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    now, i'm not by any means gay.
    I'm straight, and have recently got out of a year and a half relationship
    with a beautifal girl, and i think it's safe to say i kinda fell in love with her.

    well anyways, i live in tampa and i'm going to a community college atm, but
    i have quite a few friends that go to USF.
    I was at a frat party last night, trying to get out of the house and
    forget about the good relationship i had that recently ended.
    I'd been deppressed all week.
    Anyways, my friend ryan hits me up, i go to the frat party, everyones chillin,
    gettin drunk. there's plenty of hot ass girls around, but in my state of mind
    being all depressed i just felt lowly and i couldn't bring myself to talk to any of them at all.

    So i was shitty drunk, i pretty much killed a bottle of crown to myself,
    and helped myself to the keg a few times.
    it's around 1:15 and i'm stumbling around in a deppressed, drunken stupor,
    trying to find a bathroom to puke in.
    I go upstairs, and there's noone upstairs cause everyones downstairs partying.

    I'm depressed, wasted, and stumbling into walls and busting threw doors tring to find the bathroom. after like the third door it comes to the point
    where i cant hold it anymore, i throw open a door, see a trashcan and just spew all my puke into it. at this point i had no idea of my present surroundings, as my head was burried in the trashcan.
    when i lifted my head up i realized i was in a bedroom, and there were 3 guys
    sitting in a circle on the floor, just staring at me.

    I had no idea who they were, but they looked all bro'd out, you know in their abercrombie apparrell.
    the first thing i said to them was "my bad".
    They just kept staring at me, and i felt a little embarressed for doing that.
    I then notice that the three guys were doing lines, i see a mirror in the middle of them with some powdery white residue on it.

    "No problem dude, at least you got it in the can", says one of the guys, sporting a blowout.
    I asked them if i could do a line or two, and the were actually very nice and friendly and said "hell yea!" (they were acting skeeted as fuck)

    so one of the guys, looked really young, cut me up a line and offered me his $20 straw to snort it, i gladly took it and snorted the line.

    I ended up staying up there for a few minutes chilling with them, i did a few more lines and we were all just talking about college classes and shitty professors and stuff, they seemed pretty cool from what i could remember ( remember, im completely trashed right now)

    After the 3rd line i mooched off these dudes i was feeling great, a lot more confident and i felt like going downstairs and chatting it up with some girls.
    "Hey guys ill be right back, i'm going to go drop a duce in the toilet", i told them (of course i was lieing, i wanted to go downstairs and escape before they asked me for money for the lines.)

    "aight bro we'll be chillen here when you get back," says the guy with the blow-out.

    This is when shit gets weird, and i really don't remember much from here.
    So i stand up, and get a crazy ass headrush, like when you loose your vision, when your vision goes black and your head feels fuzzy.

    Now, i'm not sure what the fuck happened after i stood up and got the head rush, i'm not sure if i blacked out and passed out or what, but the next thing i know i'm sitting on a bean bag, my dick is fucking out, and the guy with the blow-out is sucking it and no body else is in the room. I kinda snapped back into reality, pulled my dick out, and stood up real quick.
    "I'm gonna puke!" i said to him as an excuse, and i ran out the door, downstairs, i told my homie ryan i had to peace, it was urgent.

    Without any more delay, i hopped into my car and drove home, feeling like fuckin shit for what just happened.
    What i've told you guys is to the best of my remembrance, and i don't remember a lot from last night.

    So far I haven't told a soul about what happened, and i'm afraid to go party with my USF friends again because i don't want to run into those guys again.
    Now i feel so weird, like complete shit. I don't remember much of what the guys looked like, even the one with the blowout, and i don't think i'd recognize them if we were standing right next to each other which scares me the most.
     

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    Damn.
    That's messed up. Kinnda violated you.
    I would have kicked someones ass.
     

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    I feel sorry for you, you pretty much got raped...really sorry man that is some fucked up shit they did.
     

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    If you tell the story as it happened, then you were violated. It must be an awful feeling and you should consider talking to someone in order to be able to move on from this and gain some perspective.

    If there are parts of the story regarding your involvement that you can recall but have chosen to leave out for what ever reason, then that isn't healthy either. Either way you have done nothing to be ashamed of, but this could be tough to deal with on your own. Consider contacting a relevant helpline to talk openly and honestly, and to help you see a way forward.
     

