Manitoba
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jan 23, 2010
- Messages
- 4
I have taken it many times, twice experimenting with rolling more than once a month. I took it 15 years ago, I took it three years ago. I have taken stuff that everyone said was good and bad, and I have never really had a bad experience on it.
In fact, it makes me feel normal. I want to be clear, I have taken E about 40 times in 15 years, and only two times were less than a month apart. I have never had the come down that others seem to have and my warm, happy feelings seems to last for days (tapering off slowly and gently) although I react similarly to all of my friends with any of the other drugs that we have experimented with. With E, I just feel like I can actually like things, where normally I am irritable and intolerant. I don't want to be, I definitely don't think that it is cool, and I feel like shit all of the time because of my crabbiness and the inablility to enjoy things and other people. I also don't feel the need to be touched, or horny, or any of the other stereotypical reactions that I know some people (but definitely not all) have-I just feel nice, relaxed, and non-judgmental. Like the way that booze seems to affect some people.
Basically, I am just curious if anyone has any ideas what this might mean, in terms of brain chemistry. I know you guys aren't doctors, but I would never bring this up with a doctor, and there seems to be a lot of knowledge on this site.
For the record, I have tried many SSRIs, SNRIs, other antidepressants, 5HTP, and benzos and none of them really help, or they make things worse (Klonopin makes things a bit better), but have never tried Wellbutrin (or similar type drugs) or any meds for ADHD, which I think I might fit the profile for.
Any thoughts or theories would be appreciated. Also, I have not taken any drugs (even alcohol) for over two years, until this last month when I have been back on benzos (Xanax XR, 2mg 2x daily), which simply seems to take the edge off of my anger/temper. I have tried E with many combos of drugs, but most often it has been solo (or with a small amount of pot).
Thank you for reading, and thank you all for the great info on this site!
In fact, it makes me feel normal. I want to be clear, I have taken E about 40 times in 15 years, and only two times were less than a month apart. I have never had the come down that others seem to have and my warm, happy feelings seems to last for days (tapering off slowly and gently) although I react similarly to all of my friends with any of the other drugs that we have experimented with. With E, I just feel like I can actually like things, where normally I am irritable and intolerant. I don't want to be, I definitely don't think that it is cool, and I feel like shit all of the time because of my crabbiness and the inablility to enjoy things and other people. I also don't feel the need to be touched, or horny, or any of the other stereotypical reactions that I know some people (but definitely not all) have-I just feel nice, relaxed, and non-judgmental. Like the way that booze seems to affect some people.
Basically, I am just curious if anyone has any ideas what this might mean, in terms of brain chemistry. I know you guys aren't doctors, but I would never bring this up with a doctor, and there seems to be a lot of knowledge on this site.
For the record, I have tried many SSRIs, SNRIs, other antidepressants, 5HTP, and benzos and none of them really help, or they make things worse (Klonopin makes things a bit better), but have never tried Wellbutrin (or similar type drugs) or any meds for ADHD, which I think I might fit the profile for.
Any thoughts or theories would be appreciated. Also, I have not taken any drugs (even alcohol) for over two years, until this last month when I have been back on benzos (Xanax XR, 2mg 2x daily), which simply seems to take the edge off of my anger/temper. I have tried E with many combos of drugs, but most often it has been solo (or with a small amount of pot).
Thank you for reading, and thank you all for the great info on this site!