships with a large box I had brought in, containing somewhat late Xmas presents. As soon as the presents were out of the box, the cats were in. And around. And on top. And inside again, while we watched and laughed.

I'm over my anxiety attack and this evening I injected brave, stoic Sasha with his heparin. He didn't make a peep, bless him, mostly because he was determined not to upset me, and also because the needle was very, very thin and fine. He's doing very well, skin-graft-wise, but has a few episodes of pain in his foot each day, which is probably due, at least partly, to his peripheral neuropathy. It causes needle-strike pains which can go on for a long time, but we always give him buprenorphine, which is an amazingly good pain drug used by both Dr. Howard Kornfeld (he gave me permission to use his name) and Dr. Paul Abramson, who is in charge of Sasha's pain management. In the evening, Sasha gets Lyrica, which is good for nerve pain, along with the buprenorphine, and these two work well together to dull the pain and allow him to sleep. We used to also give him Vicodin (one capsule), but it suddenly turned sour on him, causing restlessness and delusions, and these problems have pretty much disappeared since we cut that drug out. This can happen quite often in elderly patients -- a sudden reversal of good effects -- and one has to be alert to this possibility when the patient is older, and also when that patient has some degree of dementia (that's such an ugly word, even when one is used to it).

Our lovely, motherly Tibetan caregiver is asleep on the couch, a few feet from Sasha, also asleep in his hospital bed, and I must go to bed myself. I'll do my best to talk to you tomorrow, in between wrapping my family's Xmas presents and getting them sent off to Denver and Puyallup (near Seattle), now marked with "Happy New Year."

Which I also wish to all of you, again. Bless you for being there.

Ann
 
i reckon they decided to release the book to create some revenue for his care - good move

also didn't know sacha shulgin drunk wine!
 
The book has been in the planning for some time now. I suspect it's just a welcome coincidence.
 
I think its pretty ridiculous people are talking about the chemicals being the cause here.

How many people at 85 are even mobile? How many people at 85 do you see in good shape in the states???

Now many.

He's 85 people. Do you people realize how old that is? 5 years away from 90. Ok. How many 90 year olds do you know that are not connected to machines.

Plus he smoked. Plus he probably didn't eat too well.

I'd say, the chemicals, if the did any damage, had very little to do with his sickness.

We will be donating as well as a donation to MAPS..everyone please help...BE Kind to the Grandfather of MDMA.....Olskoolrollrz

No harm meant here.

But do Shulgins have kids? And did Sasha's kid create MDMA? The posibilities hurt my head.
 
donate to Shulgin by all means, MAPS on the other hand has had a strange smell surrounding it for a very long time, not just John Halpern.

buy Tihkal pihkal and order the new book.
 
He's brilliant, he lives right next to my school up in the hills of Lafayette unless he has moved recently, his sign is still there, Ive always wanted to go up there and just talk with him for hours but I'm sure he likes his privacy. I Hope he lives well, he is a man of great intelligence.
 
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