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    i told it how i remembered it. i mean i had no idea that that dude was that way at all.
    i mean he probobly coulda been flamboyantly gay and i just couldnt tell cause i was so fucked up.
    the shitty thing is i cant go to anymore USF parties cause they might see me, and i probobly wouldn't recognize them
     

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    :/ Yeah, that's a really shitty experience to have. I can't even begin to imagine how... vulnerable/dirty I would feel after that.
     

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    That sounds pretty messed up, is there anyone you can find out what happened from?

    Oh yeah, in future you shouldn't drive under the influence, especially when you have just come to fucked out of your brain in a situation you have no idea how you go in
     

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    ya i know i planned on staying at ryans dorm and i never usually drive intoxicated but i had to just like run away, i had the worst feeling of horror imaginable
     

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    i woulda taken my cock back and replaced it with a foot and some fists

    if youre really not omitting anything... then youre not gay and not your fault chill, you got violated. much better right... just try not to think about it. stay away from secluded areas with coke heads when youre wasted at parties. be smart.

    try to turn your horror and sadness and whatever other bad feeling into something else. i would turn it into anger, go to those parties a lot and fuck his shit up if you see him. but a smart person would say talk about it to someone trusted or a therapist, and just go about your normal life and dont let it burden you
     

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    did you finish?

    kidding. sounds like you need to control your intake to avoid this sort of thing from happening again.

    if you cant recognise these people or recall what they looked like, you cant do much but forget about the whole thing unfortunately.

    if you didnt get the impression he was gay in anyway, maybe he didnt get the impression from you that you werent interested; nor that you were straight for that matter. you were all high.
     

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    Dude who cares. Atleast he wasnt fucking you in the ass when you came-too. You got a blowjob, not even a whole one, for free.. well not even for free, for DRUGS.

    I would be kinda eeked out but i wouldnt really care that much. just forget about it. shit happens.
     

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    sounds to me like he kept feeding you coke, got you talking about personal stuff, more coke, more talk about girls, got you horney depressed and simulated... then probably sexual specifics came up, and what sex and being gay is, convinced you that gay isn't all about sex(which i dont believe is the case)... but cocaine sure can be, and you probably decided this would be easier then becoming involved with one of the girls down stairs, doubtful they'd be going down on you that quick that drunk hehe, soooo you went for the easier route.

    id bet this guy has done this, several times, i doubt he would be telling people. those other "bro's" may not know hes gay,,, or he may of done the same to them, and they are all thinking the same thing you are.

    i would not say this makes you homosexual, but, be careful. this is half funny, being in that state making such rash unordinary decisions, is scary, you left your self vulnerable to more serious situations, at any stretch of the imagination.

    and busting a nut isn't the worst that could happen, you have your money, car?, no stitches, no cops, you arent in a hospital or jail, and you didn't hurt anyone.

    its all good.
    Last edited by panic in paradise; 15-07-2010 at 12:24. Reason: "busting a but", was meant to read "busting a nut"...
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by oswald1963 View Post
    Let me get this straight.

    You went into what was mabey one of these guys rooms and puked in their garbage, snorted their coke, AND got a blowjob? Am I the only one who thinks that would be an alright night? I mean you did snort his drugs at least they didnt trap you in the room and make you pay for it with your body...well I guess you did but in the other way. You ever been to france boy? HAHAHAHAHAHA jk jk

    There are many things worse than getting your dick sucked by a pretty boy
    Hahaha I have to somewhat agree with this guy, is a sarcastic sense.

    First you puked all over this guys room, then get free coke, and then end up getting free head on top of all that? Sounds like one nice motherfucker 'n one hell of a deal!! lol

    All jokes aside though, it could of been much worse. At least you didn't wake up with him riding your dick. Then you'd have to be worried about STD's 'n all that fun stuff.

    Like panic in paradise said, it's possible you were so fucked up you started telling this guy your life story and how depressed you were with girls, so he was nice enough and decided to cheer you up by doing that, and then when you started to come down that's when you suddenly snapped out it. But who knows?

    That's why honestly, in my opinion, you should go back and try to find out exaclty what happened that night. Wouldn't you rather know the truth instead of wondering about it the rest of your life?
     

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    i've removed some posts. SLR is a serious forum, posting solely to poke fun or make jokes is not appropriate.
     

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    Dude that is straight fucked up. You should press charges against that frat or something cause that is definitely not normal and certainly not legal.
     

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    I'm very tempted to say, "It's just half-a-blowjob, get over it", but I don't want it misconstrued as an attack...
     

