right now i am slowly trying to stop using heroin alltogether but easier said then done. i take suboxone 2-4 mgs a day on days that i don't use heoin. i feel that i'm right there and i could stop using for good if i just set my mind to it.
is anyone else going through the same thing? are you in active recovery but still use from time to time? i know all the right answers but i just don't use them as i should. anyway, i was wondering for the ppl that fit into this mold how to you go about using heroin now?
what i do now is i'll stop using the suboxone as early as possible before i use again, mostly i try to stop around 24 hours before i use heroin. this time i bought close to 20 bags. knowing that i have to wait to take the subx until i start to feel WD i try to time it out. i figure instead of using 2 bags spread out over several hours, i'll use 4 bags in half the time. so basically i made the bundle last for 3 days. yesterday being the middle day i used the most.
my thinking is i would rather use a lot of my dope now than to try and make it last over a few days. this way i don't have to worry about increasing my heroin habit any more than it is. i don't have to maintain either because i have the subx to come down off of. and i also plan it out that my last bag will be used later this afternoon, i'll be fine all night then tomorrow i will be able to dose with suboxone.
so does anyone think it makes sense to use large amounts over a smaller time frame, or take smaller amounts spread out over several days? for me i think it's better to just use what i have as quick as possible then at least i know i won't develop a stronger habit for the heroin. plus i feel better when using suboxone. like for instance right now, it's hard to write a understandable topic while nodding off onto my desk.