
Originally Posted by
phoenixrain88
I frequently feel my heartbeat as a very hard pulse against my chest. Indeed, I have seen the outline of it pounding against my chest. So I can understand the frustration and even terror which surely are gripping you! My chest also twinges with pain or pressure at least daily.
I have had two few-minute EKG's and one 24-hour EKG in the past few months, none of them showing any problems, but anxiety about something being wrong with my heart has nonetheless persisted.
What drives me wild is that my heart seems to alternate between beating rather weakly, so weakly I can barely feel it (which sends me into a terror about cardiac arrest), to pounding against my chest, sometimes hard enough for me to see the outline (which sends me into a terror about the heart fucking exploding!)
Do you smoke weed? My anxiety corresponds exactly to my increasing usage of weed, particularly weed combined with psychedelics. (Not psychedelics on their own.)
It is reassuring that at least one other person, who is not dead, has also experienced very-strong heartbeat throughout the day even while sober, heartbeat strong enough to cause the chest and stomach to ripple with motion. And just like you've been told that your problems are likely anxiety, everyone insists that my heart fears, that the pains and numbness in my chest and in my arms and accompanying terror, are pure anxiety, nothing physically wrong. Somehow I can't quite believe them.
One thing to try is, if you can get your hands on some form of benzo, take it and see if you still have any physical symptoms. I did that recently and, lo and behold, my physical symptoms almost completely disappeared along with my mental ones. Sweet, sweet relief, though that hasn't stopped many of the symptoms from roaring back in the wake!