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    Besides the obvious fact that your gaydar is broken, you didn't get off too bad.

    I am truly sorry though, events such as this would deeply upset me.
     

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    Yes, but it wasn't just half a blow job was it? Regardless of the gender or sexual orientation of the people involved. Would you say to a girl who had been taken advantage of while drunk by a guy 'it was just a fingering, get over it?'. And do you think it would make her feel better? Trust me, it wouldn't.
    And OP - don't let this stop you going out & socialising. This is even more reason to get out there. If you don't deal with this asap it has the potential to manifest into an even bigger psychological problem, and then you'll be a victim twice over.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by badandwicked View Post
    Would you say to a girl who had been taken advantage of while drunk by a guy 'it was just a fingering, get over it?'.
    I probably would, given the guy's well meaning. The point was made above that these people were more than nice and hospitable. It is very likely that the guy giving the blowjob actually believed that the OP was both gay AND consenting, giving the amicable atmosphere and the fact that the OP didn't catch on the gaiety from the get-go and left. OP claims to have blacked out. Something doesn't add up.

    A blowjob is very innocent IMO. If I woke up after a party and found one of my (female) party-mates sucking me off, I might flinch a bit but I wouldn't get upset about it.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by Jamshyd View Post
    I probably would, given the guy's well meaning. The point was made above that these people were more than nice and hospitable. It is very likely that the guy giving the blowjob actually believed that the OP was both gay AND consenting, giving the amicable atmosphere and the fact that the OP didn't catch on the gaiety from the get-go and left. OP claims to have blacked out. Something doesn't add up.

    A blowjob is very innocent IMO. If I woke up after a party and found one of my (female) party-mates sucking me off, I might flinch a bit but I wouldn't get upset about it.
    Amen to that.
     

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    The only judge of how serious of an incident this was, is the OP. It's his experience, and if he felt assaulted, it was sexual assault, same way it'd be if a woman was the victim of inappropriate touching at a party. And that's just not OK.

    Sadly, there are few people out there who would take him seriously if he responded to this in any way, so he's probably just going to have to deal.
     

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    im from the tampa area originally, and the usf campus is pretty large. i doubt if you went back you'd ever see the guy. so like a previous poster said dont let the incident ruin your social life. and if you did see the guy, maybe something would click and you would be able to confront him about what happened.

    when you get that fucked up, especially in public, shit happens. you can just count on it. i am in no way saying "you got what you deserved being in the state you were in," because NO ONE deserves something like what you experienced. i know you were hurting about your breakup, and i can understand whole-heartedly that you just wanted to forget the whole thing, but predators look for these types of victims. you were raped, and for that fact, my heart goes out to you. now you know what a chick feels like when this happens to them. i think it may actually be a little worse for you, since this was male on male, and you are clearly not gay.

    i am so, so, sorry man. i wish there was something i could say that would magically make you feel all better, but there isnt. however, time does heal all wounds, and eventually this will be a distant memory. keep your head up, dear.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by tiffacult View Post
    you were raped
    I think that's a bit of an overstatement. Looking up the standard definition of 'rape,' it just doesnt' really match with his situation.
     

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    Quote Originally Posted by Pans-Advocate View Post
    The only judge of how serious of an incident this was, is the OP. It's his experience, and if he felt assaulted, it was sexual assault, same way it'd be if a woman was the victim of inappropriate touching at a party. And that's just not OK.

    Sadly, there are few people out there who would take him seriously if he responded to this in any way, so he's probably just going to have to deal.
    See, that's nice and dandy, but how many people are now behind bars because someone decided to "feel" raped? If this issue did not entail the destruction of another life via the legal system, I wouldn't care too much. But this is not the case, especially with people here going plain out telling the OP that he was "raped."

    That's not just a feeling, that's a potentially devastating weapon.
     

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    rape – noun
    1. the unlawful compelling of a woman through physical force or duress to have sexual intercourse.
    2. any act of sexual intercourse that is forced upon a person.

    now, sure, you could say he wasnt "forced", but given the state he says he was in, he surely wasnt able to consent to said sexual contact. last time i checked, when a chick isnt able to clearly consent to sexual contact, its considered rape. what makes this any different, the fact that the OP has a cock?

    im sure the person who initiated the contact didnt see it or mean it as such, but if the OP was a girl, in the eyes of the law, this is how it would have been classified.

    i stand by my previous statement. flame me all you want.
     

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