I've been doing some reseach and was wondering what your opinion was on what drugs produce long-term memory suppression (resulting in emotional blunting). I know this idea is going to make some people angry but this is coming from a person with long term depression and PTSD.
I have studied psychogenic amnesia and retrograde amnesia and both can be caused by long term drug abuse but little facts are given.
I've been on benzo's (serious dependance) for about 10 years and its pretty much wiped most of my childhood memories but memories from the past 10 years are causing me the most imparement in daily life. I've also been on lithium for about 3 years with was great for not feeling emotion but the memories remained.
Please do not tell me to go to therapy. I've gone to more shrinks in the last 10 years than you can imagine and none of them know how to help me. It was suggested by a professional(and I've seen slight improvement in depressive / emotional episodes) that repressing (through meditation, drugs, whatever) is another line or resort and probably a survival instinct. They suggested I stay on the benzo's if it gets me through the day, dulls my emotions, and lets me work and be productive. I want the past gone though. wiped clean from memory, I want to be happy and a long term trama can make that very hard to just forget.
I've heard of memory issues after people have tried OD'ing unsucessfullly with benzo's and I know lithium works on the emotional level. I have also read that long term opiate use also cuases this although I dont want another addiction to add to the list.