started opiates in 2001 from 1 vidodin a day to about 300 mg Demerol every 3 hours iv in 2 months. forced quit x5 years following. mild withdrawal. Soon as able, started with couple vics quickly increased to 25 mg morphine iv every couple hours a few months. no more access...few weeks later oxys, hydro, whatever pills only till introduced to methadone (2006). eventually on 160mg daily (intended but I'd take my 2 week supply in about 8 days or less (80mg every 3 hrs with about 7 Benadryl to enhance the high) n withdrawal every other week till I had people lock it up n administer to me the last year uhtill about 2012 feb when I cold turkeyd the shit. (after doing the 2 week supply in a week again). I suffered tremendous withdrawal a couple weeks I started drinking a lot. I ended up non sleeping for a second for a month. I tried immodium. I slept. I got up to 350 mg daily. didn't crosss my mind I'd experience withdrawal like I did. I tried to qaruit due to lack of money and it was damn close to methadone withdrawal (after a year at that dose. I went about 2 weeks with maybe one or two 150 mg doses in that period for a fuckin break from it all. unbearable chills, suicidal, depression, anxiety, breathlessness, insomnia, rls, hot feet, cold hot pins n eedles fatigue can't even stand up, can't eat, vomiting, diarrh. ea, etc etc never got any better...got job, another year but at about 250 mg a day. also, started bendadry, increased that to about 7 pills every 4 hours too for bout a year (after steady increase). one night went around the block with suspended license, had warrant for prior failure to appear (never been to jail), but I got a 16 day sentence. imagine the panick that set in. so I finally told about while I was in there. told him to trash all the shit Ia had left. jail wasn't the best place to wd but I told myself this would not be for nothing. im done. so I suffered my ass off. went to er once in there had some morphine for about a 30 minute relief. but it overall wasn't as bad as the first time but still hell I was able to sleep at least a few hours a day most days as opposed to none a year ago. so I got early release day 11. tried sum pot that nite, helped a bit, but next day found a shitload and dosed that day, next day, and next day. tossed the rest. only took 150mg each of the 3 days. now its 7 days later so 3 weeks minus the 3 days. im guessing those 3 days prolong this shit about a week or longer but is there any end in sight? I drank all day yesterday for a break. slept quite a bit last night. stopped diarrhea with iron pills (anemic anyway).. its the mental part im worried so much about. so depressed. need a job. faked it through an interview Friday, but how the hell do you work in this state. I can't wait to be finally free of all opiates after 8 years straight of methadone/lope. BTW I did have that long QT syndrome. as a nurse I can tell you you can drop dead with that at any time. I didn't know about it till researching last week that It was the cause. will I ever feel like my old self ( the last time was that 5 year period ending 2006).
does nicotine make withdrawal worse? caffeine? im staying away from Benadryl period too. even if it would help insomnia.