^ Iono. I sniff. I'm not addicted by any means yet, but I don't ever see myself never using heroin again.
The thing about sniffing is that the first couple of times you do it, you don't really get high. You're usually a paranoid kid. When I did it the first time, I had two bags of some stuff. Only took one bag with me that night. Did it quarter by quarter, all spaced out and shit. Felt it. Thought it wasn't all that amazing. Next time, do half the bag at once, then move up with the quarters. Felt it more. That first half had an interesting tiny hint of a rush. Just tiny.
Next batch comes, taking it slow. Wasted night. Turns out I needed two bags to get off, fuck. Next night, blow one bag straight and half the next, save a bit for later. Hello Mr. Rush, so this is what the fuss is about.
Then I got some of that Target. Blow some of it; Mr. Rush, you've sure grown. It was the 2nd, 4th and 5th times that I ever used dope, in that progression of increasing rush and pleasure that made me go on to it. The high from those times up until now are definitely the high that make you want to do it over and over again, no doubt. (Prob not as good as the needle tho, I def gotta give you that).
Can't even imagine what the needle holds. The way I see it, the needle is what separates me from being 5 feet further deep in this water. Still ain't crossed that line.
Don't get me wrong, I'd be somewhat open to the needle for other drugs, and trust me I think about how great the needle must be so much of the time, but I think it's what's keeping me stable that I don't use it.
When you say rush referrin to the feeling from sniffing, I kno wat u mean. The come up. The feeling where you start to nod almost, where it hits your brain all at once and you are like , Ahhhhh, and just want to put your head down. when you feel the high start to accelerate and you get that WHOMMMP feeling when the dope smacks you. U might think, ok, thats a rush, nd yea i guess t has the "rush" u get from sniffing.
But trust me as a former sniffer, there aitn no comparison, it aint like there even similar at all, it makes the "rush" from sniffing be NOTHING....
If sniffing is wat i just described, the rush from shooting is more like this. And this s the feeling you get, your FIRST rush. You will probably never feel it again, but everry rush afterwards is somethin like it just not AS crazy strong. But the first time, if you never felt it before, that rush is like a goddamn religious experience, real talk.
Put in the needle, register, push the plunger down and your heart starts to beat faster, once you see that the bottom of the plunger hit the bottom of the barrell of the needle, you know you home free, and just got to wait a second, and so you start counting backwards from 10. 10, 9, 8, 7, 6, and all of a sudden your ears go deaf like you are inside a giant sea shell , liek when youre a little kid and you listen to the sound of the ocean in a conch shell. All you hear in your ears is ,whooooosssshhhhhhhh, shhhwhhhhsssssssshhhhh, and your eyes kind of roll up in your head at the second it hits, the release of the best fuckin nut you ever busted, but all over, its tingling and radiating out from your arms to your hands, to your legs all the way down to your feet, and the warmth in your chest it feels glorious, immaculate, its like the beautiful feeling of taking a huge deep breath after u held your breath for a whole long minute, its like butter so smooth and rich and as that comfort-bomb takes over you, at the same time a fuckin nuclear warhead of pure PLEASURE is going off everywhere inside you, screaming thru your veins, all at once just crushing, pummelling your entire body and mind, its overwhelming every defense your body has against it, its like falling but not trying to stop, just lettin go and lettin yourself falll thru the air, its like floating, flying thru the sky.
Imagine the feeling when you are down the shore as a small child and you slip and fall under a wave, and for a second you get stuck under the waves as the undertow pulls you back and the waves are crashin over you, pushin you forward. And you get trapped, try to find up but you cant, your head hits the sand and you keep rolling, ass over head over heels, over and over you just tumble under the water and the waves are smashing you into the sand and you feel like youll never escape, Well imagine that feeling only the waves aint salt water, they are waves of pure fuckin bliss, of exquisite pleaasure so fine that its beyond words, the complete essence of it, Fuckin, divine rapture. total Ecstasy, distilled into its purest form and its running thru your veins , crashing and smashing over you, fillin your nose and mouth with their euphoria, and its happening right now, all at once, fireworks blasting in your brain, the pleasure centers of your mind lit up like a fuckin pinball machine just gettin hit over and over again, Dingdingdingding as the ball just pings back and forth between the dopamine and serotonin and all the spots that just keep releasing these chemicals that flood your system til youre stupified with bliss.
youre helpless to do anything but experience this explosion of ultimate, total joy that you are givin yourself over to, surrendering to this feeling that is ravishing ur body, takin your body from you till all you feel is warm, fuzzy air where your arms and legs should be, youre flying thru space behind your closed eyes, your throat is choked up becuz its like theres a weight on your chest spreading the golden light all thru it, your breathing is shallow, you dont even need to breathe you feel so good. and your eyes are half shut cuz you dont even need to see anything to know how good you feeling, and you might want to say somethin, but you dont. you just stop, the words die in your throat becuz u realize that this is so good, so incredibly, amazingly perfectly blissful , that u really dont care , and dont want to say anything at all and thats fine...
All that, But rolled into one single needle, in one shot, and you feel it ALL AT ONCE....When that rush hits, THATS wat you feel, every cell in your body havin a orgasm at the same time, a feeling so strong that if it got converted into energy it could slam you against a wall like nothin, it aint just a feeling it aint just, good, aint just , the come up of the high, but Heaven itself coming over you, its goin from 0-200mph in 1.5 seconds flat, its the feeling in your chest that seems to fly out of your body as you drop off a sudden dip on a 400 foot high rollercoaster, its the way your head gets pressed back onto the cushion when you go in one of those Gravitron things at the carnival , and the faster you go around the harder it is to lift your head up, that feelin of speeding thru the night, thats in the rush when it comes on and hits you, its a place you get lost in, that time stops while it comes, its over so quick but in your mind for those few seconds, you can live forever....
THATs a rush...And thats why u better pray u never experience it, cuz ull be chasin it for teh rest of your life. it really is like 2 different drugs.
