An American Love Affair: Drugs and Success
First off, wow, what a great thread.
Anyway, looking at my past it's funny to me to see how much it seems I've sort of 'gone up the ladder' as it were. It all began at around 13-14 with drinking. I was a young punk-rocker and skateboarder and my group of friends and I were friends with this group that was like 18-20. Some of them had a punk band and so did some of us, so we would play shows and go party afterwards with all of our friends. Man, those were great times.
I entered 9th grade with a new attitude about myself and life, realizing that trying to be too rebelious becomes a type of conformity it seemed, but thats neither here nor there. I wound up smoking weed for the first time a little bit into ninth grade and began to love it. I'd jet home from school and smoke and just chill and listen to music.
This went on for a while, just chilling and partying, drinking and smoking. Through this time though I still didn't smoke or want to smoke cigarettes. Anyway, next came ecstasy, and wow, was that a change of pace. One of my close friends tried it and could not stop talking about it. He convinced me to try it and I was blown away. Before long I had a new ritual. My friend was selling E and it was always great quality, always the same price. Each week, I'd get my paycheck on Friday, get a pill, get some weed and maybe some alcohol and chill (this was when I was 16).
This went on for that middle and latter part of the 10th grade. During that following summer came LSD and Mushrooms. I've never really enjoyed mushrooms as much as LSD, but I still found both to be such incerdible experiences. Acid truly showed me the truth about many things and I have had many great times on Acid.
So next came coke. I first tried coke during my 11th grade year and enjoyed it much, although I soon realized I didn't enjoy it as much as some of my friends. I dabbled in it here and there but the price and the comedown were a turnoff for me, it seemed the high just wasn't worth it, and when I tried crack sometime later, I decided this even more so. I now only enjoy either at all when in combination with opiates, which were soon to come...
I have to slide xanax in here because they came sometime during my junior year. I soon realized however, that with myself being an outgoing person as it is, when I drink and party on xanax, I became a madman. Now, not in a bad way necessarily, but I just lost any and all inhibitions. This resulted in me often stealing (albeit, usually successfully)or driving while heavily intoxicated or spending all my money on food or drugs or both. Also, Adderall made its first apperance during my junior year. I loved adderall because I've always been intelligent but I'm also pretty lazy, and I found adderall gave me the motivation I was looking for. Some of my friends would take it in high doses to 'abuse' it but I never liked it in really high amounts, 30mg was fine for me. Take some before school and have a very productive day or before work and fly through it.
Then came opiates. I don't remember my first experience, probably somewhere during my junior year. I remember finding some Tussionex in my friend's fridge, downing what remained and feeling great. I also liked to get Vicodins when I could. Then one day my friend (actually the same friend who introduced me to E) obtained a 40mg OxyContin. I was nervous at first, but he said to me, "Why? You're always wanting to get syrup or vicodins. This is like that only better." I crushed up and ate 10mg and before I had allowed it to kick in, I ate another 10 mg. Wow... I felt amazing, then I puked, and felt even better. I sat on my friend's couch and couldn't move. He said to me, "How do you feel? You look like you're gonna fall asleep." I said to him simply, "I couldn't fall asleep if I tried." And thus began my love affair with opiates. We could usually find Oxy's and would get them. Also we would get Percs, Methadones, Morphine, Vikes. I feel as though there have been two major steps during my journey with opiates. The first happened when my same friend obtained an amazing connection for xanax and opiates, for cheap too. Oh, happy days... This went on for some time until the connect got cut off, which actually lead my friend to seek rehab for his xanax and opiate dependency. The next came, when I was introduced to the needle. I said I'd never do it, blah blah. Yeah, there was also a time when I said 'I'll never smoke weed'. For this reason, I say to people to 'never say never', because you just don't know. Besides the rush, it just seemed like the best to conserve what I had. Anyway, this lead to me first really enjoying heroin. I had never really enjoyed it much snorting it, Oxy just seemed much better for the price. And thus I entered the world of H. This still wasn't even that good until we obtained a good H source, but we did and here I am.
Nowadays I stick mostly to opiates, adderall, weed, and alcohol(of course). I dabble in xanax occasionally, LSD in the right situation, I'd love to find good E but it seems that it's just never good quality anymore, Mushrooms are not out of the question but very rare for me, and cocaine is rare also, maybe on a special occasion. I'm open to new things, like I just tried 2c-i the other day, and I've still never tried meth, although I'm quite interested. I've also tried a whole assortment of other Rx drugs like other benzos, stimulents, muscle relaxers, and things like whippets and cough syrup. I started smoking cigarettes a little while after I got into Oxy because I loved smoking on opiates and it just developed from there. I recently managed to get myself prescribed to adderall to help me with school, which was awesome. I don't think I have ADD really, I'm just lazy and I know it, and so the adderall helps a lot. I have no regrets with my drug history. This is mostly because, although I've worried my parents a little bit, I haven't done any real harm to my family or my friends. I currently enjoy a very healthy relationship with my family and I have a close group of friends that I love. I had lots of friends in high school and had a blast. I am presently a student at a prominent university and doing well. The reason I say all this is just to help show that, as I'm sure you all know, you don't have to have 'problems' to do drugs. I enjoy being and want to further be an example that you can enjoy drugs and be a contributing member of society. Anyway, that's my love affair with drugs in a nutshell. Peace.
I should add, however, that I am well aware of opiates and the power they posess. I would urge anyone to be very careful and think and research before indulging in any of things listed here. I've always been utterly fascinated with drugs and their effects on the mind, and thus always been somewhat well informed. I also would be lying if I said I've been careful. There is a very dark and sinister side to drugs if you aren't careful, and read some stuff in 'The Dark Side' forum if you think I'm lying. Anyway, just had to put a little warning, would have felt irresponsible if I didn't.