No not really - they actually dont mind the idea of having aids /hiv etc - some see it as its going to happen anyway others 'like' the stigma thats attatched. Others think that with the new drugs going around for treatment then its not that big a deal :0.
Some guys just dont understand the risks associated with unprotected sex and think that it wont happen to them.
(Im not bashing anyone in my posts either before people start saying Im hating etc).
Yeah it's true.
I've met people who are like this and in some cases they don't care if they get HIV or get multiple strains of HIV, or STDs since they figure that it's going to happen anyway and they're deluded and think that the meds are totally free of side effects. I read one post on a message board populated by mostly gay men where someone thought that they were like taking a multi-vitamin, or on TheBody.com one woman wrote about how the meds were horrible and how she thinks you can supposedly make HIV into nothing but a minor cold with herbs.
If you are HIV+ or have AIDS and go on meds they can help you but you have to keep taking them and the meds have to keep working for you, and they are not free from side effects some of which are not fun.
A lot of men who like to PNP or party and play on crystal meth and other drugs wind up becoming poz.
I've met some bug chasers online and they told me how in some cases they wanted to become poz because their partner has HIV or all of their friends do and in some cases they actually wanted their HIV+ partner to give it to them and their reasoning was that they wanted to share everything and they'd be forever linked by the virus or some nonsense.
While having HIV/AIDS is linked to bisexual and gay men in the Western world if you look at the number of people worldwide who have HIV/AIDS most of them are heterosexual.
Some want to get HIV because then they'll get benefits such as housing, sympathy from others, and in some cases totally free meds which are very expensive.
I've seen sites where people actually want to give/get Hep C which is totally fucked up too.
BTW I'm not into bug chasing or anything like that but I have had men who are into it want to date or hook up with me and I found those bug chasing sites they were on by doing a search for their name on yahoo and those sites came up.
There's nothing wrong with dating or having sex with someone that's poz or has an STD. Just be safe about it and I know that lots of men think that if they become poz or if they are already poz that it somehow gives them freedom to bareback but that's not true since even if you're poz you can get reinfected or get other strains of the virus or get STDs that are not fun.
I'm not saying that bug chasers with death wishes are common but they are out there. You don't have to PNP on only meth to be at risk as even herb and booze can lower your inhibitions and make you do things sexually that you want to do as a fantasy like sex without condoms with people who you don't know that well or know their HIV status.
There are some anal sex bottoms that do crave cum up their ass and they do bareback out of the heat of the moment. Or sometimes people just slip up with safer sex and using condoms.
A friend of mine gave raw anal sex to a guy he met online and he put a condom on and the guy took it off but the guy he gave anal sex to did test negative at the time but that does not always mean that the person really doesn't have HIV as it can take up to 6 months to show up in tests and some people don't produce antibodies at all yet have HIV/AIDS. Fortunately my friend didn't wind up getting anything.
There are also men who are the giver/active/"top" partner for anal sex that will take off a condom during anal sex.
Then there's the whole "taboo" factor of bareback sex or how after decades of being told to always have anal sex with condoms and to never bareback some men want to have bareback sex since they think that it's not as risky now or that because it's not the early/mid 80s and people aren't dying of AIDS that it's somehow OK to bareback with random people. Or some think that using condoms puts a huge limit or barrier between them and their sex partners and do not want these at all.
I can understand someone fantasizing about condomless sex without barriers or inhibitions in a fantasy but if I were ever going to do bareback sex with a man or even a woman I'd only do it after we'd had a multiple battery of tests for HIV/STDs and had been very monogamous and had a fidelity based relationship for years.
I'm not even that into anal sex and I don't even like to give oral sex to people who I'm not in a relationship with.
I believe the OP but I have friends that are manic/bipolar and wind up going on sex sprees either sober or while on meth/crack.
OP I know you've had it pounded (no pun) into your head but unless you want to wind up poz you need to stop barebacking since this isn't the 70s/80s. Use condoms and lube or bring them with you and make sure that the men you have sex with are using them and if you are on meds for being bipolar/manic make sure you take those so you don't go manic and then do very dangerous and self destructive things.
If you have tried meds and they don't work or haven't found ones that do work for you, see a good shrink.
You claim that you're not Poz/HIV+ but if you continue to bareback and be self destructive you will become poz.