um yeah my mom is fucked up, fucked up in the head, fucked up as a parent, i despise her. she was either high tonight or had a mental breakdown. she knew i was out smoking pot and when i got home i was really in a good mood and i came to say goodnight to her in bed. i laid with her for a minute and then she said she was itchy 'down there' as she scratched through the sheets. i said she might have gotten something from her b4. she proceeded to 'itch' herself for the next five minutes while i told her about a girl i just fell for. she was getting off to the story i was fucking telling her and it eventually got smelly in there and i had to get away and she asked me to stay. i told her i was grossed out and uncomfortable and she said to give her a kiss and i told i was gonna be sick, closing her door behind me. she seemed genuinely concerned about the issue with the girl and what i was asking her but she was touching herself that whole time. i decided not to address/think about this til just b4 i sleep. i cant fucking believe her, i really thought i was just being paranoid and i had finally opened up to her, giving her a little bit of trust after all she's done to me and she has the nerve to do that? is it unnatural for my to jack off in the privacy of my own room when im 18 and live with my family(i think this is what triggered her from doing that in the past and how she tries to catch me and shit... i feel sick in the head now)? i feel very uncomfortable. i didnt really get sick - yet - but i, idk, i just decided i wanna take a girl out that i had a connection with but now i dont know if my mind will be stable enough in the coming weeks. i need a psychologist asap. i wanna cry but i cant, idk what to feel. im just... outraged. idk what to do. a psychologist prolly wont see me for a month, idk if i should even call this girl that i really like alot anymore. FUCKK FUCKKKK FML FUCK IT. everything was looking up in my life. maybe i should move out and live out of my car. really dont care about schooling anymore.
I'll tell you this if anybody walked by me in their underwear or nude when I was young I'd probably look. I think I've seen everybody in my immediate family ( and a few in my extended family) naked at one time or another. I probably looked at their private parts if they were on display. I saw my Moms Vag and breasts, I wasn't traumatized by it. When I saw a cock, boobs or a vag I looked. If my brother was masterbating in the next room I'd open the door just to interrupt him and ruin his good time. I herd my parents have sex and listened on purpose out of curiosity. Sometimes I saw them nude if A bathroom door was unlocked and I didn't know they were in there or it was morning time and we weren't fully dressed. I hadn't seen a lot of private parts nor was I knowledgeable about sex. I think I was interested about what other people had and what they were doing. We never had sex. I didn't think they wanted sex with me nor was I turned on by them. I don't think it's that abnormal to see a family members private parts take a look at what they're working with and move on, especially if your experience and exposure to nudity and sex is limited or nonexistent. I'd have to say that if someone I wasn't attracted too walked in the room I'm in right now that was nude or semi nude my gaze would probably fall on their genitals first. From the first part of your story I would not draw the conclusion that they want to have sex with me. Same goes for a single incident where a hand was close to a private area. It could have been a mistake or she wasn't really even thinking about it. Maybe Mom was just itchy.
The second story leaves me with some questions though.
1. Why would you lie in a bed for 5 minutes with your mom while she is masterbating. Especially if you think she wants to have sex with you.
2. You describe your sister as fat and ugly and your mom as smelly. Do you have issues with women in general? I mean you sound pretty unsympathetic to your sister being raped. That would make most guys pretty upset.
3. If your sister was thin and pretty and your mom smelled nice would you feel differently about the whole situation?
4. Do you ever consider giving in to what you think they want from you?
I could be wrong here. I mean I only have this little Blurb on a message board to go by, but I have 2 guesses to whats going on here.
1. Your joking and none of this stuff is happening.Your just having a laugh.
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2. It's your fantasy to have sex with Mom and sis, they just aren't attractive enough for you and it snaps you out of the fantasy and back to reality. Which isn't abnormal. There's lots of porn out there that sells this fantasy and makes it seem easily attainable with out repercussions.
I guess you could be right too, but I doubt it. Anyway it's a good thread.
