thats self destruct mode and just erradic abrupt behavior....they dont know what their doing. I know an older guy well say late late 30's and he uses sooo much. atleast for 7 years. hes still functioning and talks me out of a depressed stupor sometimes!I got very heavily into meth in the mid nineties. I did my first line and didn't really go to sleep for five years. But most people don't have an ounce in their pocket when they first try it, so not sure how much that means. I found making it more addictive than doing it, not saying I didn't do plenty. Of course back then you could get bottle of a thousand ephedrine no questions ask. Ended up getting busted for sales and eventually went to prison for a couple years. Last ten years it's been mostly a weekend thing, not saying there haven't been a few major binges. I know quite a few people who've fucked their lives up on it, and quite a few more who haven't. I don't think it really deserves it's reputation, most of the ones who got way out there on it were the same one (myself included) who also get out there on alcohol, opiates, whatever it is they have handy. Thing i don't really understand is why most of those people got worse and worse over time while I find myself using less and less as the years go by. Not just of meth, everything.
I see this is an old thread, but since you hit on a profound truth in your comment I must reply..I did meth once in my life (in three different injections). I first shot a small amount to see what would happen. Small being 45 mg or so. And it was ok but not what I was hoping for. Then I shot more (mabye 250 mg) and nearly overdosed. But I got an intense rush. The rush was complete with auditory and visual distortiona dn was akin to tripping on a dark eerie psychedelic for like 5 minutes. Then I was high for 5 hours. Then I came down but had school in a few hours so I did some more. I missed school and didnt eat or sleep for 3 days after that.
The first day I felt emotionally drained. After that I simply couldnt eat or sleep. All in all the expperience was much like getting hit by a ford F-150. It was an AMAZING RUSH and then a coke like high for 5 hours. but the three day hangover was not worth it and I havent done it since and wouldnt just because it REALLY isnt good for you. Not good enough feeling to harm myself like that.
I did meth once in my life (in three different injections). I first shot a small amount to see what would happen. Small being 45 mg or so. And it was ok but not what I was hoping for. Then I shot more (mabye 250 mg) and nearly overdosed. But I got an intense rush. The rush was complete with auditory and visual distortiona dn was akin to tripping on a dark eerie psychedelic for like 5 minutes. Then I was high for 5 hours. Then I came down but had school in a few hours so I did some more. I missed school and didnt eat or sleep for 3 days after that.
The first day I felt emotionally drained. After that I simply couldnt eat or sleep. All in all the expperience was much like getting hit by a ford F-150. It was an AMAZING RUSH and then a coke like high for 5 hours. but the three day hangover was not worth it and I havent done it since and wouldnt just because it REALLY isnt good for you. Not good enough feeling to harm myself like that.
Been 6 years since you posted this.I'm a meth addict... I didn't get hooked after my very first hit, but instead the addiction crept up on me. I was addicted before I even realised. I've been smoking and IV'ing for just over 2 years, but I've now reached the stage where I want to quit the stuff for good, which is a lot easier said than done! It's a very nasty drug, and I've done a lot of damage to myself - physically and mentally - though my heavy usage. It does feel great, but tolerance develops very quickly and eventually I was just needing it to get out of bed in the morning.
I'm severely underweight (my BMI is about 15), extremely pale, I've got sores and scars across my skin where I've been scratching at the "meth bugs", and my liver and kidney aren't in good shape. I've also had periods of psychosis, after binging, where I've had to be admitted into detox facilities and psych wards - sometimes under police escort. I think most people can tell I'm a tweaker just by looking at me.
Sorry, I have to add this to the thread and it's a %100 true story.I did meth once in my life (in three different injections). I first shot a small amount to see what would happen. Small being 45 mg or so. And it was ok but not what I was hoping for. Then I shot more (mabye 250 mg) and nearly overdosed. But I got an intense rush. The rush was complete with auditory and visual distortiona dn was akin to tripping on a dark eerie psychedelic for like 5 minutes. Then I was high for 5 hours. Then I came down but had school in a few hours so I did some more. I missed school and didnt eat or sleep for 3 days after that.
The first day I felt emotionally drained. After that I simply couldnt eat or sleep. All in all the expperience was much like getting hit by a ford F-150. It was an AMAZING RUSH and then a coke like high for 5 hours. but the three day hangover was not worth it and I havent done it since and wouldnt just because it REALLY isnt good for you. Not good enough feeling to harm myself like that.