Drugs fucked up my life. I was in the same situation as you were...started off with abusing lots of ecstasy that led to many other drugs. Pretty soon I was using different types of drugs all the time, sometimes mixed together. Once you start going, you can keep on going. You're body becomes meaningless and you use it to your full extent. It completely changed my view on life and mentality. The dark side is something you want to avoid. It will affect your life drastically and make you want to cringe. I'm trying so hard to be the person I was before drugs, but it's extremely difficult. I had so much on my mind to realize all this craziness and when I did...I was deeply appalled. Here I am, living with mental altercations and wishing I had that feeling of who I was before all this. My judgment is horrible and I base everything off of emotions not logic like I'm suppose to. Man sure it was fun times but the consequences far outweigh the benefits. I've felt sick in the head for a while now. It gets really frustrating at times but I always try to think positive. It sucks not using yourself to the fullest capability. I could have definitely handled situations more appropriately that would have benefited me to this day. If there's a light at the end of the tunnel I hope I reach it, and sometime soon. I've been off drugs for some time now and feel that life isn't as miserable as it use to be. I just don't ever wanna go back to that dark side in my mind ever again. It's a scary place.