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Hi everyone.
Since September I have made the mistake in overdoing it with meth. I live with my friend in an apartment and I basically binged for 2 days. I got into a crazy paranoid state, hearing voices, thinking everyone in the apartment knew what I did, and they were out to get me and ruin my life. This happened twice. Yes, I didn't learn my lesson the first time. The thing is, after the 2nd time, it feels like I really haven't "come back" or "recovered." Smoking weed when I'm at the apartment fucks my head up real good. I get paranoid and high levels of anxiety - even off of less than 0.1g. However, this only happens here. When I'm at home and I smoke weed, everything is fine. Also, even when I'm not stoned, if I'm coming back from my parents house to stay at the apartment, the closer I get to it, the more tense, anxious, and paranoid I become. It really takes a toll on me. It gets so bad that even going out on the balcony to smoke a cigarette is hard. I feel like I'm constantly being watched or talked about. And I'm just waiting for something bad to happen.
I was wondering if anyone experienced with something like this could give any advice. I'm starting to think that I have like, "environment related problems," with the environment being my apartment - since that is where I've freaked out twice. Has this happened to anyone else? What measures did you take to overcome it? I also have an anxiety disorder, which definitely doesn't help the problem. But even when I'm on my clonazepam, the feeling doesn't go away once I get close in proximity to my apartment. I don't know how I can live like this for the remainder of the school year.
I've washed my hands with speed. So I'm not touching it again.
Any advice is appreciated.
Thank you
Since September I have made the mistake in overdoing it with meth. I live with my friend in an apartment and I basically binged for 2 days. I got into a crazy paranoid state, hearing voices, thinking everyone in the apartment knew what I did, and they were out to get me and ruin my life. This happened twice. Yes, I didn't learn my lesson the first time. The thing is, after the 2nd time, it feels like I really haven't "come back" or "recovered." Smoking weed when I'm at the apartment fucks my head up real good. I get paranoid and high levels of anxiety - even off of less than 0.1g. However, this only happens here. When I'm at home and I smoke weed, everything is fine. Also, even when I'm not stoned, if I'm coming back from my parents house to stay at the apartment, the closer I get to it, the more tense, anxious, and paranoid I become. It really takes a toll on me. It gets so bad that even going out on the balcony to smoke a cigarette is hard. I feel like I'm constantly being watched or talked about. And I'm just waiting for something bad to happen.
I was wondering if anyone experienced with something like this could give any advice. I'm starting to think that I have like, "environment related problems," with the environment being my apartment - since that is where I've freaked out twice. Has this happened to anyone else? What measures did you take to overcome it? I also have an anxiety disorder, which definitely doesn't help the problem. But even when I'm on my clonazepam, the feeling doesn't go away once I get close in proximity to my apartment. I don't know how I can live like this for the remainder of the school year.
I've washed my hands with speed. So I'm not touching it again.
Any advice is appreciated.
Thank you