Vaya
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Old thread, but I need to resurrect Lazarus here to add some more anecdotal information.
I decided to try a selegiline regimen under my own direction. I am already taking citalopram. I found some anecdotal and weak evidence that the combo was safe.
I am also a poly-drug user/abuser.
The goal was stimulant potentiation and an increased mood.
I took 5mg selegiline for 3 days. On the third day, I took 10mg Adderall under the impression my MAO-B levels would not have dropped significantly yet. I didn't seem to feel any of the normal amphetamine effects. Three hours later I took a 25mg Adderall XR. Again, some kind of weird lack of effect - I didn't have an increased HR, BP is unknown, and mentally I "seemed" to be unaffected.
Long story short, I was hypomanic and didn't recognize it. I wound up taking MXE. I went into a full-blown manic state / psychosis. I "discovered" the meaning of life and "communicated" across time and space, but all of this without any sense at all that I was not mentally together. Physically I was absolutely hyperthermic. I then went and vaped DMT and hash. At some point I did begin eating benzodiazepines but it certainly was not in an attempt to attenuate the experience. I honestly can't even remember the full extent of what I took or why.
Long story short I was clinically insane for about 20 hours, then I was in an altered state but with some sense of reality for another 12 or so.
I knew better, I was an idiot here and risked my life. But if there is one thing I would like to throw out there, it is to be careful about entering a hypomanic state. It is very hard to recognize and will most likely require someone else noticing it for you to catch on.
I am still using selegiline, but in a very different manner and with much greater caution. Best of luck to you.
Very powerful narrative... I relate to it very much.
Would you like me to add this under 'Trip Reports & Experiences,' and giving you credit for the writing?
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