alphabetalactone
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I would just like to point out that I was extremely stupid with this drug and I hope this is a warning to those who are planning to use this chemical known as desoxypipradrol.
Over the course of a night I consumed upwards of 300mg of this stuff. After the first line of 30mg I was already gone in the head.
I experienced full blown dellusions and hallucinations that people were out to get me. I could see knives in the shadows coming closer and closer, peoples heads staring at me through the (closed) curtains.
I thought I could hear my flat mate conspiring with others to come into my room and kill me, I got to near suicide, I thought if I could "pretend" to kill myself they would leave me alone.
I proceeded to do line after line of desoxy, hoping that it would knock me out (I know a completly stupid idea - had no control over what I was doing though) I pretended to drink a whole bottle of 1,4 BD and just lay on my bed completly still for 10 minutes, until I felt a knife going up to my throat which caused me to nearly jump out of my skin.
The sheer horror of the situation was too much for me to bare. Later on in the night I thought the police/armed forces were out to get me.
I could see around 10 of them in my room in full riot gear shooting me with tranq darts, after maybe half an hourr of this I was begging them to use something stronger to knock me out. They agreed to use nerve gas on me, I could see the spray right in front of my face, I could feel it slowly taking affect and this went on for what seemed like forever, when out of nowhere my flat mate was standing over me wondering who I was talking to.
(back to reality)
All of a sudden all the hallucinations stopped, though I wouldnt believe him that he wasn't in my room to take me outside to be arrested. He left for work after a while and I was left to my own devices.
Although I was majorly tweaked and paranoid, I didn't see anything nor hear anything. I don't know how or why but the desoxy would hit me in waves at night time.
The second night I had a friend over, and we didn't do any drugs (in the day I had flushed the remains of the desoxy) although the hallucinations came back this time seeing images of old people having sex behind my friends back?!
He would tell me, he thought I had completly lost it as I could conjur up any image and see it (why it was mainly the aged having sex, im not to sure lol)
He left at 6 in the morning and the full blown paranoia came back, I hid under my sheets for around 2 hours, popping out when I could feel people grabbing me.
After a while my I thought my phone was ringing, and that it had been wire tapped. I was instructed by a cop to go outside and wait at the bus stop for further instructions.
When I got there, they told me to take off my jacket and go into a driveway nearby (there was an abandoned house near the bus stop) with my hand behind my back I was handcuffed and injected with a sedative/ local anasthetic and they proceeded to take blood, syringe my ear, give me a stomach pump and give me an enema. All of which I felt in pure agony, lying face down in a puddle for which must of been for around 5 hours.
I'm not sure if I passed out or had a seizure but next thing I knew I was sitting up in this puddle dazed and confused. I ended up walking in and out of my house for a while until armed police pulled outside and were instructing me to lie on the floor.
I couldnt hear exactly what they were instructing me to do and I could tell from the tone of voice they were getting very pissed off at me for not co-operating and were going to shoot him in the head if I didn't follow their instructions. In the end I layed spread eagle on the floor and started crying until I came back to reality once more surrounded by neighbours and ambulance workers.
I instantly felt tweaked again, even though it had been a long time since I had taken any drugs. The next two days were filled with more hallucinations, which even a strong course of benzo's didn't cure.
Those were truly the darkest days of my life so far, needless to say my researching of this chemical are over as careless use turns you insane.
Over the course of a night I consumed upwards of 300mg of this stuff. After the first line of 30mg I was already gone in the head.
I experienced full blown dellusions and hallucinations that people were out to get me. I could see knives in the shadows coming closer and closer, peoples heads staring at me through the (closed) curtains.
I thought I could hear my flat mate conspiring with others to come into my room and kill me, I got to near suicide, I thought if I could "pretend" to kill myself they would leave me alone.
I proceeded to do line after line of desoxy, hoping that it would knock me out (I know a completly stupid idea - had no control over what I was doing though) I pretended to drink a whole bottle of 1,4 BD and just lay on my bed completly still for 10 minutes, until I felt a knife going up to my throat which caused me to nearly jump out of my skin.
The sheer horror of the situation was too much for me to bare. Later on in the night I thought the police/armed forces were out to get me.
I could see around 10 of them in my room in full riot gear shooting me with tranq darts, after maybe half an hourr of this I was begging them to use something stronger to knock me out. They agreed to use nerve gas on me, I could see the spray right in front of my face, I could feel it slowly taking affect and this went on for what seemed like forever, when out of nowhere my flat mate was standing over me wondering who I was talking to.
(back to reality)
All of a sudden all the hallucinations stopped, though I wouldnt believe him that he wasn't in my room to take me outside to be arrested. He left for work after a while and I was left to my own devices.
Although I was majorly tweaked and paranoid, I didn't see anything nor hear anything. I don't know how or why but the desoxy would hit me in waves at night time.
The second night I had a friend over, and we didn't do any drugs (in the day I had flushed the remains of the desoxy) although the hallucinations came back this time seeing images of old people having sex behind my friends back?!
He would tell me, he thought I had completly lost it as I could conjur up any image and see it (why it was mainly the aged having sex, im not to sure lol)
He left at 6 in the morning and the full blown paranoia came back, I hid under my sheets for around 2 hours, popping out when I could feel people grabbing me.
After a while my I thought my phone was ringing, and that it had been wire tapped. I was instructed by a cop to go outside and wait at the bus stop for further instructions.
When I got there, they told me to take off my jacket and go into a driveway nearby (there was an abandoned house near the bus stop) with my hand behind my back I was handcuffed and injected with a sedative/ local anasthetic and they proceeded to take blood, syringe my ear, give me a stomach pump and give me an enema. All of which I felt in pure agony, lying face down in a puddle for which must of been for around 5 hours.
I'm not sure if I passed out or had a seizure but next thing I knew I was sitting up in this puddle dazed and confused. I ended up walking in and out of my house for a while until armed police pulled outside and were instructing me to lie on the floor.
I couldnt hear exactly what they were instructing me to do and I could tell from the tone of voice they were getting very pissed off at me for not co-operating and were going to shoot him in the head if I didn't follow their instructions. In the end I layed spread eagle on the floor and started crying until I came back to reality once more surrounded by neighbours and ambulance workers.
I instantly felt tweaked again, even though it had been a long time since I had taken any drugs. The next two days were filled with more hallucinations, which even a strong course of benzo's didn't cure.
Those were truly the darkest days of my life so far, needless to say my researching of this chemical are over as careless use turns you insane.
