I'm a pain patient. so never did it recreationally. However, I have experienced the high, and it's quite wonderful. That is, it can be.
First off, I'm totally blind, been that way from birth, and have a neural condition called synesthesia. That is, my senses are not blocked off from each other, like yours probably are.
Specifically, words, sounds, and emotions produce an almost hallucinatory tactile effect for me, even when I'm stone cold sober.
The first time I did opes was in the hospital. They injected morphine into me. The first sensation was global pain as Auntie M. hit my system. Then, I felt a single strand of Persian cat fur snake down my left cheek. After that, a sense of warmth--warmth like fur.
Like I said, I have synesthesia, so when I feel euphoric, my whole body feels as if it's plunging into fur, or as if God is letting down furry arms from Heaven, to pres, caress, and otherwise pet my face and forehead off.
When they prescribed pills, I noticed a difference between Oxycodone and morphine.
Morphine: contentment, huge furs and impending furs, either it's touching me in all its tingly softness or it's about to touch me, and my cheeks tingle from the nearness of it; I feel great love for God, and talk sweet to Jesus. (I also happen to be a born again Christian, so that factors into it)
2. A sense of glamor: While listening to a certain song, one with rich orchestration and sweet words, I suddenly felt like a movie star with a glass of champagne in my hand. Morphine often takes hold of my writer's imgination, though I've never hallucinated, which by the way, is not par forthe course with opiates, anyway.
3. Need love: When under the influence of opiates, I was always after my husand for sex. I was often more apt to make suggestive remarks, cuddle closer, etc. I'm also more humorous.
Oxycodone:
1. More peaceful, apt to feel velvet rather than fur. In my synesthetic world, fur=ecstasy/euphoria, velvet=peace/contentment. My dreams are apt to contain synesthetic content, especially if I am listening to something while in REM sleep. For example, I heard a certain voice with a distinctive quality in it, and I said, "I don't like the smell of her voice". (I had been listening to a documentary about fish, and it translated into my dream as the smell of someone's voice)
Alot of exotic mixed sensory things like that happen in my dreams or as I'm awaking from them. Everything but visual, as I have never seen since birth. I am completely blind.
2. I find Oxycodone more sedative than morphine, and find I can sleep better under its influence. Morphine tends to keep me awake.
The Mix: As I am on both meds, they are often mixed in my system. As you probably know, these opiates don't feel the same the hundredth time as they do the first or second time. As a pain patient, I've had to let go of the exotic dreams and the command I got in my brain to laugh and laugh. I couldn't stop laughing one night, due to the mix of Oxy and M. in my brain. My endorphins must have been way up there. I felt this command in my brain "Laugh", it said. It was like a word and an electric shock together, not unpleasant. As a patient with depressive disorder, the opiates were particularly seductive to me. My anti-depressants don't lift my mood the way the opes do, nor do they make me feel like I'm being touched by furry hands from Heaven. The medically approved antidepressants don't make me feel like my nerve endings are singing, nor do they make me feel lovable and cuddly.
Which brings me to the down side:
THE MOST IMPORTANT: Opiates NEVER feel as good as the first and second time. The body gets tolerant, and you have to increase your dosage, even if you're a good little pain patient who never misuses, and I can't say that about myself, although my relationship with God has made me much less apt to misuse. I know He's watching, so that helps keep me on track. I have not always resisted the temptation to chase the dragon, but thanks to Him, I'm doing fairly well. Plus, I've learned other down sides.
1. Dysphoria: I can get very dysphoric, that is, weepy and depressed, if I'm high on M or O, and there's no one there to love. Now that I'm alone, that's most of the time. If I could feel pain only when I'm around people, that would be just dandy, because then I could shine with my humor and my cuddly self. But now that I'm alone, and having some uneasy issues with someone I met online dating, I can get very dysphoric.
I learned very early on in my treatment that popping a morphine or Oxycodone pill when I was angry or sad wouldn't change my mood. If I was happy or feeling good enough, and just taking the medication for pain, as it's prescribed, then I'd catch a bit of a buzz. It's a warm, furry buzz with a champagne glow. But when it doesn't happen, there's nothing you can do to make it happen.
Hope this helps, and I hope you will take the cautions I've mentioned into consideration before trying it.
You may think you could handle it for a few times, but they are highly addictive, and why wouldn't it be? Anything that can give you the feeling that God's in His Heaven, all's right with the world, mixed with a furry warm champagne glow, would be addictive, even if it didn't have a physical tolerance and addiction side to it. Also, it causes constipation. Just soyou know ...
