So I have no choice but to taper the heroin since I already tried to cold turkey it 3 days ago and it was just too intense but I noticed that I can handle about 20 hours after a dose and going into some withdrawal usually pretty bad by the 24th hour (already vomitting, couldn't stop shaking my whole body cause of restless legs/arms, and the depression was insane, couldn't put a single thing of food down my throat so I couldn't even get the relief of some food to make me feel a little better, cold turkeyed before with no problem in the past since I could at least get the pills down to help me feel better (5-htp, b-vitamins, etc) but now I just throw everything up fast cause the nausea is so strong).
Anyway, the point is, I used a dose yesterday of 3 bags injected (down from 5 bags and 3 bags got me a decent high for about 8 hours since I already went through 2 3/4th days of withdrawal which seemed to get my tolerance down quite a bit)....anyway yesterday 3 bags injected at 5:30 pm....waited til today at 6:50 pm to take 2 bags since I am tapering...went through quite a bit of withdrawal until 6:50 pm but I managed to suck it up since at least I could look forward to the relief of a shot of 2 bags...once again the withdrawal even though relatively short (24 hours approximately) has been enough to make 2 bags feel pretty ok. So I'm going to go through another 24 hours til my next shot making myself go through a bit of withdrawal then take another 2 bag shot, then by Sunday, I should be down to 1 shot and Monday being my final day down to 1/2 shot.
So my plan is shoot up go through about 18-24 hours of no shot (so experience some withdrawal which is usually very noticeable) then shoot up a little less then another withdrawal phase since so far I am quite capable of sucking up a little withdrawal and shooting up since Monday is my ultimatum...my final shot and it's for sure since my family already knows about this. My father is ok with this taper method since he already saw how horrible I was going through withdrawal already a few times up til now. But each time seems to be a bit less of misery and a smaller amount of heroin. But at that point, I'll be going off to a cousin's place that is totally out of state to stay for 5 days...can't get any dope there absolutely no dope in that area, it's a small town and I know no one.
Anyway considering my plan, has anyone tried something similar? When I finally do get to the total cold turkey on Monday do you think my withdrawal will be significantly reduced? Basically the game plan is once again, let myself experience withdrawal for about 20-24 hours, use a shot that is less, then another withdrawal phase, shoot up even less...until I get to Monday. Since I am allowing my body to withdraw and I'm taking less heroin, I figure since I am allowing withdrawal and my doses are getting smaller (and my tolerance seems to be going down as a result) I'm hoping that withdrawal when I'm at monday will be significantly lowered. What's everyone's opinion? I don't want ot hear any of that, oh you can't do this, no one can taper heroin since I already have for a few days and I'm being monitored AND I really do want to quit on Monday for good...I've been planning this for too long to fuck up esp. since I have to go back to school the following week post final cold turkey withdrawal. If anyone has tried something similar....please let me know I would like to know if anyone has reduced withdrawal quite a bit by experiencing withdrawal between constantly reduced heroin intake. I think it sounds like a good plan for now since originally my daily IV intake was about 4-6 bags per day and sometimes some Poppy pods on the side. I know if I cold turkeyed from that amount (which I already did) the withdrawal is too insane and I vomit way too much. I'm down to 2 bags per day this day being my 2 bag intake so I know I can do this. Please opinions and experiences welcome. I need to know if this will make a significant difference since I can't take this life of heroin use anymore. I have to stop.