It's a bit embarrassing to say so, but my most profound trip so far was when I was first making forays into using drugs. Two massive bottles of Robitussin.
I was feeling terribly sick wanting to throw up, but I knew that doing so always ruined my trip and kept me from reaching the 4th plateau. So, I forced myself to ignore it and I ended up falling asleep. When I awoke, my entire body was buzzing and I felt myself being lifted out of it and having an out of body experience. I remember floating up towards the ceiling and then the room disappeared and I was surrounded by stars. I felt like I was floating on the outer atmosphere of the Earth while gazing deep into space. At that point I completely lost everything about who I was and I felt opened up to the universe.
I just remember everything being washed away and my entire essence being opened up to this cosmic vastness that filled me with wonder, hope, and euphoria at the knowledge that everything was working according to a great design and that it was absolutely perfect.
Pyramedic is right though. It's hard to explain the unexplainable. When you completely lose your ego and are opened up to literally everything, it's just something words don't do justice.
DXM was the first drug to have me lose my ego also. I think I hit plateau sigma, but can't be for sure. I drank around 500 mg, then proceeded a few hours later to take another 700 or so. (I can't remember the mgs per bottle/gels) Oh man, at the time since I was new to everything it was so intense. It's hard to recall exactly what happened because it was so long ago, but I was completely dissociated. My friends said I just laid around the house for the most part. I remember traveling through the universe, not even knowing if *i* exist, there was no concept of *i*. Just experience, at least for the first part.
I blacked out for most of the experience though, or seems like that now. Had OOB's, traveled to 100's of different places, most defied logic, not that logic was even present. I can vaguely remember coming back to reality. My body felt so alien, it felt like I had been put in this body a couple years prior, and that this wasn't my actual body. (If i even had a body?) I remember the afterglow from that experience was insane, it was one of the last times I did dex, moved onto better shit...like acid. I don't know if you would consider this ego death with dxm, but at the time I did, not sure if I do now.
Later that year I found acid for the first time. The first batches were okay, but the ones coming in later on were amazing white tabs. New years was coming up, and I wanted to start a tradition of tripping either into the new year, or on the first day of the new year. This was really good acid (I found that out later!) , and I had decided I was going to eat 6 hit. My psychonaught buddy was coming home from a trip and we decided to drop before we left for the airport. My friend who didnt do drugs was driving, then my other friend had dropped 2 hits. I dropped 2 to start off the day before we left. I was going to be in the car for a majority of this trip.
Once we finally arrived at the airport, I had another 4 tabs in my pocket for me, and another 4 for my buddy. As we are trying to park, I say fuck it, I'm gonna eat my other 4, since I was still coming up. I expected it to be the weaker acid that had been going around...but it wasn't. I dropped the 4 tabs and only felt the tension caused by the come up. Within 10 minutes I was standing on top of a parking structure waiting for his flight to come in. Uh oh...those 2 are kicking in...hardcore....and i just ate another 4?!?!?! The entire sky opened, and it was insane to see all these airplanes flying in and out, make ripples in space.
This was only my 3rd or 4th time trippin on cid, and I had no idea what to expect from high dose, my whole world was shattered. My friend gets off his flight and as soon as i get in the car I hand him 3 tabs, and after that I was pretty much useless. These people who were with me in the car, I had known them for a couple of years and they were my best friend, I had no idea where they were from, or who they were. I had no clue who I was. As we are driving down the coastal highway through Venice, the experience keeps on getting more and more intense. I'm seeing whole buildings morph into the sky, and before I know it, i'm not even in the car anymore. I was drawn towards the most intense white light I've ever witnessed. I have no idea how long I stayed there for, but all I know is everything felt "right" and at peace. Almost how I would imagine heaven to feel if I was religious. I honestly can't remember what was going on in my head, but I came out such a stronger person after that trip. Before I tended to have low self-esteem and what not, but whatever I witnessed changed things for good. I had also had my first girlfriend and break up prior to this trip, and it really helped me iron things out. This was my best attempt to even attempt to describe the experience, tons of trips later and I still can't even put my finger on it.
sorry addied out